I'm feeling so agitated now!!!!! Everything seems so WRONG!!!!!!

ALL started when i felt giddy in the noon while doing HRM... the whole place was like spinning round and round... then i felt like throwing up.. felt a little better for a while.... then comes a super idiotic headache!!!!!

The world's spinning and there's headache.... i dun even know how i feel! and still felt like throwing up... after that went to biz park... wanted to eat.... but then.... couldn't really find the appetitie! Ate half an chicken pie.... threw away the crust part.... coz... I STILL FELT LIKE THROWING UP. and that amount of crust.... definately din't help.

Oh my gosh. Went for lecture.... with that darn headache... the lecture group was so F*cking noisy! it's just making me feel worse. after lecture.... went home. called my mum in the bus bout slighty pass 8. She said she's coming home soon. so i ask her to get dinner for me. BUT then now... i'm starving to death. fried some egg with luncheon meat... felt slightly better after eating. but my stomach's NOT feeling well! so is my head. GRR.....

I FEEL SO SICK. PISSED.

if my mum were to tell me tat she'll be home late... i would had bought dinner home... and now... i STILL FEEL LIKE THROWING UP, together with that headache... and that weird stomach that churns like nuts. I'm dying. Hopefully huh..

my parents are finally.. back..... i'm so tired.... had a super long day... guess it's worse for mama.... coz she's a little sick.... anyway... i wanted to blog... but i tink i wana tok to my mum..... so.... blog tml perhaps... cIaoz~

finally can get to blog. wanted to blog last nite at bout 1+.. but then i log on, my pc got hang..... wat a wonderful pc i've got...
 
I'm so pissed of with my pc...
 
i was typing out my finalized HRM notes... halfway... after adding A LOT of infomation... then my pc HANG..... HANG!!!!!! i'm like...... LoSt.. and stunned for a few seconds..... damn.... my notes~!!!
 
thank goodness after i restarted the comp, some of it was recovered..... some... gone with the wind la... what to expect... having some is better then none man..... but then, i still gotta retype the rest..... grrr...
 
My parents are coming back tonight.. erm.. shld be... midnite... actually, i kinda like to be left alone at home... esp at nite... counting out those times when the imagination run wild... i've managed to study better when there's no one at home... and at nite....
 
i'm gonna convince my dad to shift the big study table from my previous room to the room i'm sleeping in now... then.... try to convice my mum to get a new pc.. yes.. they should... or rather.... have to! coz this pc is gonna die on me soon... then, shift the new pc into my room...
 
then i'm goin to hav a tv in my room... yeah... mum says it's 29 inches... a bit too big huh.... ? and then..... i'm goin to shift the mini bar fridge into my room too!! haha... then my rOOm will be paradise..... cept that.... there's no toilet... if not..... i guess i'll be stuck in my room..
 
yeah..... dream on..... the tv's coming.... but i wan a new pc!!!!! anywayz, i've gotta stop here.. my half finish chicken rice is still waiting for me.. and i still got to take quizes and finish my psycho. journal......

aiyo.. how ah.. how.. so *fan*! how much notes am i suppose to prepare?? how come tat teh teh got 18 pages?? got so many meh..... like tat will die leh.. i thought only the more relevant points??? die lah....
 
sEe lah.. like so many things to do... even pig head ask me out for cycling i also canot go... wan to go also canot... haiz... can extend my sunday hours??? from 24 - 26?? i juz need additional 2... hahahha.....
 
*cross my fingers*

just tot of bloggin before i go to slp... feelin kinda tired... maybe 'cause of the fan tat kept blowing at me... you know... you start feeling slpy after sometime of constant blowing.
 
nite home alone has been accompanied by wat i call... classical music.. instrumental and some sorta choir singing...very nice... haha... quiet and relaxing. i woudln't say peaceful 'coz there's some intense moments in the music... you know... those music that relates to war...
 
why war? well... actually i've been downloading lord of the rings ost. so.. that explains the war part. i'm downloading all the three albums. haven quite complete it.. coz there's a lot! i mean three albums... each containing about 18-19 tracks. wanted to buy 'em actually... but very broke now.. my bills not totally settled... my source of vitamin M are all in indonesia! i'm living on a tight budget now... until they get back... you know... yeah... and i thought might as well buy the extended versions of the dvds... full set.. which is gonna cost me bout 200 bucks all together... not now anyway... sometime later... when i'm more financially stable..
 
