life's pretty much the same ever since i'm back to work...
except for the lighter workload...
i think i better take back my words...
coz i see another hurricane of work coming in again!

haha...
i'm bored at home.
i've bought my sims 2 expansions and am mad playin it as and when it's my off day.
i'm missing boiler room...
can't seem to find any companion to go wif me = (

and i'm missing out on my buddy!
hey where's the photos?

anyway, i just did something tat at least keep me excited for a few hours.
I pillion on a CBR 600 for the FIRST TIME.
ok la. I know i'm freaking sua ku.
I've nv sat on anything bigger than 2B wat!
the biggest was X9...
it feels big, and gd.
ahahaha... Thanks to Jerry.
new friend. rode out to get wet in the rain...
tat's the main aim... like wat rite?!?
but then it stopped raining after a while.
so it kinda defeats the purpose.

but it's enugh to keep me excited?
coz it's a big bike ma.
hahaha... tat's all for my nonsensical post.

I'm online at this weird hour!
this is rare...
well of coz, i'm back! from BKK.

well, i had fun of coz!
it's really a shopping trip.
i din really buy alot of things for myself.
but i'm happy coz i bought things for my family
and esp my bro, who is super delighted with the clothings i bought for him.
gd thing all fits him!
and mum is keepin that bag in place.
and dad is so happy wif his 4 pairs of sunglassess.

hahaha...
and i'm happy with all my purchases!
i love all the things i bought!!!!!!
and really wana thank my bud, xp for makin it happen.
thanks for the perfume too!
we'll go somewhere again next yr ok?
i'll have another savings lot call travel expenses apart from the school and car
which i'm having now.

and i tot i bought a new bed for fluffy too!
she loves it i think?! coz she does go into in and laze there...
tat's great! and it's damn cheap lor!!!!!!
compared to those in SG which is bloody expensive!
i can get 3 of them in BKK by jus comparing to the one i bought the previous round!
and she got loads of snacks too!
everyone's happy!
hahaha...
oh... the weather there is like so hot?!
but i kinda like the sun shining hard on me when i was in chatuchak. (is that how u spell?)
it was burning hot but it certainly feels like sun tanning.

and it's 3.30 am! i'm goin to bugis tml to pass the gifts to the aunties!
and then i'm goin to buy game... my sims 2 expansions.
and the one that went missing.
till today i freakin still believe he took it.
but i will buy new one. dun care!
hahaha...

no photos for now...
wait till i get them i'll upload some here...
meanwhile, it's goin to
zZzZzZz

it's like....12 more hours and i'm flying.
checkin in the airport at 10.25am.

met mama yesterday for dinner.
it's like eeeonsss since i last saw her.
i still love and miss her.
She's my mama ok.
i'm sorry to keep her waiting.
and having her to shop wif me...

and today... work was hectic.
coz half the day i was administering offer letters at SGH.
then i'm left wif only 2nd half to clear my work and do up my handover list.
argh!!!!!!! going crazy then... and the recept. kept coming to ask me this n that...
almost gone crazy. sorry to let my dear ms may and ms yien wait for my handover list.
but everything's ok... i left out something in my list.
but i remember already. gonna tell ms yien tml.

and then again, sorry to xp and bf for makin u guys wait for me.
see, i've been making ppl wait for me.
i feel so bad!!!!!!! but i can't seem to tear myself away from work.
i dream of my work...... tat's the worst part.
i hope i dun dream of any during my holidays!

i'm goin away in 12 hours time....
i'm feelin excited. tired. worried (abt work AGAIN).
guess... it's wat they call...
Zhi Ye Bing.

hmm... i tot i'll come in and talk a lil' bout work.
have i mention b4 that i work in the recruitment team in my company?
and i'm in the admin n ancillary team for recruitment.
apart from that there's the paramedical team and nursing team.
wat's wif all these teams?
basically we split the positions up for hiring.
so to speak, my team hires all positions that falls under
Admin & Ancillary
which is a huge group.

and something so much of coincidence is that...
there are 3 ppl (including myself) in the admin team...
they are, my A.M and my J.E not forgetting myself A.
AM = Assistant Manager
JE = Junior Executive
A = Assistant
and then? we all belong to the same family 5000 yrs ago.
and our initials are all about the same.

AM - > LML
JE - > LYL
myself - > LWL

geddit?!? So we always joked about creating the surname "LIM" empire.
anyway, my dearest AM popped the qns today.
my JE hinted me sometime back.
it's regarding my conversion.
she was telling me it's up to me whether i wan to renew or convert. -_-"
coz my job scope involes this for other staff...
wat an open ended choice.
i'm thinkin about it...

