gOsh... it's only been like few days since i last blogged.
but i've got so many things happening to me!
I ought to get some scoldings though...

COnfession:
1) I back out gym session
2) I fly my bro kite for dinner

Argh!! I'm bad. i know. but i admit.
I'm so sorry!

Reason/excuses:

1) I'm having flu
2) Change of plan

Alrite... it goes like this...

thurs, i din go gym with kerlyn
as mentioned i'm still sick. apart from tat,
i can't resist, my hougang wlny frens!
See, on wed, we went out.
thurs, Ms Amanda aka Mango called.
they are goin to catch a movie.
I for so blur, tot it's gonna be late (meaning 9 plus)
agreed.
later did i know, we're catching a 7.50 show.
which means i can't get home in time to have dinner wif bro!
DAMN. that's where i feel so bad.
but i promised him a gd dinner after his sail.

and so, i proceed for a movie with the gang of 7:
mango, wu gui, nel, ah son, sara, dar and myself.

we caught:

Ratatouille (Recommendable! Heart warming & Cute)


(from left: nel, dar, sara, mango, myself, wu gui , ah son)

just the girls:



and the 3 self-proclaimed princesses...


(it's one of mango's fav activity to take pic in toilet!)



and while we take pics.. the 2 poor guys:



I pity ah son... the 2 big bags are the heaviest of the lot!
recognise my fila? haha.

after which, we went for late dinner... and headed to Orange;
a common place for them (I nv know such place existed!)
It's a KTV pub.
So, it's drinking and singing and games and of coz,
endless cam-whoring!
I not for the first time, but first on my own, tasted beer.
Calsberg. (I prefer heineken though!)

A grp pic.. not complete...



wu gui and me.. (with my initial drink - ice water)



nelson n me:



it's lemon (tat's me!), mango and wu gui:



myself and ah son:



myself, adam (he din join us for movie) and mango:



me and wu gui again!



lemon&mango:



one very beautiful pic (i mean the 'effect'):



and last of all: 5 fists... guess who's who. not all are in!



that was it for thurs nite.

and friday, i missed work.
saw doc. got medication... but at nite...
I went clubbing (i need disciplinary action!)
with mango and clarence.

I haven got the pics yet. they are with mango.
she has yet to upload. will post it here once i gotten them!
but i got 1 self pic (the influence of cam-whore gang):



and today, Sat, after mango's persuasion...
we went for kbox session with another grp of wlny gang.
the only person we both know would be clarence aka clar/durian.

pics are also not available yet... haha.
my dear mango is not home to upload.
again another self pic while waiting for mango to come down:



and after dinner, i'm home complaining how bored am i to wu gui
while changing my blogskin.
and posting this long long entry.
Notice, my wishlist is not done up...
will work on it! i've got too many things remember?!?

last but not least, 2 pics from tues (28 Aug 07) nite gathering:

nel and I posing the same pose...



and mr clar and myself. (jacket belongs to dar)



look at my silly smile... -_-"

That's all! tat's a pretty long long entry!

I would say, i really love this grp of new frens.
but of coz, i nv forget, my other frens!
nise, na, mama, ade, shan, boon, jean... (poly mates)
xp, ke, er, jen (pri sch mates)
jo, kenny, mq, hr (sec sch mates)
so.. dun get jealous! it's jus tat...
i'm hanging out wif them more often of late
coz we all stay in HOUGANG!!!!!!!

I see the shadows of flu lurking around the corner.
OR
has it already entered?

I'm sniffing away wif a bad throat.
but it's not going to stop me from going anywhere!
I still feel alrite to sweat for an hour in the gym tml.

Din slp enugh last nite.
Went to meet out with more wlny peeps from hougang.
wat a fun-loving grp of them...
was having a chill-out (for high class)/ la kopi (erm, my class?) session.
jokes... laughter... and more laughter.
think i'm beginning to enjoy myself more...
Big thanks to Amanda!

Reached home ard 2 plus AM.
slpt at 3... now.. a lil' under the weather.
waiting for Ms Kerlyn mei mei to reply bout tml's gym session...

Suntan today!!!!!
With Amanda...

Here we go... at hougang MRT...



In the Sentosa Express... reaching!



We settled at Siloso beach first but hey, where's the sun???



kinda cloudy... and then we saw this...



some smoke.. interesting looking thing.

We decided to... shift. to. Tanjong beach.

Walking...





Actually, Amanda was saying Palawan beach.
but no idea how come we ended in Tanjong beach
where the sun shines!
and lotsa doggies!!!



and where the action of tanning begins....



Had to go for dinner wif family at 5 plus... so... gdbye...



and i caught some nice scenary before i left...