Big thanks to 'papa'!!! thank you! love ya so much... nice and wonderful 'papa' i have... who volunteered to help me burn cds for my ost collection mentioned above... well, i've been looking around for ppl to help me... but all in vain you see... thanks again 'papa'! btw, i miss ya loads! haven seen you for sometime... speaking of which, i miss my friends! Effendi, Asri and gang... and esp. my darling 'sister'... Evelyn... ^_^v
 
haha... wonder wat's ^_^v??? it's a trademark... of my darling sister... anywayz, it's getting late.. i tink i better stop here.. coz i know i can continue non-stop coz... i'm quite in the mood to type and type... better save for tml's prepartion for the HRM notes...
 
Good night everybody. Good nite bloggy. Miss everyone... take care...
 
 

Oh.. something's happened to blogger again....... so many interesting stuff... but..... am too lazy and busy to check out.. hahaha. pretty contradicting yeah?
 
anywayz, my dad has left me home alone. He went to jakarta to meet my mom. so.... home alone again! i'm so used to it. doesn't really make much difference juz tat... the house gonna be dead quite.
 
I'm so bored. feel like exploring blogger and change skin.. but then.. come to think of the HRM research and all the other tutorials... arhx.. haven got much of a choice left you know....
 

it's a windy sat... my mum jus left for jakarta... business trip.

i've jus uploaded some pics from keke's birthday celebration last last fri...

Happy viewing...

jus can't wait for nite to come... coz of that 30 mins of simple life.... wAhahahz..

tot of changing skin. but feelin lazy.... ya.. haha... besides, haven really found the skin i wan... tot of putting LOtR.. but.... nevermind... next time.. perHaPsz. ^_^V

There's this new car...

Lancer + Evolution... so basically.. it's 2 in 1!!! both my Favs. MAN.. the New mitsubishi Evo-Lancer is so daMn cOOl... juz love it!

And.. there's these two phrases i like a lot... from the movie.. Lord Of The Rings... been watching it quite a few times... (Opps! :X) in fact, there were lotsa meaningful phrases.. but i really like these twO...

"All you have to decide, is what to do, with the time that is given to you." - Gandalf, LOTR...

"Even the smallest person can change the course of the future." -Galadriel, LOTR...

Journal... Quiz... projects... ahz... Psychology's workload's not very little... there's HR tut tml.. so... there's PBL learning... and i'm still not very sure who's really in my grp cePt for the three of us...

Marketing's project is starting to kill my cells.. i hate to tink bout products... grr... i haven started on my hiragana characters... wat's that? erm.. japanese... Grr... i can barely regconise the characters!

put aside the academic stuff... it's.. 5/7/2004 tml... wat date is it... some day that i'll fReak out thinking bout it. i've even got nitemares! OMG. tat's freaky. it's a day.. tat can make me fly up into the sky or even fall so low into hell...

IT'S MY TP TEST TML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously.. i'm nervous.. scared if i'll fail... i've had 2 dreams bout it so far. scary ones. everytime i starting thinking about tml, the hearts beats faster and pumps faster... thud thud thud... hope tml i'll be fine.

thanks dad for believing in me.. i'll do my best.. of coz i wan my class 3!!! sweat sweat... anywayx, tml, my test is in the noon... please.. please..... DUN CALL ME!!! msg me or call me.. anytime before 12.30... haha.. i duno wat time will be my test till... so.. dun call me... oh yeah.. i'll be switching off my phone..... thanks .........

hey hey.. been few days... alritey........

seriously, i duno wat to blog... life's pretty much the same... Well, same idiot pestering me... wishful thinking part... let's not talk bout this. it's jus so irritating rite... haahaa..