I'm feeling kinda lost.
Guess it's the quietness at home.
Even though my parents are home, they are in their room.
and i'm in mine.
we live in our own rooms.
our own lives.
had lots of tots lately about my near future.
dun dare to think too far... yet. haha...

studies? car? job? career advancemnet? new friends? new environment?
got to know alot of ppl over the net ever since it ended in Jan.
over different networks. i've got to enjoy myself more too.
i've learnt to live for myself totally. and am now lovin' it.
and not to forget, seen many diff faces of friends around me.
the ones who were and will always be there.
those that were merely there to find out more...
i was sitting down goin tru some past memories. some still pricked me.
but i've decided to seal it all up. once and for all.
i'm never ever goin to let it affect me anymore.
i'm sorry, but i dun see the need to remember anything u've done even though they were really once so sweet. even though there were difficult times we've gone through. the tough times. the good times. how much tears i've shed for the past 2 yrs.
it's all goin to be sealed up.

it's not as if i've not gotten over it. trust me i have work hard to come to where i am today.
i may not have fully gotten over it but it shall be.
i'm happy where i am now. doin wat i love to do at my own timing.
i dun have to watch the clock.
i dun have to worry about anything else.
i'm myself. i'm happy.
and i'm so much more happier.
coz i'm goin on a holiday soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yes. W/O u.

i'm not feelin sore. i'm jus pouring out my thoughts.
and i'm done with it.

Hot. Sweaty. Shagged. Flushed.
Tat's exactly how i'm feeling now!
not angry. not blushing.
then???

just back from jog...

I think i completed my 1.8km faster than the previous previous round.
(note: double previous! coz last round i only managed 1.5km due to pain from improper breathing)

i hope i'm gettting faster and not my clock getting slower.
if i'm really goin that fast... then i'm goin to add another 600m to the routine.
tat's gonna make it 2.4km a wk!
Wow... thinking of 8 times to and fro... really dun make me feel like jogging anymore.
Wahahahahaha... i think i shall stay on to 1.8km till the day comes...

i'm still trying to convince myself to jog 1.8km twice a week. (tat's 3.6km!)
it sounds more attractive than 2.4km at a go...
i'm like doin my 3Xs table here. (mathematics sux!)
hahaha... i'm jus working out to see if i can work out! (geddit?)

i seriously think that the jog has caused me to type rubbish here.
probably too high from it.
but coming to think of it again, i still dance for at least 2 hrs weekly (non stop)
so does it help? i think so...
but if i dun go st james does it means i work out less?
then do i have to balance by jogging another 1.8km?
or do i have to dance at home for 2hrs?
i've done it b4 few yrs back and a few times a wk in fact!
but then, there was no dog.

i wun do it wif fluffy staring at me...
i bet she must be wondering if i'm mad/wtf am i doin?!?!?
hahaha... and i dun like her stares too. make me feel so uncomfortable!
so how... must i offset?
dilemma now... stupid of me to get into a dilemma out of this issue...
i guess, i'll see how it goes.
i'm starting to feel slpy.
better go bathe to freshen up. still've got laundry to do!

and i really love the pair of boots Zuley wore that nite.......
I REALLY WANT IT........ really....

jus reached home from boiler room!
first time so early.
hmm.. coz Mr Eugene need to go home
hope he ain't bored... he looked kinda.

but i had fun. today it's damn packed again!
and i told the 'hooded' guy i'll be back next week...
erm... duno if i can make it.
left her alone at there i hope she's not upset.
L: if u're reading this... i hope u're alrite? btw, i saw the 'hooded' guy at the entrance area! there got more space for him la. ahahaha.

starting to feel tired. i miss alia's cute dressing.
and i love zuley's white boots!!!!! it's so bloody damn nice!
i want it...... exactly the type i'm looking for.
shoe laces all the way up and a cute shiny heart shape!
if i see it, i'm gonna get it. and it's shoe like!

ah... tired... duno wat's gonna happen tml. i hope i will be slping at 3.
and it's monday coming again! sadded!

blog again...

had a v boring sat nite.
but a not too bad sunday!
started wif family going for lunch at Sakae.
wee... then lou hei there... din get enough salmon satisfaction though.

then brother drove me to hougang mall
to get the hi-fi that i've been eyeing for less than a week.
nice nice... love it. it's now sitting next to my laptop.
squarish.. so kinda cubic.

it rained when we got home...
cleaned up my side 'table' and the mini bar fridge.
really din tough it since he left.
he really made the poor fridge look disgusting lor
wat a freak.

