You Are 50% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

went to work today.
changed shift wif chui yee for this wk.
your sis dropped by for a box of bacon and cheese
first thing she asked me was:
"are you still with my bro?"
me: "no." (trying to react cooly to it)
sis: "he broke up with you?"
me: "no... it was like... no contact and tat kind of stuff..." (trails off)
sis: "..." (aggitated expression)

after she left, i sorta lost my concentration in work for a while.
what does this means?
i guess, nobody else knows better than i do...
i'm not feeling too good about it.
esp when u turn up for cleaning today.
nagging about your coming bday.
i know... in less than a wk's time.
what can i say?
i jus wanna wish u happy birthday. that's all.

yawnz...
jus woke up... haha...
it's like 7pm now...
i woke up at 6 plus though.
had a long long day ytd.

went to work.
after work went down to Singapore Conference Hall
to watch the band's final round of rehersal for SYF
at the concert hall.
went back to sch with them and ended up staying overnite there.
did some silly stuff...
'slpt' along the corridor...
haha... it's cool... you watch the sky changes
and the wind's definitely chilly enough!
went home at 7?

reached home at around 8+
bathe, wash clothes, surf the net for a while...
surprisingly, i WASN'T slpy at all?!?!
till about 9.
made myself slp... and here i am posting this.
if i'm not wrong, mama, you did ask if i wana go back sch wif ya today rite?
erm... there's no call from you...
so i jus slpt tru the day lor....
hehehee......

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

was watchin the 9pm show on channel 8.
something certainly sounds freaking familiar!
the sampan, boat, cruise, passenger thingy.
well... too bad, i din get copyright!
haha...
i originated it ok...
watever.
anyway, i have this discomfort in my right palm.
oh dear. i have no idea why is it so....
hope it doesn't affect my work tml.
*sighz*

i have had an extremely long day today.
slpt at 4 ytd.
was mugging MER. woke up at ard 11?
din have a gd slp from 8am onwards
coz was worrying about my darling sister, evelyn.
the band havin music exchange wif 15 other schs today.
it's like WOW. 15 schs! that's definitely a lot.
anyway, went for it. did nothin much though.
caught up wif my junior and the kids.... Opps.
haha. witnessed sumthing today.

i always tot guys after NS wld be matured enough to think for themselves and the consequences for the actions they take.
as expected, u were extremely K-PO. but you did went overboard
you shouldn't have used vulgarities on that boy.
c'mon. he's still a sec sch kid. practically, a BOY.
you, 21 this year, still wana take on a BOY???
Oh..... grow up pls... u make me feel so embarassed of hssband alumni.
watever it is, u did cause the trouble. hopefully it'll never ever happen again.

caught hitch wif kelvin.
i wld say, it's a funny show.
however, it does makes me wonder...
opportunities come by or were they created?
hahaha... go ahead catch it guys, it's quite nice.
am pretty tired now. but i still have to continue on where i had left off last nite
else, i wldn't be able to finish mugging!
oh, my parents jus left for taiwan today.
blame the exams! i can't go. shit.
i do miss my mum...

to something else now...
sometimes, i really do dread the thought of taking 147.
though it's kinda my fav bus, as i've been takin it for the past... 6 yrs?
it has been by trusted transport.
i take this bus to most places i go.
to sch back in those secondary days,
to town when i go city hall,
to clementi when i meet up wif the guys for pool,
and of course, to work.
why do i dread taking the bus?
coz, it bypasses that road.
BENDEMEER, BOON KENG MRT.
whenever i see that road, the sch, the mrt, the muslim food stalls,
the factory at the other side,
images of you and that new year eve flashes back
almost immediately.
how am i suppose to forget?
i can't not take that bus. what can i do?
everytime, i see those landmarks, i get zapped back into the past.
help..... help......

i... got something to say.
i know i got.
but i dun seem to remember.
how sad is that.
nevermind.

lets jus leave it.
... ... ... ... ...

