Saturday, March 25, 2006

i'm very slpy.
wana catch some slp soon.

we finally bought the tv.
not plasma. but lcd.
as long as can hang... it's OK.
initially, he wanted to buy hp
and postpone the tv again.
but in the end we bought both
i signed up a new line for him
so people....
please please take note:

91903981 HAS BEEN TERMINATED.

before that, u could still reach me wif tat no.
even i wasn't using coz he was.
but now, no more.
those lookin for me, pls call 97693881.
for him, u can get from me his new no.
he's got n70 too.
3G is quite fun. really.
seeing each other's expression.
doin funny expression cheering each other up.
it's been of great help at times.

his bike has been givin hiccups these few days.
duno wat's goin on.
first the pipe.
then the jam.
now the heat.
and the latest... the brake.
Urghz. irritating.

after washin clothes i'm gona take a nap.
really tired.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

okay, it's past 12.
HAPPY BELATED 21ST BIRTHDAY
to my DEAREST.
the day was quite well spent...
i wish that we can be like this
in the future.

on the eve of his bday
i bought a mini small tiny
cake form 4 leaves for him.
it's YUMMYLICIOUS.
and i went to new world order
to buy that polo t which he saw
and quite like the other time.
and at nite
we went to collect his beloved
motorbike.

bday itself...
we were both awaken by his phone calls.
was playin ard a little.
ticklin' each other.
before we went for brunch.
went to tune up his bike first
then we caught THE SHAGGY DOG
at bishan. nice show. really obedient dog.
had a drink at coffeebean
and went to bugis
wanted to buy new shoes
but no stock
and the uncle dun seem keen enough to do business.
instead he bought 3 pair of boxers.
then he wanted get something for me
from goldheart.
so we went bugis.

unfortunately, i only like the wedding band.
so we decided not to buy.
save more $$$
and got a pair of cheap couple ring from
the shop opp. goldheart.
still i'm contented wif it.
but i wun mind the goldheart one. Hehehe
and bernie, this for u.
I saw DAWN... she's in DRESS.
surprise for me. and her hair's longer.
we bought 2 full face helmet too.
and got some freebies.
spent quite alot today.
coz full faced helmets are costly.
he's gotten a haircut.
and i love it v much.

tml, we're goin to spend MORE MONEY.
he's doin up his bike
and we're goin' to buy
the very long awaited for plasma tv.
and we've given up the tot of buyin
the cute schnuazer
coz even though he's gotten the money,
we both feel that it's not wise keepin the dog
when we're both working from morning till nite.
so we'll be savin up a thousand at least.
and i'm gonna make him keep his ATM card at home.
i'm going to limit his spendin to the max
of 3K. the rest are goin to be safe kept.

hope tml will be jus like today.

i'm stressed up somehow.
every minute when i take a breather
and let my mind wander,
the tot of those reports to be done
the work i'm goin to face
and the meeting... is SCARING ME!
Lao Ban...
Wo Pa Wo Zhou De Bu Gou Hao.

Monday, March 20, 2006

This is something for my boss,

Mr. Anderson Lai:

Sagittarius Employee Profile (november 22 - december 21)

The Sagittarian employee is head strong,
cheerful, and willing to help.

They exude self-confidence
and take on tasks like there's no tomorrow.
They are willing to tackle even the toughest of projects
as long as it is challenging
and gets them out of the routine.

Lucky for them,
their shining personalities and honest enthusiasm
seem like a bright spot in the office
otherwise co-workers might begin to build animosity
towards someone so arrogant and extravagant.

Their tendency to exaggerate
and take on more then they can handle usually results in
missed deadlines and dropping the ball
not because they are lazy of procrastinate,
but because their enthusiasm
just gets the better of them sometimes.

Don't let their nonchalance fool yout
they really do care about what they are doing.
They just have an easy-going attitude

that allows them to keep on smiling
even when they just messed up big time.

Just because they are flexible and easy-going
doesn't mean they won't tell you exactly how they feel
what is working for them and what isn't.
And they won't just blindly take orders
they need to understand the method and reason behind the process.

If you are trying to motivate your Sagittarian employee,
be sure to feed them plenty of challenging new projects
and hint that some business trips might be on the horizon
once deadlines are met.