din get to use pc today at all not until like 30 mins ago.
bro was hogging on it whole day doing his project.
anywayz, i'm still hoping to buy more beautiful tops!
and of coz, shorts.
i also wana go ikea! buy some stuff. i can't remove the mirror i stick on!
irritating... i wan to change it's location...

oh did i mention that i went to the dog gathering yesterday?
the most fun part of all is meeting up wif nise and her 6 cheeky poms!
haha... all so lovely.
but poor fluffy was so disturbed the whole day.
good thing she got warmed up a lil' wif nisey's poms...

it's going to be monday again...
another 6 working days this week..
hope everything will be smooth sailing this week.

oh yeah, i, for the 2nd time indirectly, caused ppl to strike 4D again!
this time is ms yien... hahaha...
i jus say buy 4D and she really bought and it's 3rd prize!
hmm... I never buy 4D so i guess, i only pass my luck to ppl ard...
hope so?!? better pass some to my mum.
she's complaining why do i always let others have the luck...
maybe it'll be her turn...
or maybe... i'm not her lucky child... haha...
maybes....

i'm friggin bored!
not goin st james tonite... after like 6 consecutive sats...
it certainly feels BORING.

Been pretty lethargic lately at work.
no idea why...
seems like the workload is piling up again
or is it me? who has become inefficient?!?

feeling kinda guilty for not joggin this wk.
i missed out jogging last wk coz i was sick.
i dun really have a gd excuse now. apart from the weather.
and the OT?
I gotta make myself jog twice next week then.
MUST go TWICE. sighz.

feeling kinda bored rite now. nothing much to do.
don't know wat to do either! damn.
dun feel like playing games either.
tomorrow is the dfs doggie gathering... fluffy's going.
and my stupid bro has yet to tell me if he's gonna lend me his car
or if he's gonna send me there.
i've got a list of things that i wana buy.
i need a more shorts! more tops! more pretty tops!
more shoes! more boots! more bags! and not forgetting...
more MONEY!!!!!!!!! hahahaha... that's the most impt i guess.

Saw a player the other day at harvey norman. it's white.
very nice. Philips. and it cost 179.
a little ex for home mini hi fi... but the gd thing is that i can jus plug in my ipod.
i'm still considering...
and i'm hoping to go st james tml nite despite the fact that
i've been there for the past consecutive sats!
I miss... Alia and the Raw Energy~~ haha...

feeling kinda slpy. but dun really wana slp...
wat can i do...

hmm... it really feels different to be using my laptop on the desk.
feels.... professional...lol wat crap.
at least i dun feel like at work. that's the most impt thing! but it feels gd.

was out ytd noon wif jo and kenny for k lunch.
hmm... was down wif flu so wasn't really singin much.
the lunch has changed since duno when.
and i only know of it ytd. wat sua ku man!
hahaha... u gotta understand the fact that the last time i hit k lunch was 2 yrs back.
otherwise, was all the v expensive hours.
and i din know they dun let u swipe ur card when ur bill is under 50 bucks.
wat is that... -_-"

anyway, was out walking ard and i finally bought the laptop cool pad!
it's for my lappy to sit on it wif 2 fans underneath cooling it.
i'm so freaking worried that my lappy will go chao ta or even be smoking...
due to the heat it produces esp when i'm playing sims 2.
it goes on for hours... and it really gets v heated up!
but now i'm alrite wif it... and that cool pad (according to the box it's called cool pad)
is transparent piece of plastic... and that guy was saying it's arcyllic. so no fear...
i tot it might melt... haha...and it produces blue light when u on it... jus like my mouse.
so now my table is v blue..... together wif my room phone which is also blue!

anyway, enugh of that... i also spent a deal at nike.
i bout a top! i tot it was beautiful despite the fact that it's pretty translucent.
well i guess my sats are pretty much a spending spree for me.
was down at st james ytd again. oh it was damn packed ytd.
i duno why... but not too bad still...... = )

tml's back to work again..... and it's gonna be a 5 full week.
where's the next PH gonna be????????????

it's friday~
time passess super fast tis wk.
in fact....
it's just the holidays that made the wk look so short.

hmmm...
nothing much.
jus here to blabber some nonsense.....

New skin for the new year?

I kinda like this though.
at this moment...