Oh well, my dear cousin, guang, finally called me... not say finally... he did called me b4 but becoz of sum idiot, i had missed out his calls... and it was only till yesterday, then did i FINALLY... ah.. get to hear his voice after 1 year plus.. close to 2... that's my cousin...

then... wat else.... oh yeah.... i'm loving this show.. the simple life! haha..... starring paris hilton and nicole... duno wat.. haha.. it's damn funny seeing them havin farm stay. check it out... every sat nite at 10 on 5.. haha...

ok.... i know my blog post is like.... there's no linkage to any of either... but then.. hey.. it's my bloggIe.. and i jus .... wanna say watever i wan!!! haha... yeah.. pretty much for now... i'm little bored.. there's sch tml. 9am.. aRghx..

WAH....... i'm so very tired!!!!!! what a long day today. lessons in the morning till evening. and 6 hours straight!! very draining. but was kinda cool...

Went for pschology tutorial in the morning. din know anyone in the class. but had a quite cool tutor, standing in for dR. tay. Played Jenga, discussed a Lot... and.. show us some 'magic'.

then rushed for Jap lesson.. the classroom was kinda COol.. glass door. then the lecuturer is a Japanese... Sensei Suzuki... yeaP. tat's her name. i tot she was KiddIng.. anywayx, Jap class was like back to kindergarden, repeating words after the teacher... learning one to ten... one of the lessons that i paid lotsa attEntion to, up to date. i dun wana fail this CDS..... haha..

Anywayx after that, had business finance lecture. dun reaLLy know wat the heCk is goin on.. coz the lecture gRp was DaMN ROwDY. Sum idioTs from A&F. finally after lecture..... waS time fOr BRUNCH!!!! both mama and i were starving. wEnt menSa for Kway chaP.. then hang around school for psychology lecture at 6.

lecture was cool. Never did i feLt bored. coz the Lecturer was kinda COol tOo.. aNg Mo.. teach differently huh.. haha.. reaLly hope that every other lecture would be like tat. SKip that ball throwing and catching part though. i reaLly like the way he teaches... Keeps u wIde awake and alive. haha... leSson ended and FIrst sickening homeworK... JourNAL for Psychology! and gotta buy the expensive textboOk..

ANywayx, while walking outta Biz sCh, mama and i were discussing how we Missed those happy times during sEM 1. those days that we stayed late in sch for Projects, preparations for Presentation.. all the talking to air and wall... laughing around... imitating 'cutlet oneeeee'... rOle Play, clubbing together... Aww.... those were the days... reaLLy miss them...

Yeah... we were also praying hard that tml's APEL which is the first time, we are goin to meet our class for this sem... PLS... give us classmates like those in sEM 1... sEM 2 was bad enough.. haha.... really... i neeD fun.... !!!! rite Mama?? hiakz hIaKz...

LONG LONG LONG time since i last blog.... ok LAh....... one WeeK plus is considered long to be lahx........

yeAh. i wEnt M.I.A. definately hard to reaCh me. 'hiding'. watever you call it. well nothing much happened over the paSt week. eveR since band camp...

then only more exciting event was the band bbq held laSt fri nite at eaSt cOast... nothing much eIther.. wasn't reaLLy bBqin the fOOd.. or raTher i din reaLly staY ard the Pit. i was cycLing ard... got back the Pit and sat at tables near it.. not exactly the pit.. jus the surrounding tables.. played.. true and true.. haha... but both 'papa' and i were slping (i was half aslp cos i still know wat's goin on) while plaYing.. anywayx, it waS DAMN FREAKING COLD. then taLked a bit tiLL day breaK... and all that before goin home...

caught an hOur of slp before goin out again. went for the sec 4 class gathering. i was like a living Zombie. walking deaD. preTty mucH in a daze.. nothing exciting eIther. i only like Dinner... we Had dinner at V8 movies cafe. food wasn't exceptionaLly nice. but i like it coz...... i waS STARvING! tat was my only Food.. hahaha.. tat's about it...

sCh's goin to start soOn. and i'll be havin a busy sunday. i waNt to go watch Peixin. but can't coz i've prOmised 'papa' to go for the concert. then after tat i got to go for my mum's COmpany's aNnual D&D... ahx.. reLax more.. first..... as for the job thingy... we shall see about tat.. coz i've already check out the prices of the car i wanted.. ^_^v

i hAven beEn bloggin agaIn....... aIighTs.....