And whatever you do,
try not to question their intentions
it is the quickest way to make them upset.
They aren't capable of deceit.

my working profile.
As for wat is FU LI, i will answer u again
when i get the inspiration.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

i can't think straight now.
i'm very confused.
very sad.
there's a heartache in me
which i can't describe.
it's so painful.
that i wana cry. but tears jus wun flow.

like the past few times.
we had the kind of incorrigible fight again.
where he would be yellin' at me.
pushin me away.
giving me cold shoulder.
being sacarstic.
claiming that he's goin to move back
and last but not least, break up.
it all started with the dream i had.

it was a nitemare to me.
imagine ur partner tellin u that it's better to be friends.
someone u gave all out to, saying that to u.
i conclude that this dream came abt
simply bcoz of the insecurity i have.
it is something that he can't provide for.
i dun ask for much.
jus some words of assurance.
and this in turn lead to a huge quarrel.

and now, he's ignoring me.
saying that he's goin to moved back on mon.
claiming that he's called his sis.
which he din.
he says he loves me no more.
and hates the sight of me.
he does this everytime we had big fight.
this is not the first.
cny eve was one of those.
pushin me away.
which gf could tolerate such? i really wonder.
except for myself.

i believe u readers out there might say that i'm stupid.
i must be blind to fall for such a guy.
he by the way, really has nothing.
i mean i dun look down on him.
i jus happen to love him in such a way that
I DUN EVEN KNOW WHY DO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
most of the time, i call myself stupid.
and i do think i am.
so much sacrifices
and yet i'm still hurt.
he jus promised me ytd that he would try his best
NOT TO ANGER ME.
but yet...

i duno. i'm really very confused by myself.
one side of me has really reached the limits.
I REALLY WAN TO GIVE UP.
if he really move back on mon,
i wun stop him.
i'm really tired.
very. very. tired.
yet,
the other side of me...
jus one small part of me shouts out...
no. dun.
i jus need to speak to someone.
i really need to talk to someone.
i duno where to go.
i'm LOST.
i need help for directions.
someone PLS TELL ME WHAT TO DO.
as i've always said...
if i give up this time round,
history will never ever repeat itself anymore.
i will completely forget every bit.
no matter how painful it is.
i will perservere through it
and forget this thoroughly.
i know i can do it
that is why i am hesitant about giving up.
coz i know deep down inside.
no matter how tired i am...
no matter how upset
how disappointed, how angry
how watsoever,
there's one part of my heart that belongs to him.
it has already been given to him
and i still love him
blind and stupid me that is.

too many chances i gave silently
in the past.
which is why i believe,
he has taken for granted.
last yr... 2 wks before cny.
cny eve... the drunk phonecall he made.
how it ended for the second time
all that... were still clear and fresh in my mind.
how he had called me when my grandma passed away.
till the day i decided for a third time.
that is 27th April 2005.
how i kept reminding myself to let loose
till how we got closer.
to how we game every nite together.
the maple story craze. which i will nv forget.
the day where he first came to my hse.
the fishing day.
the day he moved over due to the fight wif his father
bcoz of me.
till the day, he got his bike
the many quarrels we had.
till this very day.
99 out of a 100 words he said to me...
i can still remember.
so much given... and so much pain received.
i'm tired. exhausted. drained.
physically. due to my hectic lifestyle.
mentally. due to all these.
emotionally. u know how this comes about.

i swear i really duno how long more
can i last.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Jus read jojo's blog.
Chinese text. Hmmm...
i tot i could read most of the characters.
but I DUN UNDERSTAND what is she saying.
LOL. it's either her chinese is too gd
or, i've lost chinese.
but news on Jay in the chinese papers
definitely CATCHES my attention. *grinz*

was sick on last fri.
another attack.
he said i turned YELLOW. not pale.
anyway, got well at nite after resting.
though i was working.
collegues were kind enough
to let me take all light chores instead of serving.

anyway, dear's bike is now away at the workshop.
there's some problem.
so wun be riding until his birthday
tat's when he's collecting it back.
and it's jus 8 days away.
i duno if i should get him anything.
coz i did told him his n-gage
was a bday + v day present.
feel like gettin a small gift.
anybody got any idea?

my butt bone is aching whenever force is applied.
i duno what to do wif it.
i dun wana see a doc.
my jaws getting loose.
can't open my mouth wide when i yawn.
scary.

today dear was quite sweet to come down to meet me after work
despite the fact that
he has to take a torturous bus ride.
we went to take brunch together
and walked around the pasar malam.
he bought a new hp housing and pouch for me.
coz i lost my grey pouch
and he din wan me to sratch my phone.

we had a deal of junk food today.
pasar malam food + pizza = junk
still bloated.
getting slpy.
sighz.

jus hope more ppl will log online.
hehehe.
thanks a million again to jojo.
who's been really nice
to accopmany me ALL THE WHILE
the other day.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

din blog for the past few days.
had some fun though.
despite the quarrels n squabbles.
all bcoz of his temper again.

anyway, he got off on wed and thurs.
so on wed, we went shoppin.
was suppose to spend more at pure milk
coz we had the discount vouchers.
but ended up we spent 2 times more at newbie.
ANYONE WANS PUREMILK $10 off every $40 spent?
PLS GET FROM ME. expiring on 15th March.


we went to jk's new workplace after tat.
acc him to send doggies.
his job invovles transportation
and MANY doggies.
love the doggies.
and punggol jetty at nite again.