CNY is jus like 10 hours plus away.
but i'm really not at least bothered.
no shopping for CNY.
i did shop alot. but all are meant for other purposes...

tot i should jus drop by and blog a bit.
sorry for abandoning my blog for 2 wks!
alrite, was as usual, down to st james on sat nites.
it'll still be the same tonite. irregardless if it's CNY.
to me, it's jus "who cares?"

well, i miss aunty loh suddenly since yesterday.
i duno why. but no plans to go back (yet).
i'm still enjoying my sats out...

looks like it's gonna rain again...
bad weather...

was duper busy the whole of last wk.
OT was throughout the wk in fact.
Mon - 930
Tues - 10pm
Wed - 10.30
Thurs - 10.30

imagine... and every nite slp at 1.30.

went for a jog on monday still!

damn shag... and Fri was the big move out.

caught up wif xp, er, ke, jen and fen wif her boy on Fri nite.
gd to catch up... although i din talk much it's still gd to see them.
went for lunch wif bro on sat.
bought 2 pairs of shoes from U.R.S. (pissed wif the one at Tiong Bahru Plaza)
slacked at home till nite.

st james again at 11.
sad thing
ytd's crowd wasn't as great as last wk.
was a little boring though.
left at 3 plus... hit tamp mcdonalds for a drink
hit the sack at 830 am. gdness.
woke up at 1530... hahaha...
still feeling slpy though...

tml's a new war at a new zone...
oh did i mention i kinda love my new office?

Tired.
but can't slp anymore.

St James last nite...
been a long while since i last club.
at least i was havin better fun than the last spot at devils.
energizer is back!
hahaha...
from floor to table top and back to floor again...
the place was damn pack and squeezy.

club till 4 (they close at 4! so early ?!?)
and went for a drink (tea la... no more alcohol)
reached home at 6... and did something stupid accidentally again
i deleted all my inbox messages!!!!!
#%%@^@
wat crap load! i guess i was dead beat then.
coz i slpt at 6 on fri nite too...

arise and shine at 12... can't slp anymore... no idea why.
and now there's no water coz someone's reparing pipes.
finally... sighz...

Dreading tml's arrival coz it's the week that we're shifting office!
and there's tonnes which i've yet to do.
wanted to get back office ytd. but slpin at 6 doesn't help at all...


Looking forward to next wkend though~

well, if u've been readin my blog for the past 2 days
u'll know that there's some childish kids running around
trying to destroy my reputation once again.

watever, i know who never grows up in the end...
i've decided to be generous...
not to be bothered.
jus get rid of those stupid nonsense this particular kid has done.

no brainer for using the same ip.
think i'm stupid?
think again.

you know who you are.

Shaggggggggged...
despite the emotional drain,
i'm still trying very hard to pick myself up.

jus back half an hour ago from a jog.
went joggin wif my bro.
first time he offered to pick me up from office to send me home.
then we went for dinner together.
and finally for a jog...
not v flattering though... only 1.6 km.
will go again probably Thurs or Fri.
anybody wana join me?
pls gimme a call.
I hope i have companion though.

need to help myself fight all those may it be sweet or bad memories
throw them all away.
help me get past this stage... till the day,
when i recall those days for the past 2 yrs...
the won't be any pain... probably just the sweet memories will remain?
I hope so... like how i manage to get over the past 3...
I hope...

my life's been wrecked.

Thanks to the shameless couple.

Past week was jus so hard to get by.
So is now.
Betrayal and cheating is enough.
Yet making up lies to cover for himself, destroying my reputation,
protecting her seems to be wat he wants.

Seeing her on his FS4459M yesterday bypassin my area.
Still denying the fact.
Yes I know.
We're over. Please grow up and stop being such a coward.
not admitting to it when being asked.

I HATE THEM. TAY CHONG SIONG. the once my everything.
who took away my everything. the one who seek my trust. which now turns into...
betrayal. YVONNE GOH KAI XIN. the bitch who kept lying.
HATE.

I've been like the living dead.
I can't slp everynite.
I have to make myself drop dead tired.
finding ppl to talk to over the phone.
the min i hang up, wide awake again.
the pain... is overwhelming.
Even if i do slp, every short while i wake up.
It's mentally torturing.
I tried... i failed.
I lost.
I duno wat can i do to make myself feel better.

Sincere thanks and appreciation to all friends who talked to me.
Esp XP. the number of hours you spent
has really touched me.
Wenbin too. Thanks for talkin to me wee hours into the nite.
despite feelin tired. Thanks for enlightening me.
Thanks effendi, both kelvins.
Thanks jojo, for helpin me seek the numbers.
I'm still in pain.

