Saturday, February 28, 2004

why must it always be you who make me cry... why must it always be you who break your promise... why... why must you be the one who hurt me the most?

why must it always be him to be there.. why must it always be him to cheer me up... why must it always be him to make me smile....??

isn't that your responsibility? you broke this heart.. and somebody else came along to mend it.. the heart still belong to you but... u're still breaking it.. somebody else often gets upset seeing the heart broken... one day, somebody else might juz keep the heart from u.... forever..

Friday, February 27, 2004

haIz... really very tired. Since all the mesSy events that tOok place last week, i haVen reaLLY got a gOod slp for sometime... wOrk is juz sO daMn boRIng... eaSy moNey ThouGh... Anywayz... tHere's too MAny thIngs goiN on.... I'm reALLy in a FiXEd.
I tot i MaDe the decisioN.... but then.. waT he saId and did laTer is maKing me change my mind... aRh.... i can't go on like This forEver. i hAv to dEcide sOon or ratheR aSAp.. but how? i'm Not fooling arOund or Playin with anybody's heARt.... but it's juz..... haIz..... Why on earth do sUcH things come aLtOgether at The saME time?
wHy saY that u'll waIt for Me??????? He saId tat.. you saId tat too.. i can't let you waIt forEver eIther.... and i seriousLy dun wan to waSte your time.... i really can't decide....

Am i really worth waiting for?

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

deLeted 2 posts.. those who've been reaDing my blog everyday would know. tHose who missed out... toO bad...
Wat's goin On??????????? everything's... ok to some... but to me and whoever's involved, i dun think it's eaSy. i prettY much meSsed up my Life agaIn... wif a BLoody daMn big Thanks to some bAsTard... if not for u..... live would haVe Been bettER.
Definitely neeD to thank somebody for his concern... thanks for being there to accompany me.. felt so bad that you din hav sufficient slp juz to try to cheer me up... thank you very much... 'ping pong'

Saturday, February 21, 2004

haven been blogging for a week. That's long... for me. the whole of last week was... simply hellish for me. sTarted from sunday nite. things got a little better on Tues... but DIn last long. i WaS back to hEll by Thurs. WAt's more... i almost couldn't make it throuGh thurs. It waS WORST than hell. Everything was Goin wrOng... wrOng dirEctiOn. being tHe mid seM test weeK definIteLy din help eItHer.
yEsterday was slightly better. i do hope everyting Would reTuRn to where it was bEfore. SOON. if not... i sMeLl the preSence of the End...

Saturday, February 14, 2004

Happy Valentine's Day. I just want to blog down this moment.

Like i've said, my dearest would be in camp today. He was in since last nite. Missed him loads for the whole day. Never expect to see him again. Not at least until tml nite. Last call from him was before noon. Last msg was before six. No more news bout him. called him a few times, no answers. Msgs sent no replies. Got a little worried by 8+. Kept trying till 9+ until i heard a knock on my door, followed by the phone ringing.

U're rite. It's my darling. Right outside my door step. Giving me a surprise. But wat's up next was even better. He ask me to step out of the house. Next to the staircase, there was 12 lighted pink candles formed into a lovely little heart shape. How beautiful.. So touched... tears of happiness juz flowed down.

This is the best valentine's gift i've received. Doesn't cost much. But the thoughts really matters. All the effort put in will never be forgotten. I love you!

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... so long no blog already.. one week le!actually nothing much happened... juz tat the last whole week, i was daMn ShaGG... TireD.. slpt for like 5 hrs daily. then din really online tat much. every other time online for shorT whiLE only.. y? coz my dada had been visiting me everynite sincE mon nite.. all the way. till fri... imagine... waking up at 5... slping at 12... then waking up in the middle of the nite to check the clock... coz worried if overslpt... hOw tirinG.... but... i dun mind. Hehhehe.... coz... it's so nice.... oppZ! :X

TIs wk's gonna be a busy week. need to submit POM individual assignment by fRi.. thurs for me coz fri no sch.. and i haven even started on it yet... hOw shItty can tat bE? hAaha.. me and my lazy Bones la.... hAd Be SlaCking on sat.. coz tat was the only day where i got rest ma.. sun was tiring aS wELl.. woke up at 7 then called da until 10 when he FinaLLy woke up then we Had to rusH to Shifu's plaCe... then kinda speNt the whole day out... tirIng rite... haha.. complain sumore... sorRy La.. long time no blog is like Tat De... then fElt So bAd... coz din msg euGeNe tO wIsh him luck fOr his tourNeMeNT... coz scARed disturb him... haIz.. HeY pig heAd: wEll done Wor.. firsT time Can tRaSh ITE.. not bad Ma.. try AgAIn Lor.. dun tRash My SCh WOrxx... haaha....

Tis wkend's vaLentines' duno waT aM i goNa Do... da wun bE freE.. need to go BaCk caMp... haIz... hope HE can get Off on FrI as PrOmiSed... .

Monday, February 02, 2004

forgot to thank sumbody for his concern... tis fren of mine... euGEne.. aKa. Pig hEAd the tsewols.... hahaa...
really wana thank u. ReaLly appreciate it...
realised i haven blogged. Juz dun feel like relating the day... and can't bear to let the previous entry move down... haha...
wEll... sat i shall have no COmments... not aT least tiLL eveNing.. went for gathering wif my sec fouR classmates.. went RiveR aNg bAo.. not veri interesTing this year.. but really enjoYed catching up wif thEm... plaYed crAzy surf.. ENdeD up wif bruiseS here And tHere.. ha.. maKe me can't slp propeRly.. v PaInful.
Went to meEt dada at nite... cHat wif him... juz chat chat chat... as for today... wAs kindA slacking arD the hsE before i plan to go surprise him.. dUn tink it was a SurprIse for him... coz.... he knows wat i'm tinking.. was chatting and chatting again juz now... fEels kinda... gd u know... chat and chat.. u dun really feel like stoppin and juz wish tat time will stop... dada told me sumting... hmm.. wif regards to the future. i really hope he meant it.... :) i dun really pin high hopEs for it to haPpen but there is 50-50...
maybe.. i duno... all i know... it's nite time~