anything new?

yes.

ME = SICK.

first came the throat inflamation.
then down to cough.
then now, runny nose + nose block.
oh... wat's next?
FEVER?? coool... i dun mind.
it gives me excuse to rest myself more.

went singing despite my sore voice.
yes yes.. super went off key like nobody's biz.
NEVER am i goin to sing again when i have a throat like this.
after tat, went yes, yes, shopping again.
spent ard 100 bucks?
on shoes and bag.

no more spending!
somebody tie me up pls!!!!

sleepy...

haven not slpt enugh for the past 2 nights.
having u callin early morning at 9+
and having spending last nite over.
gives me 100% transformation :

P-A-N-D-A.

esp last nite.
tossing and turning. can't sleep.
though it was raining. but the construction work
upgrading all tat happening in the early morning...
so hard to get sleep.



took the pic b4 while slping... wonder how long will we be holding on...

there's no school tml.
finally can catch more slp...
i hope so? i duno.
it's a gd thing i get slp.
but if i din get ur call...
it's disturbing.
contradicting.

tIred.

very tired.

had a superly long day.
and havin slpt at 3+ last nite doesn't help a single bit.

wasn't working today.
coz i WORKED yesterday.
woke up early
went for K lunch wif special guest,
ANDERSON LAI aka yuan yuan.
lol
after singing, spent the rest of the day SHOPPING!

i spent quite a lot today.
100 over bucks. 'Kaaa-chhiiiinnng'
one new top, skirt, 'shoes', bag, toiletries.

feeling slpy.
working tml.
and then, sch starts.
sighz.

tired.
glad u called me ytd and today.
watever it is
nice to hear from u
always.

time to slp.
there's a long day tml.

i duno wat u wan...
really...
u've been callin for the past 2 days.
not sure if you'll call tml?

are we or are we not...
only u will know.

i'm goin to not think about it anymore.
leave it as it is.
i'm not goin to be the one clearing up
nor am i the one who messed it up.
i'll jus see wat u do.

hopefully find out more from your friend, J.K.

tired.
physically. mentally. emotionally.
been tru a tough emotional roller coaster ride.
too tired to think.

i'm caught up.
it's juz like jolin's song
dao dai.
i really had enough of waiting.
a constantly off-on relationship
which had already dragged on for 4 mnths.
really leaves me drained.
plus, my grandma's death, which,
had a huge impact on me.

these few days
u really do annoy me alot.
i do not know why am i so irritable.
putting a stop to everything
is the only thing on my mind now.

star gazing // fire works night?
still holdin on to those
CNY eve memories. yes.
so wat. they are fond ones
though it hurts me.
reminds me of my foolishness.
watever.
i guess, DAO DAI is the only song i can sing.

duno y am i blogging when i got nothing to blog about.

sometimes i feel that we clicked.
we know what each other is thinkin about.
however, there's still distance
and gap in between us...

Am soooo tired.

slpt at 4 plus last nite.
woke up at 8+ this morning
suppose to wake up at 8.
somehow, i din hear the alarm.
syndrom = EXTREME TIREDNESS.
haha.

uncle came to pick mum and i up.
went over to pay respect to my late ah ma.
geez. how time flies. 49 days already.
still remember the day, 27th nov 2004...
Jay's concert. Jojo acc me to visit my grandma in the hospital
SICU. at level 3. and now...
51 more days to a hundred and we'll all be heading to
the cemetery.

left soon and met up jojo! after sooo long
(refer to above)
for a 4 hr plus long singing session.
why the plus? guess only we know.
haha. anywhere food's yummy at k lunch cineleisure.
after tat, went to snip my hair.......
long awaited day.
not too bad. satisfactory.
did it at a salon at far east.

went to bugis in the evening.
suppose to go airport wif kelvin.
but too bad. sudden changes.
so we went for dinner instead.

wat a long and tiring day...

Err...
i duno if i shld blog or not.

i'm now back to the downside of my life again.
had wonderful uphills for the past few wks.
wat to do,
ur's faithfully is forever naive.
somehow, it's not bothering me tat much.
perhaps, i've manage to relate my emotions to songs.
whatever.
i no longer wan to dream.
even though my dream in my previous posts came true.
Read this: F-R-E-A-K-I-N-G C-A-M-E T-R-U-E
i jus tot...
lets jus leave it to fate again.

i met u 5 years back.
saw you few times during the past few yrs
even b4 we really got to know each other.
and now really know u from work.
ain't this call fate?

my same line: Let's jus see how it goes.

well, haven been updating.
been busy working
tiring weeks for me...

me life is pretty much the same.
work and work.
school's starting soon... (why am i reminding myself?!?!)
it's been a mnth plus since my grandma passed away.
how time flies man...
all the ceremony and rituals only seems like yesterday.
i still get flashback of the whole thing.
can't help. wat to do...
it really affects me alot.

it's a sat. this is the first sat,
i haven gone singing for the past 3 wks.
and i'm missing it!
this officially shows that i'm addicted to singing.
yes yes.