I still need ppl to talk to.
yet i can't bring myself to call anyone else.
please my dear friends,
I need friends to be by my side at tis veri moment.
please help me...

jus when i tot u were being heartless.

one freaking truth came out.

u weren't heartless. u were and still IS COLD BLOODED.

Fuck u for using my phone to call her.

Fuck u for saying those to her USING MY PHONE.

FUCK U YVONNE GOH KAI XIN. wan to know her?

go to takopachi look for YVONNE.

wat can i say...

speechless.

i'm having one of the worst new yr's eve and new yr itself...

i've to pick myself up from wat u just left.

selfish. i see.

how u hurt me. 2 yrs.

i'm jus plain dumb and stupid.

I tried to slash. but i admit. i dun have sufficient courage.

maybe for now. maybe not.

how heartless can u be. wat u said. simply jus doesnt seems to be.

tearing for 1 and half days.

bad fall. pain. shattered. lose my will. lose my mind.

insane.

tat's wat u've given to me.

thanks. wif love.

Oooo well, long time no update.
Busy la. as usual.

work work work.
damn tiring and stressful till i fell sick last wk.
was catching the korean drama Goong aka Princess Hours for the past weeks.
So caught up with the show till now.
Am still listening to the OST. or rather... bought the OST.

Well, X'mas round the corner!
Merry X'mas in advance everyone!!!!

time for some pics...

more of fluffy to be exact...

firstly... may i present fluffy acting fierce...



coming up next... fluffy WITHOUT EARS!!!!



still more to come.... fluffy acting babyish....



Lastly... best pic of fluffy ever since she entered into my family....


before i go...

a glimpse of me... in my new specs... wif a my shuai ge... LOL

Had a v enjoyable bday the day b4.
Although din go anywhere...
but shopping whole day is really...
SHIOK!

started with fri,
xp and i went for steamboat at parkway.
i must say it's really nice.
highly recommendable 4 stars out of 5.
anyone wana go there makan?
loook for me ok.

then the bday prezzies note: prezzieS
not prezzie. she gave me really touched me.
thanks my dearest friend.
really love the pendant.
and of coz the dinner.

bday itself, went shopping...
bought the v3i gold... and the gold bluetooth.
bargained for a free hp pouch using my bday as excuse.
hahahaha...
got myself a memory card as well.
then bought a top and a jacket too!
finally, made a pair of new glasses!!!!!!! love it.
haha... will post it next time.

my grandmother, (paternal) passed away on 26 Nov.
well, we are totally not close to her.
thus... i'm kinda nonchalent about it.
i still miss my ah ma (maternal) alot though...

Am waiting for the D&G pouch and gold earpiece to be launch in SG
duno wat to get for me for x'mas?
get the hint. drop by motorola service centre then.
hahaha...

Change a new blog skin...
coz the previous one got complaint
probs browsing it.

Hope tis is better...
do giv ur feedback.
Thanks!

I'm still on the lookout for V3i Gold...

I really want that D&G V3I.

REALLY CLASSIC.

PRETTY...

Work...
is jus soooooo BUSY.
simply never ending!
my tasks jus piles up everyday.
but i'm really glad
that my collegues and my assistant manager
have been v tolerating.
Esp my assistant manager.
they are all v fun ppl in fact.
My da shi jie and er shi jie
both always teach me whenever i approach them.
also, the lovely Lydia from one of our contacting agencies.

Anywayz, brought fluffy to the vet ytd.
she's healthy. and she's 5! not 7!
yeah!!!
and we bought fluffy a new polka dot bed!
looks pretty cute n retro.
Lazy to load here la...
jus go to my friendster to see(if u like)

alrights. got to go now...
need to rest... tml is yet another day for war....

Updates!
Din blog for about a week.

Started work.
am still fine and happy with my job.
still able to cope coz the person i'm takin over
is still here...
and tat marks her official last day today.
20/10/2006.

Good thing i manage to pick up some stuff from her
and that my collegues are nice ppl.
The person i'm taking over is DORIS.
She's really a v lovable woman.
she dun really look her age (younger)
and she's really fun to be with!
her constant laughing and silly jokes
together with her animation acts jus make her
such a great collegue.
I actually felt lost today
coz i know from monday onwards,
life w/o her is gonna be hellish for me.
coz i'm taking over ALL of her work.

anyway, tat's about it.
BIG THANKS once again to DORIS.
Well wishes to you.
Oh, i do enjoy today's dinner with both you and susan.
and Thanks to Jessie for taking me to lunch at swensens.
really nice collegues i've got.
i hope my 1 yr with SGH recruitment office
would be a wonderful one...

p/s: my new tagboard is up. Guess tag-board.com is gone... =(

starting work next week.
kinda nervous.
have to undergo medical check up first.

x( coz of tat
i have to go through serveral blood test
from a normal one to a more detailed one
coz i have low haemoglobin counts.
anaemic? maybe.
bad experience with the polyclinic.

almost fainted this morning
coz they can't located my vein
and the doc kept pushin' the needle ard.
it hurts and the loss of blood jus make me giddy.

brrr.......