So that was all for the sun tanning.
I have to say: I AM SO NOT SATISFIED WITH MY TAN!
seriously. not tanned enough!
i wan to go again.
and i'm so in love with the sun now...

It's payday today!
BUT...
I spent almost all i am allowed...

I made it a point to budget myself...
and i spent... all tat i was allowed!
the amt is not a lot i swear.

gdness... i swear i got lotsa more things to buy!
Mum's birthday's coming soon...

but i'm saving.. for the phone and school fees.

It was my working sat today.

Bought food... for fluffy...

and i went shopping by myself

coz i so wanna go beach... for suntan

And i bought myself:

A haversack



A pair of shorts



Not forgetting...


(it's already the 3rd piece)

and i came home after dinner with fat cat...
thanks dude!

started cam-whoring.
pardon me pls.



and finally know how to add effects using photoshop
(I'm such an idiot)


I love this effect... (EVEN PROUDER)

hahaha... it's just me...

Haiyo.... duno since when,
my blog settings turned into C-h-i-n-a.
Managed to change them back to ENGLISH! today!
I can't navigate for hell in CHINESE LA

Anyway, also duno since when again...
I'm like trying to stop myself from overspending
I hope today is the last.
and i REALLY mean LAST time for this and next month.
i spent 100+ today lor...

this is wat i got for myself...



and



cos i'm goin to gym after work
so i need shoe bag. it's not the typical white nike logo... it's silver.
stupid cam... lousy quality.
and i need a bag that can carry clothes.
and shoes. maybe for future, if need be, i can use for other purposes!
hahaha...

and now, i'm officially a FILA member.
if u need any FILA goods, come to me okay.

Did i mention, I LURVVVVVVVVVV the bodyshop scrub (for now).
at least the first experience!
it really leaves me feeling gd.
and i love love love the passionfruit flavor!

Confessions.
I spent money again.
I almost spent 100 bucks in an hour...
But i still managed to stop myself.

Need a pair of covered toe flats.
so the only thing i tot of was those cute shoes that was pretty in...
and i got myself this...



Jus think it's so cute. can't resist.
and yes, it's white again. Rem Ms Kang commented once
all my shoes are white... erm... 95% correct.
I just love white shoes/bags/stuff...

then i tot i wanted to go get yee's prezzie.
but i stepped into...



Pardon my lousy phone cam.
I promise. a better one will be on it's way. rite buddy?!

and walked around... and bought...



i hope i will use them regularly.
one's for my nose. the other's a body scrub.

now come to think of it... where's yee's prezzie?!?!?!?!!??
damn. hahaha...

I've not abandon my blog.
Jus tat...
was pretty busy n lazy at the same time.

Life's pretty much the same.
getting quite sick of work.
super not happy with the over flooding workload.
Was out helping at 'sin tua' last week.

My life now revovles ard ...
work. dvd. game. slp. DREAM of cars.
hahahaha.

I figure out somehow, one day.. ya one day.
when i'm really so free, i'm gonna change my blogskin again.
then... gonna insert a wishlist for myself.
coz i realised, i've been sayin.. i wan tis/tat.
but i always end up nv buying.
and ALWAYS. without fail, ALWAYS buying something else.
money has been spent on things i don't know wat.

I need to save. for sch fees. car... (I HOPE)
handphone, k850i as promised to buddy. no more N95.
furniture. haiyo. i need a hell lot of things.
i duno wat. all v expensive.

Oh.. did i say, i jus changed my hair color ytd.
Red. ya red. with mama...

maybe i shld go clear up my messy mind too.
kinda aimless. living day as it is.
thinkin of too many things at one go.
i rememberd. I WANA GO SUN TAN LAH.

OK.. last but not least.

Happy 21st Birthday to Na* dearest!
Hope u enjoyed ur party last nite.
and our gifts n wishes to u~
May ur dreams come true...
my dear, u can really scream~~~

haha...

Tired. Extreme.
Din slp the whole of last nite.
Jus half and hour in the morning
before going to work.

It all started on Thurs afternoon...
MSN xp if wkend free to go collect my stuff from Tamp.
Ended up with a suggestion to meet up at nite.
With me driving her beau's car.
I was like: WAH SO DARING AH.

Met up with her at ard 2045 hrs.
Journey started...
First time driving after so many years...
wat's more, a Toyota Wish. SO Big and Long!
Was kinda scared. (have to admit)

We went to alexandra first, her coy. to put some stuff.
Loaded and set off to siglap...
Looking for 'The Cheesecake Cafe'
Yummylicious cheesecake they serve there.
Ambience pretty nice too. But we din eat there.
Packed 6 pcs. Went to Tamp.
Collected my things and went to meet her 'bro'
and ate the cheeeeeeeeeesecakeees.

