Tuesday, June 20, 2006

I tot i'll come and update.
coz i did something to myself today.

a change
in my
HAIR COLOR!!!

and it costs me a bomb indeed.
not a v recommendable place.
but i still love it in the end.
so it's not tat bad either.
supposedly a haircut.
but the hairdresser coax me into this.

'nugh said.
let the pics do the talkin for u...

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and for the next pic, i was only tryin to act cute.
i swear i din put any blusher.
i duno y i look pink.
REALLY

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and i tot i'll end it with a classic pic!

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Monday, June 19, 2006

been really long since i last posted.

the previous post did rake up a bit of prob
causing me to lose my job.
but wat can i say.
it's how i feel.
it's my blog. and it was injust done to me.
and it's the truth. you dun like wat u saw.
and did wat u wanted to already.
so let it be. jus like wat i've said.
i'm fine. i wun starve to death not working in the morning.
and one impt thing. u dun ever mention abt him and my work.
his behaviour has got nothing to do with my work.
u are way too much to say tat.
and ur outburst had really set me thinking.
i shan't elaborate further. coz it's jus makin me boil.

it's been almost a wk since i stopped workin there.
i'm livin a v much relaxed lifestyle now.
and i actually stepped into kino and bought books
for self entertainment purpose. tat's so nooot me.
for a long long time.

i'm giving myself a break in the meantime.
jus workin at tako.
and tat reminds me that i've got a
"Facts abt Tako" to blog about.
let me sort out the list rite first.
coz i've been getting real irritated by those customers
nowadays.
no more 3 jobs. back to square one. 1 job. + cleaner
i'm satisfied at the moment.
gimme a break from those silent pressure
from the 3 jobs. where nobody knows.
and i've made it clear to him
tat he in any case do not interfere wif my choice of jobs.
i hope so.

Friday, June 09, 2006

this post is going to be about work.

i hate to post this. but i'm really upset
wif how things are running.

I was given a choice who i should report to ytd.
I have not made any yet.
and it was being made without me knowing.
What's the point of giving me the choice in the first place?
Can i treat all those that i was told about ytd
as bullshit?
no i can't. but then you made the decision and said
i report to him. what's the choice for then?

I was told to keep my pc password protected.
cos i handle company finance in some way.
those files shall be kept private.
and i keep gettin ppl askin for my password.
i gave so many times. y can't u ppl jus write it down
and keep somewhere?
and someone has been using my desktop.
and had mess up my in-tray.
you ppl are the one who tell me to keep my documents protected.
and yet allow others to use my desktop by givin them access
by asking for my password again and again.
wat's the point of setting it up once again?
it's freaking rude to access a password protected pc
without askin for permission.
it's company information i'm talking about.
wat if some details got leak out.
who's gonna be responsible? me? NO WAY.
i set up a password. it's YOU PEOPLE who gave it out.
and then blame me? dream on.

I was told that i've been makin mistakes at work.
how can one not make mistakes
when somebody keeps making changes in ur completed work
and MESSES up everything?
i stayed on because you asked me to.
i see u as a friend. and i dun ask for too much.
that's y i stayed on to help.
despite much objections.
and now you ppl are making me think twice.
or triple times. perhaps more.

Monday, June 05, 2006

i feel stupid.

first person to say i'm stupid
for being wif him is HIS DAD.

then my mom says so
when we had a big fight long ago.

then now my boss says so too.

i am stupid.
i am really stupid.
i dun deserve to be around.
stupid people are jus a hindrance
to the society.
i mean nothing.
nothing to anyone.
i withdrew myself from my frens.
i'm scared
that my frens will say tat i'm stupid.

i dun wan my frens to know i'm so stupid.
i scared i'll lose them all.
but i'm stupid.
stupid enough to lose everything
jus bcoz of him.

one stupid girl crying to herself.
one stupid girl talking to herself
in the bathroom.
stupid girl tries to comfort herself.
stupid girl only wans jus 1.
1 person who loves her more than anything.
1 person who cares for her.
1 person who will be there when she cries.
and not make her cry.
1 person who can give her a hug when she needs one.
1 person who will lend her a shoulder
to lean on when she's tired.
1 person to be with her
throughout thick and thin.
stupid girl jus wans 1. 1 person.
nothing else.
stupid girl lost hope.
stupid girl lost her dreams.
stupid girl lost her life.
stupid girl lost everything.

i am the world's stupidest girl.