my life hasn't been different from being single...
it feels exactly the same.
this is the first time i'm heading into a relationship
where i duno where it'll bring me to.
of coz, i hope for a happy ending like all fairytales.
who wouldn't? but then, lookin at how things goes,
i guess it'll be..... a very very low keyed one.
no nothing...
rumors at work place have been flyin ard.
i guessed it's no longer kept in the dark.
it's such a headache. but... still
i dun wana think about it.

jus hope that everything will go smoothly.
you're sick. very sick. i can see that.
i suppose it's the effect from your growin wisdom tooth
i had that too. so... pls take good care of yourself k.
miss you.

as i allow myself to step into this relationship again,
i jus cross my fingers.

all i wan and ever wish for,
is jus simply,
for everything to go on well...

hopefully, it will not be like the past 2 times.

忘了有多久 再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里

你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

*童话*光良*

told me to remember to miss u.
haha.

and yes, i did.

miss u loads. rather than jus miss u.

=P

I seriously duno wat to say.
this is the second time you're asking for a
'patch-back'.
if i were to agree, it will be the third time.

i guess i'm in a dilemma.
i should really ignore u first.
should i?
maybe i should jus let things take its course.
i dun wan to make any of such bgr decisions
at this point in time.

wat can i say now?

all i have in mind is stillmy beloved grandma.

i have had a very long day today.
i slpt at 4 plus near 5 am
and woke up early morning for hssband's syf.

this is the first time after so long,
my heart goes out to the band once again.

My dear band,
i know u guys aim high.
it's good to aim high for a gold.
but then like wat i've said.
it's not wat u get. it's how much effort that you've put in.
and who says maintaining a sliver is easy?
i am really so proud of u guys.
my batch only did a bronze.
this is the first time i see a band who gets a sliver and cried so hard.
everybody cried... it was... indeed a sad moment.
yes, we'll stand firm
you guys din fail. neither did u fall today.
work hard for the next syf... juniors.
GO THE DISTANCE.
gold does not come overnight.
hssband went back to comp only from my batch. 3 syfs.
you guys did ur best. great job.
love u all... it was great to see the band spirit and teamwork once again.
i miss my band days...

oh.. i went to buy 2 books today!
wow. haha.
haven been reading for long time. and that reminds me...
i must go buy 8 days tml.
i bought 'Asking for Trouble' by Jason hahn, a writer for 8 days.
and this very interesting book entitled..
He's Jus Not Into You...

been quite sometime since i last blogged.
kinda abandon my blog.
it's not that i'm lazy to blog.
jus that i dun feel like.
there's nothing much for me to blog either.

my life's pretty much the same.
it's either work or home, slacking, bumming ard
playing sims 2.
oh yeah, it's hell lot of an addiction.

there's nothing much else to do...
actually there is.
pack up my bookshelf, head to the gym, arrange singing sessions...
blah blah...
did i mention b4 that i've found new interest in workin out in the gym?
well not much of working out.
jus sweating it out... make myself more alive?
oh... and i'm still hooked on to singing.
there's more things i can do.
jus that i can't seem to bring myself to do it.. lazy. ya. i know.
i've got nothing on today.
been ask to j0in movie.. but then, movie is not really my thing.
cept for the nachos. =X
i duno if i shld go or not.
or jus bum at home and
control my sims...

dun bother askin me if i'm feelin better...
coz, i will say ya. i am.
whether am i... this i do not know.
so dun bother askin.
now i feel like watching LOTR again... sheesh...

first and foremost,
thanks to everyone who care...
those who came down...

finally, it's over.
i mean, the 5 days long funeral.
back home from CCK cemetery.
the burial ritual.
it's indeed a very sad thing to come to accept the fact that
the one who took care of you,
watched you grew up,
taught you those things you ought to know,
jus left you. without a word.
i really do miss and love my grandma alot.
but things are not really over yet.
the 7th day ritual, 49th day ritual and 100th day ritual.
i'm dead beat.
four hours of slp for 5 days.
jus hope that i can energize myself by tml.
coz i got to work on thurs. and the 7th thingy as well.

jus as soon after i posted my previous post,
the phone rang.
non stop
i felt uncomfortable.
and there it is.
I LOST MY BELOVED GRANDMA.
I was still missing her on my way home.
Now, i LOST HER TOTALLY.
NEVER EVER will i see her again.
NEVER EVER will she hear me call her anymore.

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

Well, true or false, i dun know
jus for fun.
anyway, i think...
i'm goin to set myself free
yes.
be myself once more.
let go... and be free...

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot But you also stretch the truth on occasion You figure a little lie isn't a big deal As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

had one of the worst paper today
was writing rubbish throughout the whole damn paper
let's jus hope that i dun have to go back
to take supp paper.

after tat went to meet chris and her mr L for KBOX
wah... first time i sang Sooooo much.
i mean... really alot!! first time i open my voice in public!
hahaahha
basically got hooked onto singing!!!!!!!!
i wana go singing again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha
anywayz, it did help me forget lots of things already.
so relaxed now.
tired also....
*yawnz*