Updates!

life is pretty much the same.

work, fluffy, him and home.
more working days now
coz of the shortage of manpower
someone's down wif chixpox.
and someone's goin for a tour yet AGAIN
sighz.
5/6 days work for me every wk.
shiok huh.

btw, i went for another job interview today.
and it's a success.
and i'll be joining SGH in less than a mnths time.
it's like 2 wks from now.
everyone's thinkin of NURSE when i mention SGH
pls la... SGH also got HR department rite.

Ha-ha-ha.
wish me luck
coz they kept emphasizing on the level of stress there...
i better keep my fingers cross...

No idea what is wrong wif my internet/blogger.
been quite laggy...
anyways, i'm in to show u the
botak fluffy!

remember fluffy?



now, she's fluffy no more!!!



and i seriously think she looks like a soft toy at times....



well... that's all.
wun be bloggin much this week
coz i'm workin 6 days! damn tiring.
arghz...

A week or so since i last posted.
i know i'm getting lazier
towards blogging but hey,
my life's getting hectic!

here's how my daily routine goes:

Wakes up at 1030
Takes Fluffy for a walk at 1050
Return home by 1130
Wash Fluffy's feet, prepare food, clear papers by 1145
Wakes monster up at 1145
Prepare to go to work by 1215
Set of for work at 1215
Have brunch at 1250
WORK
WORK
WORK
knock off at 2200
if doin cleaning than 2245
Have dinner at 2315
Reach home, take Fluffy out for a walk till 2340
Feed Fluffy again, Dig Fluffy's ears, clear papers
which last up to 0030
BATHE time for US.
0100...
rest, sayang Fluffy. Internet, TV
up to 0300/0400
before sleeping
TIRING... or not huh...

quarrels been hiding ard the corner for the past 2 days.
sighz. when i'm already so tired.
why does his bike have to cock up again
jus like the owner huh.

i hope i can still on wif our plan in november.
and spend more time with Fluffy whenever possible.
oh yeah, Fluffy's BOTAK now.
hahaha. she's groomed till BOTAK!
WAHAHAHAHAHA

okay, as promised.

a photo of fluffy!



another one is at the left 'X' eye of the cyborg.
i only took 3 pic.

in case u are wondering, or concern,
i'm still ok. but the damn scratch wound does hurt...

din blog again.
was busy...

working tru-out over the wkend.

and apart from that,
i got a dog.
ok, i din buy it.
it was straying ard
when yee called.

anyway, i'm gonna post her pic soon
and her name's fluffy.
we got her a chinese name too...
xiao mao qiu... literally small fur ball.
LOL.

and today, i got attacked by a DAMN FREAKING STRAY CAT
jus bcoz i was tryin to protect fluffy.
FUCK THE STUPID CAT.
i had already pulled fluffy away.
and it came charging at fluffy.

today's my mummy's bday.
but a bloody day for me.
coz of that cat.
and i hurt myself while doin laundry
coz my wound hurt.
FUCK.

watched ghost game yesterday.
dun quite catch the ending properly.
lots of qns...
anyway, it's quite scary.
ooo.. i missed the cheesy hotdog they sell at GV.
mmmmmmmm... yummy...

went for the selection test today.
the place is kinda ULU.
and the test lasted for 4 hours.
not easy. REALLY.
i duno if there's any chance...
there's like 20 other delegates.

and after the test, i was drenched...
thanks to the rain.
even though i waited till it subsided...
it din really help
coz MFA's really located in a secluded area.
esp via the public entrance
it was raining cats and dogs.
and damn cold... BRrrrrr...

hope i dun fall sick

Been receiving missed calls for the past few days.
and all from PRIVATE NO.
so irritated with it.

first was on sunday evening
then monday evening there was 2.
then when i complained,
it stop for two days.
and today, at 9.15 or so
i got 2 missed calls again.
once again,
PRIVATE NO!
ARGHHHHH who on earth is that?!
it's v irritating u know.

