i'm tired.
from the early mornings.

long days
long hours.
too many things.
too little rest.
too little time.

been thinking way too much.
i tot i could jus get over and done wif it
but i failed.
i'm still thinking.
every single min, sec.
even rite b4 i slp.
and the very min i open my eyes.

this is shity.
i'm shit.
i'm dead.
it's brutal.
it's madness
it's jus not me.

I'm so slpy.
look at the time now...
it's only 11.30 am
and i'm in school already.

i shouldn't be having lessons now
but was ask to come for project.
however, things dun seems to be goin as said
or perhaps there was a mizcommunication
i hope for the latter.

i'm so sad. everyone got promoted
i mean the A staff
edmund, kelvin, jess and angie...
so now, i'm the only...
one and only A staff there.
when on earth will i get promotion???

gotta work later
have been working for 3 days straight
christmas, yesterday and today.
super tired.
and yet no promotion. but got bonus.
in fact, i rather get promotion.
watever.

tonight, reach home, must complete my peer teaching notes
on employment act and maternity leave
as well as trade union act.
pls... if u ever see me online doing nothing at nite,
plz... help me. bug me to go do my work.
i'm so tired recently that i can't seem to stay up too late
i feel giddy, headache, heavy eyelids... etc.

i'm dying.

before i start, let me jus say something
no doubt i dun celebrate it...
Merry Christmas

i was on this funny topic with desmond few days back
why are people so enthu about x'mas?
i mean,
it's a religious celebration.
and we've got everyone celebrating?
you dun see ppl getting excited over deepavali
and suggesting a countdown party for it
do u?
haha...
tat's jus the way the world goes round.

anywayz, i went to sch for a stupid tutorial
and went to visit my grandma after tat.
met my bro there and we went for brunch
at mcdonalds over at united square.
something funny happened.

the way my brother converse somthing.
it was hilarious.
over the neopet toy and the food.
it wun be funny if i type it out.
so maybe i'll got around telling it if u guys wana hear.

got home and... felt slpy.
somehow, din catch any wink yet.
still need to work on peer teaching notes.
and there's work tml... =

bothered.
i'm very bothered.

i'm walking ard at home aimlessly.
i know i have a thousand and one things waiting for me to do
and yet,
i duno where and how to start.
i have a thousand and one things on my mind now
and yet,
i duno what they are.

all i know is that...
i'm bothered.
very bothered.

i feel like a walking dead now.
my brain isn't functioning well
it jus doesn't feel rite.
feels heavy. very heavy.
it's not working.
i think it's going to stop functioning soon.
i'm a goner then.
dead.

i feel weird.
very weird.
very out of place.
and yet,
i'm at home.
what the hell is wrong with me?
somebody tell me please?

Wah Piangz.

in sch again
stupid lab.
saw nisey, na and zhen.
so nice to see the three of them together.

anywayz, i'm veri bored.
there's nothing much to do now.
feelin quite hungry.

coming to think of it,
i've got attachment again tml
and ive got work on thurs, sat and sun!

first time working on sat.
say goodbye to my christmas.
there's only christmas eve to celebrate.

i'm blabbering nonsense now.
anywayz, how's my new blog skin?
i like the gothic look.
actually i like gothic stuff.
juz that it might end up scaring away ppl.
you guys should check out the visual band
Malice Mizer.
too bad it's disbanded. but they are really cool.

tat's all. i'm talking trash now....

I feel like saying something.

but then again,
i duno wat to say.

*slap*

things often don't go the way u wan them to be

rite?

Sian!

in sch now.
super bored.

anywayz, wed was Ade's birthday.
went Music Underground
danced for few hrs i guess.
nothing much i can do there
the experience was much more diff this time round.
the ex-MU was more happening

then... yesterday, went sch for one bloody lecture
then after that went to meet mama for lunch before work
so, nothing much actually.

as for today... so as it is.
haven been slpin much.
always late nites and early mornings.
damn tired.
gd thing there's no work today.
so go home can slack and slp early.
tml can wake up late too!

hahaha.
but tml might be goin to woodlands.
no no. not meet desmond.
go library. the library there is freaking damn bloody BIG
hahahaha.
we'll see how...
damn sian now.
msn mama.. but as usual, she never reply me.

I'm so tired.

Yesterday after i visited my grandma
i went to desmond's place for the first time.
i'm in love with his room.
haha
jus like all his friends.

anywayz, we did some stuff
like look at pics of his frenz,
videos, and he sang KTV
showed me some interesting lightings
showed me his J rock visual bands stuff
which i think is SUPERLY COOL
and watched DVD,
hannibal.

then played X BOX for a while.
challenged Street Fighter and Dead or Alive 3
after which he played this camera game
which is sumthing like shutter the movie.
pretty interesting.

after that, felt damn hungry
and he went to cook some instant noodles
Yummy. when u're hungry, even instant noodles taste good.
then we watched some stupid chinese show on tv
till both dozed off.
woke up at slightly past 3 then went home
after all he's tired from his reservist.

slpt at 4 and bloody woke up at 7.
took a cab to sch and reach at 9
and got bloody pissed off.
my group was supposed to me at 1015
and i wasn't informed.
wat the hell
i was so angry.
till i see Ain
felt lot better after a while.

had a long day today.
damn tired.
tml is Ade's birthday.
and first day of attachment.
another long day.
hope i can rest well today.

i'm so excited.
coz...
i lost control of myself
and bought
7260!!!!!!

i bought... i bought
my beloved 7260!!!
finally.
haha.

effendi, went army today.
haiz.
desmond went for reservist today.
double haiz.
my parents flew off today.
triple haiz.

my parents flew off today, and guess wat?
i only got to know it today.
yes.
today.
then moment i woke up.
without them telling even.
jus saw the suitcases and the mess lying ard.
they like to create a mess outta the house before they fly
and when they come back.

desmond, my phone companion,
the best among all i know,
who could make conversations a hell out of a laughing stock,
went for a bloody 3 wks long reservist.
damn.
tat means, i wun get to hear from him tat much.
but, i've promised to call him.
so... hopefully it's not tat bad.
after all, i still hav sch and work to juggle wif.

last but not least, i'm gona get 7260 on sat i guess.
muahahahaha..
i can't wait any longer.
my 8850, is driving me nuts.
but it'll be kept in my cupboard for display i guess.

been a long time since i blogged.

let me think about last wk...

last posted was on sat, jay's concert.
sun, i went work.
mon, tues, nothing but work either.
but then, tues was mama's birhtday.

wed, went to sentosa wif mama!
wif ade, shan, jean as well.
all the five of us.
suntanned. soaked up in the sun. haha.
had fun.
after tat went to parkway wif ade, shan and jean
for dinner.
while mama went for celebration wif her colleuges i guess.

thurs, was a rest day for me.
but then, i went to visit my grandma and ended up not resting much.

fri, work again and sat, bumming at home.
i love bumming at home. haha.
of coz i did visit my grandma.
then sun, it's work again.

and today. first day of sch.
too many things.
attachment in sch.
it's free labour. not the real attachment or wat they call SIP.
it's jus doin hands on.
and...
went walkin ard tm wif mama.
missed .... the ... past.... 3 ....sems... alot.... alot.