Errr...
am so slpy.
duno why.
most prob due to the food i ate
and the fan that is constantly blowing at my eyes.

need to get down to study for MER.
vbus got so many shit to look at.
but me ain't got a proper table thanks to mum.
duno what's with the tray.
been left on the table for so long and she jus leave it as it is.
i need a table to write my notes as i copy from vbus!
this is irritating.
making me lose the motivation to study.
Grrr... i hate this.

RETURN ME MY TABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha...

i guess, i've reach the step.
where i've chosen to let go.
at the crossroad.
it's either, or.
and i've chosen.
it does hurt a little now and then.
but, things will never be the same.
so no point holding on.
let's jus see what can time do for us.
or rather, ME.
it still hurts when i bypass bendemeer JTC,
listen to the song you sent, think of my fav song,
work, and many things else which has a connection with you.
i know have to and will be strong.
i know i can do it.
i'm tired of all these avoidance.
sorry to say, i find them childish.
i expect us to behave like adults, to be able to talk
too bad, you chose to avoid, a lose-lose situation.
nevermind, friends or not, it's up to you.
i'll still be the friend of your's who will always lend u a helping hand
in every aspect, when u need one.

i'm so tired btw.
woke up at 5+ today
went for the conference job.
damn tiring.
SIP is irritating. i dun know if i should go look for my own co.
the tot of going through that bloody interview like comm skills
is purely disturbing to me... argh....

nowadays, i enjoy the comfort to the maximum, surfing net at home
on my bed.
finally my wireless lan is done. but i hav to fix up my CPU for my desktop.
am glad i no longer have to stay in the living room late at nite.
had a great time chatting wif desmond last nite.
sure it was entertaining.
his 'live' concert at woodlands. haha.
we were having audio conference via msn.
quite fun though.

i know that holding on is a silly thing to do.
the mind says let go.
but the heart says hold on.
maybe there could jus be another chance.
but, that would also mean another chance for me
to let me get hurt by u again.
can't i jus forget? no. at least not at the moment.
was literally happy that u called the other day to ask me help you
collect your pay. tot you finally sorted things out.
guess, i was wrong.
you're still avoiding. always. as usual.
was shocked when u msn me.
simply jus to say thanks. and u logged off immediately.
not leaving time for me to say a welcome.
ain't that avoidance?
i do not know what more can i say.
lets jus leave time to do the work...
i am in no control.

Am so surprised you called.
simple call from u to ask me help u keep your pay first.
y me? i do not know.
but i do not mind.
can be a form of compliment too.
at least, i know,
you're not avoiding.

urghz.. i'm freaking haunted!

haunted by those memories you left behind.
how it all started.
with your fake marriage proposal thingy.
up till the promise to visit the zoo and 'under-sea' world.
tat's wat u call the underwater world.
till the day it first ended.
the ktv nite, where things were goin back on.
the nite where u pester me to play online pool with you
to how it started the second time.
the way you sound wif the 'juz-woke-up' voice tru the phone
the river angbao trip during CNY eve.
those fireworks. those stuff u told me about.
the long walk from marina to beach road. the stop over at gateway.
the way you played billard. what you call bendemeer road in chinese.
the prata and mutabak we ate. the lift to your house.
the playground near your place, your friends.
the bottle of solution you bought. the way your sisters reacted when they saw me
early CNY morning.
right up till the movie, million dollar baby.
and till this very day.
even monday, when we were busy shifting those stuff out of shop.
those irritating noise u made. 'tuk-nai'

they are still haunting me... for the past few days!
how and when will i get out?
i guess, only time will tell... or when someone else steps in
and pull me out...

i think i've been missing you or rather thinkin bout u too much.
WAY TOO MUCH.
till i even dreamt about u last nite.
about us.
BRrrrrr......... US? HUH-HUH?
it was a pretty nice dream though.
but then, in that dream, i was never happy
until we're together.
does that mean that, i will only be happy
with you?

they say, dreams are often the reverse.
i hope so. i so wana get on with my life.
stop dreaming about u.
but then again, sometimes, my dreams do freaking come true.
what now then???
somebody tell me how! pull me out of this pit i'm in!

what are friends for?
i'm happy that i have my poly mates.
i have xp and gang...
and some others.