Went for a carwash (yeah I'm still driving)
before heading back to hougang to meet another friend of her's.
Was alrdy ard 1 am.
Friend drove this time, to tamp, get cue sticks.
and head to sims drive.
the guys went off and i'm back to driving again.

Off to 'Dinner' next at 2 plus am?!?
Headed to the Hong Kong Cafe at East Coast Rd.
Then went Marina Bay for some arcade games.
till 4 plus am.

Back to hougang (still in driver seat)
and rot n stoned a lil' at Raymond's place
before they send me home...
and that's when i slpt 30 mins and went work.

FREAKING TIRED...
Buddy, if you're reading this...
Have to tell u:

Thank you for last nite. I enjoyed myself though there were hiccups here and there.
Sorry for scaring you a few times! Anyway, I'm home already. I guess u already ZzzZzz! Still ask me to call u when i reach home? 2 nites no slp? hahaha... i'll be awake... for now...
Sweet dreams. Call me at 3 am if u are awake! LOL.

Long long loooooooooooooong day today.
Initial plan was to get home early,
do laundry,
watch dvd again
then slp.

BUT... i din't! I had change in plan.
and I made 2 new friends from my neighbourhood.
Amanda and Erwin namely.

was working (using ebuddy secretly) and xchanged contacts wif Amanda
and without realising it, I'm meeting her!
Oh, Ms Koh Li Hoon (my colleague), a very nice Snr HRE
drop me off at AMK today.
Thank you!!!!!!! she's always so nice.
back to meeting Amanda...

Reached hougang, and met her and Erwin. surprise surprise.
Went for dinner and then new plan.
Go jog after that... WAH.
I like stopped joggin' for 1 mnth plus nearin' 2 mnths!
but i jus said okay. So met up wif Erwin first and jog to Amanda's place.
And joooogged somemore around her area.
till 11?
Been quite sometime since i last jog.
and it's really quite a vast difference from the usual i jog.
taking into account of 8 rounds and the dist from hougang green to her place.

they walked me home after tat.
so nice rite! haha.
jus got myself freshen up.
goin to slp soon...
tml's thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one more day to Friday.

cheers! i love wkends. (coz i can ZzZzz)
and... clubbin anyone? lol...
oh i forgot. I got a wedding dinner to attend this sat.
haven got any clothes (appropriate?).
shopping b4 sat anyone???
hahaha...
let me know. = )

I'm fine.
perfectly fine.

Am feeling aches on my back.
Tired.
Going to slp soon.

After blogging the last entry,
Jerry came to pick me up for mcdonald's breakfast at AMK.
Went over to watch tv after tat.
Doze off at his place at ard 9 am?
Woke up at...
5.15 pm.
He sent me home at 6 i guess.

And am at home watching dvd.
catching some old drama serial.
Wind and Cloud.
can't really stop.
haha...

but feeling tired.
going to slp soon.
tomorrow's yet another day.

Jonathan Ang Gim Leong is dead.

If I feel blue would you be there for me
And whipser in my ear that's ok
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time
If I feel good would slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I'm away would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away
Would you be be there
For me...

Mr Ang, would you be there ?

I need that NOT anymore.
I've woken up.

My mind is made up.
CLEAR.
I did not do him wrong. I don't see the need to be remorseful AT ALL.

If I feel blue would you be there for me
And whipser in my ear that's ok
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good would slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I'm away would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be be there
For me...

Would you be there - Redwan Ali

A song that i've been replaying for the past 2 days.
A song that best describes wat i want to say to him.

I'm hurt once again.
Should I wait for him?
I'm lost yet once again.
Been waiting for my phone to ring.
The whole nite. It just didn't.
A promise made... broken... and now lost.
So is my heart.

Bad days.
Bad night last night.
Dun wish to talk about it.
I know i hurt him.
He hurt me too.
Hurt again. It just sucks.
Just when I tot I can entrust everything to him.
Are all these just a cycle?
I duno wat's going on.
seriously i'm really confused and scared.
Even though it seems ok already.

He's stress.
We're strained. He chooses to run away.
I duno wat to do.
He told me lies. It hurt me.
He knows I can't take lies. I'm confused. Really.

Emo hurt again.
Physically hurt myself today.
My jaw got dislocated.
Went to the hospital.
They tried to put it back w/o medication
but din work.
Put me to sleep... and got it back....

Some ugly pictures (Just 3) of my pain today:



When I just woke up after they put me to slp.