i was awaY on a 3 days 2 nitez... erm...... 'Trip'. hAha... waTever's the word, it shall not be mention here. I not Say eNjoy alot.. but.. Am haPPY with the results of the New Posts... :D

yEp.. My darLing MEi gOt a BIG post. HaPpy for Her beIng a MaJor. HOpe she's not Too Stress.. ^__^V

dIn catCh EnugH Slp fOr the 2 nites... Practically, no sLp for both nites. haha... slpt vEri vERI littLe.. so when baCk home on Sunday, i was deaD Beat.. SLpt like PIG.

PPl calLed.. and i dun eVen reMember aNswering their CalL! see hOw tireD i was... and i sLpt For more Than 12 Hrs on Sun Nite TiLL mon... was In a BLur staTe.. sLpt TOO much.

nothing mucH receNtLy.. juz.. been PlaNning.. on MoneY MatteRs.. stiLL veri bROke. aNd there's heLL LOaD of aCtivites this WeeK. 3 drivIng LessOns... where TO find $$? haha..... waT tO dO..

okaI.. nuGh sAId... i shaLL go do my stuff... taKe caRe PeEPS...
Love ya ALL...

alrite.. i know i haven been blogging for days.

dun really have much time to blog all details. basically... there's nothing much? except on tues nite met up wif prI sch frenz.. at J box... tat's bout it...

Well, i'm going to 'disappear' for few days. no computer. so no updates. my phone is still on... but u wun see me.. ;P

take care peeps. update when i'm back~ MUACKS~

Went to LOTR exhibition today. i duno wat to say. but jus kinda OverwheLmed? not tOo sure myself. WAnted to buy the ring. but then, see so many ppl buy, seems not that special anymore. but i like the 80 bucks one. haha..

anywayx, after tat went to play pool then go home. tomolo.. might be a long day.

not suppose to be online for long. nobody's stopping me. juz myself. in case i hav a long day tomolo. juz wana rest more. ^__^v

irritated as i am. haiz.

sat... went for band late coz i was tired. couldn't wake up in time. after band, went home. but went to buy LOTR on my way home. spent the rest of the day doin the game stuff. Stupid computer.

Today, went for navy open house. nothing much. not really in the mood.

i know.. i juz knew it. u've been reading my blog. nothing wrong with it. but y can't u jus say it instead of hinting? i hate it. stop pointing fingers at me. i've done nothing wrong. it's your decision. not mine. stop saying that i wanted things to end this way. why can't u jus admit it? why must you push the blame to me? nothing you've done is ever wrong. i'm always at fault. Even things that had got nothing to do with me, you'll jus find your way through to point your finger at me. this is nothing but shit.

for goodness sake, pls stop toturing me.

my last post on wed rite? i tink so.. i was mentioning bout.. goin to taMp to collect concert tix rite? my memory's failing me Lah..... oLd means old.. haahaa.. :X

weLl.. collected tix then went to my bRo's hse then went home at 10.. can't really remember wat i did... hahaha.. see, my memory is really failing Me! most prob is chat wif ah Xing.. till duno wat time also.. either 4+ or 6 lor.. hahaha.. usuaL time slots.

woke up at 11+ on thurs.. veri veRI tired.. haha.. wan to slp sumore but canot lahx.. went for band.. aNgry.. haha.. thou shaLL not mention whichever Idiot who Played rough wif Me.. and Box me! FUCK. The Bible certainly din taught u to be saDistic. u're MAD! BASTARD.

went to play PoOl after Band... till 9+ went home.. i wanted to play longer.. but then they waNted to waTch aMerican Idol.. reached home.. gOt supERb aNgry agAin after having a 45 mins 'conversation' wif him usIng MY HP! FREAK. then chat wif xing tiLl.. 4+ i tink.. then go Orh OrH kOonx.. haha...