and another irritating incident
i dun understand why singaporeans
when given free air at 90% of the coffeeshop space
still wana fight with the 10% of polluted area of smokers!
it's not as if there's no place for them to sit
there are a few more seats!
and this aunty in green
a blk 401 hougang ave 10
24 hours coffeeshop, SAT AT THE SMOKING AREA
at around 1040 pm on 24-08-2006
when SHE IS NOT SMOKING. NEITHER HER PARTNER WAS.
this is so inconsiderate!
still complaining about smokers?
think again. damn these no brainers.
act high class only.

received a call this morning
asking me if i'm interested in a job
which i agreed to in the slpy mode.

after thinkin when i woke up...
i realised i regret.
LOL
i hope they dun call me again.

and i'm going for an assessment test
next week at Ministry of Foreign Affairs
for a position i applied for ytd.

we'll see how it goes than.
i better not say too much
or expect anything yet.

i wonder is it tat nobody tagged
or izzit that my tagboard can't be found...
ha-ha

maybe i should clarify...
the navigations are on the 'X' on the cyborg
tat is, the boy/man.
and the tagboard can be found
by click on the 'X' on the pants of the cyborg
which is also coincidentally
located at it's private area.
savvy?!

anyway, been having my bro ard the house for a few days.
he's back. wif us.
in the past, dinner was him, her and me.
nowadays, or rather, these 2 days,
dinner was him, monster and me.
and i do think my bro is a PIG
we had BRUNCH together in the noon time
and after tat while monster and i was watching a dvd
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS (thanks to my bro huh.)
my bro went to slp.
he woke up at 6 plus
where monster and i were watchin tv and net surfing.
and asked: "Shall we go for dinner?"
i'm like...
WE JUS HAD A DAMN FILLING LUNCH!!!
and u slpt rite after that and wake up looking for dinner!!!
omg... he's a PIG.

yeah, the wake up, eat, slp, eat kinda routine.
anyway, we did went out for dinner.
my stomach's gonna burst...
and then he went out again...
my bro's a funny man still.
it's fun having him ard.

got to work tml. no news from the other jobs applied for yet.
and i did another application today.
still trying out...
wish me luck.

Tiring day today.
No idea why so.

Went for the interview.
i duno.
they sound more interested than I do.
LOL.
serious. but i'm still keepin my options open
for the other four i applied for.

We'll see how it goes...
gonna bathe now...
feelin sticky all over.
Eeewwww...

new blog skin DONE!
i think it looks great...
Comments are welcome!

interview at 2 tml...
Thanks xp for helping me print my resume!

Time for a new post!
and a new skin! (When i'm really bored)

this week was not as busy as usual...
but i had a lot to do as usual... = (

still it's his bike.
so many probs.
Big fight wif him tat nite.
2 nites.
but it's over.

i'm busying myself wif more job applications.
5 jobs applied on thurs.
and one got back ytd.
and interview on monday.

that's pretty much of life.
nothing else.

sighz.
i din make it.
well...
time for another one.

so frustrated wif myself.
not being able to think straight.
and only manage to sort out wat i should say
when i was on my way back.
wat am i doing.
stupid brain.

nothing to be glad about.
and i spent so much buying stuff
preparing myself
and bothering ppl ard me.
well...
i guess to cheer myself up
is to think of the lovely bag
and shoes i bought
and the way my monster looked at me
when i was ready to go for the interview...
and Na* dearie was in town today~~!!~
yippie! i love seeing her.
coz i really miss her.
mama, dun get jealous...
i miss u too. ok.

oooo... i got the interview tml.
i'm so stressed.
in fact, it's today.
like many hrs away...

and for tat,
i went shopping.
and i bought...
a pair of pants,
a pair of shoes...

and a new bag!

i love the shoes and the bag
the look kinda matching...
don't they?
hehehe...

and that reminds me
that i can't spend money anymore.
coz monster's bike is in the workshop (AGAIN)
piston jammed.
alot of money is v much needed.
sighz.

omg.
i'm so nervous
tensed up
scared.
stressed!
about tml's interview...

yawns...
tired. kinda long day today.
woke up and went for brunch.
then to tamp. to fixed up the headlights
of the bike. (troublesome)

then went to catch the movie...
stupid english name: dragon tiger gate.
it's long hu men
not much of comments
my monster said the storyline sucks.
i tot it was kinda PREDICTABLE.
i kinda forgot that i actually
watched the movie like 2 hrs later.
ha-ha-ha.

went walking ard marina sq
and suntec after that
before heading for dinner
and then home to do laundry.
and bike washing.
so tiring.