I removed the fugly bandage myself...



This hurts the most after my jaw was put back in place... apart from me heart. = (

Mr Ang, would you be there ?

My eyes are closing...
So tired! but am waiting for my hair to be dry...
Jus gotten home from a catch-up with my Yr 1 days dearies...
Nise, Na and of coz... Mama...

Had good dinner? Filling.
and i guess we really took lots of photos!
but then, Na's got all of 'em.
so... sorry! no photos for showcase now...
We had fun through dinner...
snap shots taking...
walking and more posing and snap shots!
and we're planning to meet up again on 10 July!

See Nise! i remember! dun have key in phone. = )

Tml's wed. Long day at work.
it's the JCI audit...
Tiring!!!! Can't wait for weekend to come fast pls...
and then I'm working on sat still...

Going for tattoo on Sunday... with darl.
Duno when can i buy my DSLite...
I WANT TO BUY!!!!!!!!! argh...
and I still want N95... so pretty...

Hmm...
As usual, am at darl's place now.
Waiting for him to finish work and come home.
Quickly!
I wana go walk walk.
wanna buy a new bag for work. (again)
Like wat they always say...
a woman can never get enough of shoes and bags.
and of course, clothes!

anyway, had big fun yesterday.
went K Box wif buddy and darl.
Sang from 8 plus till nearly 12.
Sang till i almost lost my voice.
Had fun switching voices...
from FIR's duet to Shin Yue Tuan's one night in Beijing
to Buddy's fav Wu Yan De Jie Ju...

Darl videod, took pics of us going crazy.
we sang from sitting, to kneeling on the sofa
till standing and standing on the seat...
call us crazy.
but we were really happy.
thanks buddy!
Eh... it's v costly lor.
u shouldn't really have foot the bill.

anyway... tml's monday again.
Monday blues...
and next sat.. i'm working.
and it's gonna be a long long day for me.
coz it's keke's bday bbq celebration.
Am thinking of getting my 2nd tattoo next sunday...
Should i???

I'm not at work today.
Din really expect it.
Took Family Care Leave.
Dad's injured.
Met up with a minor accident yesterday.

Fuck that van driver.
I curse him all the way.

anyway, bought breakfast for dad.
brought him to see doc.
and was at home... doing this...

then i tot of getting one for buddy:

then, i got vain...

and i tot of doing one for my friends!
all in all, to sum up my 3 yrs of poly days...

I hope this entry doesn't hang anyone's pc!!!

Fuck that emo aside...

jus some updates over the wkend:

Friday was Shan's Bday celebration.
Went to meet him at tamp first.

and being sweet, he bought me 2 gifts.

a necklace and an eeyore plush toy (i've been hugging it wherever i see it in dept. stores!).
thanks darl.
and i've been huggin' it ever since.
too bad din take any pic of it.
and it's at his place. prob squashed by him tonite...

Random Pic:



this was taken when he was having a flu...

anyway, back to the main topic.
we went to waiting bar...
erm... not very my kind of place.
we left early. coz darl got to work on sat.

and i heard they went MOS next. how can!!?? (esp w/o me?!??!)
ha.

sat...
initial plan...
go ikea walk walk. then to pasir ris beach walk walk some more. and have dinner at fisherman's village.
BUT...
hey hey, my dudess called me.
the trio... Asri and Effendi...

we met up at east coast. of coz wif darl.
for dinner. heavy dinner. with seafood.
and alot of ayam... thanks dudes...
then it freaking rained.
bypass this stall selling keychains.
and darl bought another eeyore for me. (thank you darl.)
and effendi got for himself patrick(s) from spongebob.


Random Pic:



I love this pic of his... so cute... taken b4 he knew me...

Was still raining.
we took a cab to parkway.
had a short round of pool game.
with me not playing.
and left. (still freaking raining)

Sun.... (today)

Darl went work early morning.
me woke up at 9 plus.
came home to bring fluffy for grooming.
yes. she's botak once more.
and got dad out for brunch.
and went back to darl's house.
watch vcd and rot...
tat was pretty much... all that happened....

i had a pic posted of the small eeyore and the necklace here....



the pendant has the words "I Love You" on it... in case you're wondering...
Cute Eeyore... too bad the big one is not ard...

That's all.
Good nite.
Back to work again tml. Sighz.

Fucked up.
Fucking sian.

Bored.
Boring.

