It's CNY.
I still remember clearly
how we spent our CNY eve and CNY...
How, I had perservered through...
all the waiting you've given then.

I jus tot this time would be very diff.
the happy plans would last...
somehow, things jus CONTINUE to turn out differently.
yes, it's diff...
but it's on the horrible side...

I am really sorry for spoiling the bag.
i really wan to mend it back...
jus like how we used to be...
It really hurt...
i'm lost.

I feel cold...
all alone...
like i've always said,
I know i can't afford to lose u...
but i know, i will still...

I jus wish for a nice ending note.
a happy one... y must things turn out to be like this?

have u ever realised that
whatever u've done to me...
said to me...
had hurt me so deeply
that i'm back in depression?
every other day, these bad memories haunt me...
I wish i could run away.
but i have no where to run.

have u ever love someone
till u've completely lost urself?

Haven the things i've done and am still doin for you show anything?
you simply make me feel like an idiot.
i'm unwilling to give up...
but yet, i dun wish to dwell upon such unhappiness.
I guess, i'm bleedin inside.
a wound which u can't see... and can't feel.

it hurts.
very much.
yes it does...
hurts.

Two weeks past the new year.
There's not much difference in my life.
Jus getting worse.

Life seems meaningless as each day passes by.
The stupid IB and POE projects are nuts.
MA 2 test is on tues.

I had tummy infection on monday.
now a huge bump tat comes wif extreme PAIN when TOUCHED is on my forehead.
Hidden frustrations doesn't help.
neither does keepin silent.

I feel dead.
jus like a living zombie.
pls help me get through my last one and a half mnth
of my poly life.
pls help me remove all the burden in my heart.
it's killing me.
it's affecting me alot.
esp my relationship.

I love him loads.
but if this goes on...
i dun wana go on...