Saturday, December 31, 2005

seems like my blog's been abandon by me...
i din.
jus too tired and busy to blog.

Christmas's over. been working.
2006 is jus 8 hrs away.
but seems like nothing to me.

i guess only CNY will mean more to me.
coz the date draws nearer.


i have tonnes to catch up on.
there's one report due on 3rd Jan.
wat a stupid date. i have to finish it up soon.
Been skipping MA 2 lectures and tutorials.
i think i'm dead.
left with 2 more mnths before i can say gdbye to TP.
yet i'm exhausted.
really trying hard to push myself.

sighz.
wonder where's everybody off to celebrate new year.
i'll be doin cleaning tonite.
and duno perhaps... watch WWE wif dear at home...
wash his baby...
jus like how we celebrate christmas,
after work, peacefully sitted at home watching tv...

we went to haw par villa the other day...
haha...
took only 2 pics.
so funny.
next mnth we're goin to ZOOOOOO
buy TV...
and after exams, we're goin to HK.
and... i aiming for N92...

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Sighz.
It's the holiday week now.
but i'm restless.

there's work.
projects.
and one damn SIP REPORT
to be submitted by 27th.

I'm stuck wif the same class.
Same group. Same kind of STRESS.
it's not that i dun like this group.
it's jus tat...
i find it hard to keep wif the pace of this group.
and tis class... the damn competitive group.

I nv like to make enemies.
Cept for those wif faces that i can't seem to accept.
I always like to start wif one same rule.
TRY TO BE FRIEND with EVERYONE.
unless, the person seems like a threat to me.
well, that group... definitely does hav one.
who uses that look on me.
sighz.

I tired.
i wan to work more.
but time doesn't seems to fit in right.
i duno what to do.
I'm HUNGRY now.
but gonna take another nap soon.
hopefully will wake up at 8 and forget about hunger.
am goin to help dear wif cleaning later.

work tml.
think i'll hav to try to do at least 50% of my report tml...
I wish.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Something extremely sad happened a few hours ago.
It affects dear most.
No more FS4459M...
We met up wif a road block.
That's it.
the rest is history.

No more riding.
No more pillion.
and there's most probably a court case coming up.
I duno what to say.
Really Speechless.
I know dear is extremely sad deep inside.
But i really do not know how to comfort him.

I should have stop him.
I can't help but blame myself here and there.
Coz i had that bad feel.
and mum had 'warn' me earlier that something will happen.
I SHOULD HAVE STOP HIM.
WHY DIN I???

there's nothing we can do now.
sighz.
last 2 pics of our 'baby' before we jus park it downstairs...
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Thursday, December 08, 2005

Ignorance is sometimes the best thing on earth.

One side of me yearns to know the truth.

Yet sometimes,

I rather I not know anything and be an idiot.

At least, I'll be a happy idiot.

It's hard to trust

when it has been broken before.

But yet, it seems like i have not much of a choice.

I have to trust but i duno how to.

I dun think i can afford to lose.

Yet, I have doubts about holding on.

Does the prob really lies with me?

Or is it that the end is near?

I read the blog.

The entry talks about U.

It sounds like the situtaion I'm in.

Seems like,

my sentimentals and my gut has been right.

I certainly do hope that they are wrong.

I wish i could jus care less

Jus like you.

But i can't.

Coz, u jus meant the whole world to me.

but still, i might not mean anything much to u.

I wish i have the power to brainwash myself at times.

I wish my mind doesn't wander off too far.

I wish my curiousity doesn't kill me.

but too bad.

I can't.

many a times i wanted to let go.

but i know deep down inside

i can't bear and afford to.

I guess I have to learn to adapt

and try to be as giving as ever...

even though i'm really tired.

really.

Friday, December 02, 2005

today, after so so so long,
i finally met up with mama!
oooooooo
i really miss hanging out wif mama.
jus like those year 1 and 2 days.
we went to kimage to cut hair.

yuan yuan say it's nice and
this hairstyle suits me better.
so does dear.
maybe, it really does.
thanks to JAI.
the hairdresser.

and, one thing to say,
after cutting hair,
we left funan and mama and i parted,
i saw the hairstylist outside bugis.
even before i reach.
lol.

then after cleaning,
dear and i went to 85 to eat.
met up wif his best girl-friend.
and her bf.
after so long.

tml dear and i got off.
we're suppose to watch chicken little
and eat pizza.
then go pet safari...