Where have my fun days gone to?

see my msn: confused.
few mins later: wtf is wrong wif me.
another few more mins later: F-king EMO.

tat's me for today. the whole of today.
and partial of yesterday.

nah.. nothing wrong between me and my dar.
jus me myself.
doing some soul searching.
duno.
ended up feeling confused.
felt some freakin prickin pain in the heart.
darl din make me sad.
i'm jus upset (wif) myself.
i tot i jus wasn't honest wif myself.
not being myself.
been having weird dreams for 2 nites.
insecurity arising duno since when.
the heart once again dun wanna listen to the brain.

but at least i'm much more sober this time round.
i hope so.
i seriously duno wat i wan.
can't think straight.
can't focus.
seems lost. but not quite.
where's me?
lost.
i hope darl can bring me back.
i love him. but i think, he loves me more.
i feel bad.

jus like how it was when i was wif kelvin (mr toyota)
not fat cat.
i hope it wun end the same way.
my emos destroyed it once.
i jus assured darl i'm fine.
but myself...? feeling insecure.
insane.
yes. i am.

darl has brought me through wonderful times ever since we got together.
jus wan to thank him... a zillion times is never enough still.
he's really been nice.
i'm happy i've got him.
i prob jus need him to help me find myself...

Feeling pretty down at work lately.
Restless.
hence, alot of careless mistakes.

new colleague coming in on Monday.
She's LSL.
Boss = > LML
Exec to be = > LYL
Myself = > LWL
Admin n Ancillary Team belongs to the L_L empire!!!!
hahahaha.... LAME i know.
but so much of a coincidence rite?!

anyway, i just received a letter from SIM.
Soooooooo Heng ah... I din go apply with SHRI.
Otherwise i sure waste money.
I din get myself into the July intake PT course.
but they reserved my a place for me for the Jan 08 PT course!
which means... I've got myself in!
the only thing now is to send the reply slip and wait for their acknowledgement.
So happy.
but i know i'm not very expressive...
cause...

I miss Darl...
Mr ANG!!!!!!!!!
Reservist for him tis week all the way till Friday.
So no bowling for him... and indirectly means...
i dun get to see him mid week.
only got to wait till Friday or even Sat?

Anyway, i wana shout out to all my friends:

I miss ya all!!!!

Take care and Have a nice... day?

Good morning!
You barely see me blogging/logging online at this hour...
yeap... 11 am. on a sunday?!
like i'm mad rite?
not really...
din club last nite...

Went bugis to find aunty loh, fat cat and yee yee ytd wif darl.
so happy to see them! miss them alot. esp aunty loh.
she has really been a very nice aunty... like mummy to me.
i mean not only to me... but to many others in the shop as well.
but i'm sorry i got to resign. not that i dun want/love to work there
but i can't. afterall, i stop working there for 4 mnths!
i guess it doesn't really make any difference rite?
with or without me. i know i'm going to damn miss cooking takoyaki.
but then... for the sake of my work, future i guess i got to stop that.
Happy to see fat cat too! hahaha. he'll always be my fat cat.
and yee yee... hahaha...with that damn low pitch "Ah Li..." (acting La Pi Xiao Xin)
bought them starbucks each! and i enjoyed my Ice Coco too!

Once again, I'm MIA from home.
Like wat Ms Yien said, I'm at Tampines Chalet.
hahaha... yeap. waiting for darl to come home. (working... sighz!)

Been feeling restless about work lately.
dun like to OT anymore. dun get the drive to work so hard.
Having monday blues like everyday! it's everyday blueeeee...
when it's 4+ pm, the 'want to go home!' feeling jus dawn upon me everyday.
Wat's going on?!? it wasn't like this before!
i duno why. but i guess it's a gd thing too.
working too much/late is not tat good for an assistant also.
but then the executive better work... dun make life difficult for me!
hahahaa...
got new colleague coming in
my boss, ms may so happy.
she definitely can lighten our workload but still...
let's hope she stays put not like khad... who left so fast = (

anyway, i thought through about it.
I guess, if my application to RMIT fails, i dun think i wanna apply wif SHRI first.
the fees are just way too expensive.
Do i really need to ? after all it's Curtin. Like not very good lehz...
forget it first eh? work hard.
save more money for my other plans first.
travel, car... shopping!
hahaha... i wannna shop... but i dun really know wat i wan to buy.

I know i wan to get my DS Lite soon.
can help me kill time when sometimes i'm really bored you know.
but then... the GST rebate is only coming in in July. one more month to go.
and tat reminds me of keke's bday.
ahahaha... Buddy! prezzie or cash? Cash better right?!?!
eh, miss u ah... hope to see u later! hahaha...

Long entry yeah? coz i'm bored mah.
no one talking to me over MSN. so boring!
ya... my friends like me. dun come online so early...
hahahaha.... better luck later!