wOke up at 11+ tis Morning. went for drivIng at 12. tIs stupid idiot drive EVO biG fUCK izzIt.. it's my right of way. IDIOT. drove back home, went hOugaNg mAll, bought SPeed up! the Cd... and my Brunch... too bad din bring out my Nets.. if not i'd bought my LOTR full set VCD.. haIx! haha.. nvm.. sum other day. tat's about it.. SPeed up! is really a long long album.. i played it for.. 2 hrs already! 2 cds for the price of one.. hEhe.. not baDz~!

monday, went for band... taught till i almost died of loss of blood through vomiting. What's with the kids nowadays? Screw that attitude of yours! If u're gd, i'll be gd and nice. If you anyhow whack, Sure of cos, i'll anyhow whack you also. DAMN!

after hours of toture teaching, went to clementi to meet daniel and asri for dinner and met up with effendi for pool. Played till 11+ then go home... talked on the phone with ah xing until... hmm.. guess 6? not too sure. before i slp...

Tues morning, received a call... went to tamp. Had seoul garden as brunch. then slack at my bro's house. tIll evening, went to look for my parents, had dinner and then bought hang ten tops again. haha.. think i can go work there... after that went home in my father's new bike.

reached home, watched tv for a while.. wanted to blog last nite. but then wasn't feeling rite.. felt a little sick.. so went to room to rest and chat wif ah xing again till 4+ then go slp...

woke up early this morning. he called. came over. i duno wat to do now. Loss. Confused. anywayx, i went for driving and it was raining cats and dogs! and i'm losing my patience wif that damn instructor who does nothing and blame me for everything when he did not teach me in the first place! he even said, he should do on your own.. wat's the point of engaging instructor in the first place? i paid you to teach me and yet... FUCK FUCK FUCK! i'm damn pissed. the new recruits, him and you! SCREW you earthlings!

reaChed home... felt extremely tired. but then later gotta go tamp to meet huifen to get the concert tix. wana get sum rest... but i've got darn loads of games to install. actually it's jus one game.. wif damn lots of expansion packs. haha.. i guess, my pc is gonna hang even more now....

i miss papa and jerm... i miss playing pool... :x and i miss staying happy. serious.

went to the airport to send papa and jerm off yesterday. feel happy for them goin perth... but missing them loads... went home after tat... was extremely bored. so did sumting veri stupid.

Took train from airport, when i got a straight bus home from there. could juz alight at tamp then take bus home which is also faster. but din. took train till clementi. bored. effendi dropped off at bugis, mai at tiong and me at clementi, while asri at choa chu kang.

reached clementi, took bus 147 home. slpt from bouna vista to chinatown. couldn't slp anymore no matter how hard i try. duno y. reached home, slack like nobody's business. extreme bored.

at 12+ ah xing called. chatted till 6+ am in the morning. then caught some slp. woke up many times. till bout 12+ when i finally decided to get up. watched tv till 1 and went back to room and cope myself there. doin nothing. till 4+ felt hungry.

dad went to buy dinner and had dinner. still feeling veri bored. and heavy. there's sumting i'm goin lift up... but then, i need loads of strength to... sumhow, i've over worked and am exhausted. Shall lift it up and never look back anymore.

ahx...... juz back not long ago from the gathering... anywayz, it was Beng sieW's birthday ytd.. coz past midnite, and jiEwen's birthday todaY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABES~

Tired.. very very tired.. neeD to catch loads of slp... hahaa....
met up wif terrington and swee giang at bukit MEraH interchaNge.. goTta forSaKe playing PoOl wif asri, effendi and papa.. coz they booked me First.. haha..

went to pasir panjaNg fOod centre to maKan.. met up Wif Tat khENg, kok hai, ErIc, Mei Ling, aLlaN... afTer Makan wEnt to Kim tiaN.. meEt more Ppl.. haha.. tiKo guAn, qIng yao, seNg wEe, Kok LeoNg, kok Qing, beng siew and yiXia.. wah.. waT a big grp... haha.. haNging ard kim tiAn.. like illegal gathering..

went home at 11+ near 12... veri tired.. tml must go airPort.. Coz... Papa and Jerm goin Perth.. waNa seE them Off.. misS theM!!! hehe...