thurs was BX last day b4 NS life.
so we acc him.
went to haw par villa...
took some pics.
i've yet to relocate my pics to another host.
so now i only upload one or two into my frenster.
went to mum's fren'z pet shop at nite.
planning to get puppies.

goin off now.
jus a tot of a short blog b4 my nite 'job'
and i'm starvin!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

there's nothing much at work.
pretty much the same thing.
can i say... it's quite borin?
i'm either processing claims and invoices
or i'm jus compiling data.
sad to say...

complains started at the 2nd day of work.
Y so? coz the job scope is different
from the job description.
i can't say the atmosphere is relaxing here.
even though i dun have heavy workload
y? coz it jus feels as though i'm being watched.
i dun quite like the position of my PC.
it should be place at the right corner instead.
and i dun need the phone.
anyway, the phone is kinda faulty.
i tried to pick up calls. and they jus can't hear.
uh-huh. Anderson Lai is goin to read this
and he's gonna kaobei at me again.
=P
Everynite i go home and tell him
wat i do at work.
How it feels like. It's simple tasks.
But it jus dun feel good.

DUN THINK IT'S UR 6 DOLLAR OK.

AIYA. watever it is.
i wan to faster get tru the 3 mnths contract.
It's pretty draining taking 2 part time.
imagine u work from 10 am till 3pm.
and u got another job at 4pm.
u have to go take ur BRUNCH.
and sometimes, ur in-charge comes in at 2.50pm
gives u something to do.
and u have to finish before u go off.
by then it's alread 3.15pm.
u walked over to buy food.
with the Q and all tat. Reached ur 2nd work place
at 3.30pm. half and hour to eat and slack.
sighz.

and u look forward to SAT only.
the only day u tot u can slp late.
but then, u got to wake him up.
see him to the door when he leaves for work.
talk to him on the phone till 1 or 1.15
then do some housework.
talk to him at 4 or 4 plus again.
then off to do ur own stuff or housework.
take a nap. wan to go out.
but half of ur off day is gone.
and at nite, 8pm, got to prepare
to go help him out wif cleaner.
and there goes my ONLY OFF DAY.
SIGHZ. I miss singing K-lunch.

duno what to do with my kind of lifestyle.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

first and foremost,

big thanks to big boss.
for chatting wif me in the morning tru' msn.
u know wat i'm talkin abt big boss.
if u were not online,
i would had created news headline.
hahaha.

thanks alot.
my dear readers,
if u happen to wake up early in the morning
at 10 plus or so.
pls log on msn.
i would love u so.

today was actually quite tiring.
i duno y.
i felt so slpy.
and i fell down in the shop.
now my butt hurts.
so painful. lucky no one was there.
too slippery. and no energy to fight it.
i guess that's y i fell down.
sighz.

tml is yet another day...

Friday, March 03, 2006

Very angry.
Very upset.

Why must vent ur frustrations yet again
on me?
U ought to know or should i say
u jolly well know that the medication
causes drowsiness.

and u choose not to rest
so u went out.
and kept complaining that u are slpy.
U DESERVED IT.
stop saying that i dun sound gd.
when u aren't either.
y mus u push everything to me?
Stop pointing ur finger at me.
can't u jus speak properly?
why must u be so harsh?

I AM REALLY VERY ANGRY.
kept scolding me.
jus because u are tired.
i am VERY UPSET.
Don't u know that you've been very unfair to me?

jus on last sunday
u jus gave me a cold shoulder.
and u feel sick the other nite.
is it taken for granted that i have to tolerated ur tantrums?
u love ur frens so much that u can sacrifice ur slp time
and u know that u already feel tired
yet u still choose to go out wif them
and at the end of the day
get frustrated and vent them ALL on me.

SO ANGRY.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

started work already.
i duno how to describe the feelins at work.
it's kinda mixed.
i signed the 3 mnths contract today.
jus hope tat everything will go smoothly.
and i can get the off days smoothly too.

he was kinda sweet today
coz he bought a prezzie for me.
something which i can't say i dun like.
but never really LOVE it...
duno if u get wat i mean...
it's a orangie soft toy tat comes wif 2 oranges
in the box.
u can get it at action city.
we took a neo pic ytd and happened to bypass the shop
i showed it to him.
but i jus wanted to let him see...
tat it is kinda cute. but not tat... hmm... attractive?
anyway, it's really the tot that matters.
thanks my dear.
although it would be better if u had gotten me something
much more meaningful... hehe

despite being so sweet today
he fell sick.
poor thing. vomited 4 times jus now in the evening
went to the doc.
he says he's got food poisoning.
tml he's gotten an mc.
while i've got to work the whole day.
from 10 am to 3 pm and then 4pm to 10 pm.
really hope he can take good care of himself
coz i wun be around.
first time watching him sleep wif covers on...
so soundly. jus hope tat he gets better.