Who are your real friends?
i do not know.
thanks mama, for being there at times.
i'm freaking irritated at ppl nowadays.

i really do not know if they are my real friends or not
even after knowing each other for so many years.
perhaps... ppl change.
i've come to realise that you've change to become more selfish.
selfish, the right word? YES.
you only care about your own stuff.
was i being used all these while?
i tot so too.

i dun wan to think about it anymore.
you jus disappoint me ALOT.

Alone in the project room now.
slpy.
bored.

the following post will contain complicating extracts from my precious tots and views.
pls be warned. (^-^v)

i still miss you.

i know things will never be the same again.
history will never repeat itself once more.
coz i dun like to wait.
i hate to wait.

the person who is really worth your tears, will never make u cry...
it applies to waiting as well.
practically everything.
i'm fine. perfectly fine.
i'm ok with it. gotten over the sadness period.
jus that, i do miss you.
esp when i saw those fireworks pictures in my cam last nite.
shld i delete? was badly taken though.
but it's fond memories of CNY eve.
haiz. forget it. jus leave it there.
things are so different now. i jus wish, we could just be friends like b4.
perhaps, it shouldn't have even started in the first place.

i've been spending a bomb
on cab fares recently.
haven been slping enough.
really am very tired.

great thing is that.......
soon, those projects will be over soon!
yeay!
but the comm skills summative test is stressing me out!
the big bomb from Ms Lynette Tay kills!
Tml, is presentation day.
for tourism.
Stressful too! i speed talk alot esp during presentations.
let's hope everything will be over soon...

sometimes, i still think of you.
but am trying hard enough to forget.
will keep those memories wif me.
thanks for those precious moments...

Am so tired.
work up early today.
went to sch.

after that went town wif mama, ade, shan and jean.
window shop alot.
veri tired.
was in a daze.
saw the chingay parade.
reminds me of CNY eve countdown wif you.
all i can do is *sgHz*
memories... will always be memories.
i know,
the promised zoo trip, even if it's a promise,
i dun need u to fulfill it.
coz i know it'll be hard on both of us.
let's jus forget it.
i do not hate u.
i have the rights to. but i NEVER ever wanted to.

*t0 foRgve, is tO gvE up My RiGhtS t0 hAtE yOu foR hUrtNg Me...*

i feel so slpy.
duno y.
i slpt like a dead log in the bus on my way to work.

i spent a little too much today.
was suppose to go browse for blazor.
but ended up spending 95% of my cash at
SIM LIM SQUARE.
spent 43 bucks there.
Bought this veri cool looking optical mouse.
50pcs CD-R
holder... etc.
now i can finally burn some stuff...
for goodness sake!

so tired now.. better go slp soon

Shiok!
know wat? i'm now typing this entry using my laptop.
the thing is that
my wireless connection is not done up yet...
i'm using some other ppl's!
wahaha
my laptop manage to detect a few.
so... jus use! hahaha....
okie... lame i know.
but it feels cool man.

Xing Hui Yi Leng.
i'm so sad.
think i'm goin to be numb soon.
i know i'm definately upset.
i dun even wan to took at you.
how bad can that be?

Duan Le Si Nian.
that's all i want.
jus hope that we'll go to the zoo on this coming sat
as promised.
and, have a enjoyable day.
nothing else. jus a happy memorable day.
i dun ask for anything else anymore.

tml is v day.
i can still remember, last yr's V. day.
the surprise with light heart-shaped candles.
lovely. but, nvm, it's the past.
time really flies.
i dun wan to think about tml.
all i wan to, is to concentrated on my work.
let the work carry my woes away...