oh ya, bernie's bestie 'small girl'
called me today.
it was regarding the job that i'd applied for.
i got to go for the interview on friday.
and now i'm kinda stressed.
coz i'm thinkin of all the qns and
most imptantly,
my image. as they always say:
First Impression Counts
getting worried.
gonnna get some tips from Bernie
(u there?) ha-ha-ha.

i wanted to blog last nite
but i was too tired to.

anyway, went meeting up
wif my dear poly mates...
they are:

da jie: Jiewen
er jie: Jean
No. 3 : myself
si mei: Weishan
No. 5 : my MAMA
xiao mei : Adeline.

was fun seeing then again.
miss those school days.
and was quite demoralized
when they are all doin so well
as in schlin, working.
not like me.
arghz. no news from the job.
i duno wat to do.
life is getting aimless
i'm feelin so lousy.
sighz.
but i still love them all.

and it was Na's dearie birthday ytd!
i hope she got my sms.
anyway, happy belated my dear.
hope u have had a great time.

oh yeah, we caught the fireworks ytd.
i remember before that,
we were pretty reluctant to watch.
but then after seeing a little,
it's jus too prrreeettty to walk away.
ha-ha.
and the crowd was... mountain ppl mountain sea.
i think u get wat i mean.

i'm feelin so lazy now.
i see a pile of clothes lyin next to me.
i dun feel like foldin 'em up and keepn' 'em.
but i have to.
lazy. real lazy.

i should be stoppin. otherwise
i won't be slpin anytime soon...
with the cloths still sitting quietly next to me.

I back in like less than 5 hours!
to blog about some freaking incidents
that has been occuring lately
around bugis (at least it's where i witness)

i'm so irritated with these china-men
with their doings. i think i should blog it out
LOUD. hopefully. enough to warn those
who are doin cashiering.

ok look. it goes like this:

there's been 3 personal cases (HAPPENED TO ME!)
where 3 different china men
at 3 different occasion (but all of recent cases)
2 on one same day and 1 jus happened today
came to buy tako ball from me.

firstly, he hands me a 50 dollar note.
to make things simple, as usual,
i asked for a 20 cent. coz takopachi is $2.20
NOT $2. PLEASE READ. dun act blind when u are not.
next, the man will dig out some coins
and ask u to damn give him $48 dollars change
while he digs for his 20 cents.
it sounds perfectly fine rite?
NO IT'S NOT!
when u try to take the 50 dollar note from him
(to be safe) and give him the 48 bucks change,
he DOESN'T let go of the 50 dollar note.
he holds it damn tightly and yells at u.
asking u to give him 48 dollars change.
and if u do turn back and get him the change
(personal encounter wif one of them)
he keeps his 50 dollar note BACK into his bag
and when u return wif 48 dollars
he'll pretend searching for that damn 50 dollar note.
trying to trick u into believing
that u took it.

why?
so that he can bloody hell have a box of takopachi
for 20 fucking cents! and earn 48 bucks from it!
3 cases. in less than a week.
i'm alert enough together wif the aunties and fellow collegues
to keep watch on such faggots.
2 on sunday. one today. bloody hell tues.
and if u are wondering am i making this up
or being over sensative
sorry. NO.
it does not happen to me alone.
for today's case, the aunty at corochan came to me after she saw him
at my stall. and told me to beware
coz he was fucking doing the same thing jus now.
at corochan. confusing ppl wif his dollars and cents.
and i heard some of the neighbouring stalls
got tricked and had to fork up 80 over dollars.
for compensation sake.

fuck these china men.
fancy you coming to SG to cheat.
go back! to ur china.
i'm gonna see wat i can do to raise an alert for this.
this is really BAD.

i so wana take time to blog.
coz i'm so disturb by this person.
and this person proves to me that photos
CAN BE DECEIVING.

it's not our nation's well known blogger.
she's proud to tell u
that she uses photoshop
and i really admire her photoshop skills.
at least she admits.
but this person i saw ytd
was totally a huge turn off in person.

i came across her picture on the net
quite sometime back.
i tot she look above average.
until yesterday...
i COULD NOT recognise her.
it's really far from average.
and wat's worse...
i dun even know her in person
and it's like she's had a huge prob wif me.
attitude. that's the only word i can use.
i guess.
being the sensative and on-guard me.
i know she takes a disliking towards me.
i din mention a single word
for my monster's sake.
and i know for freaking obvious sake
she was gossiping abt me.
i ain't stupid.

but i decided to ignore it.
i remember this:
never bother about what ppl say.
coz u're living for urself. NOT THEM.

cool.

It's off day for me today again!
but i'm working tml when he's not.
Hmmm... not fair.
haz... anyway, haven been feeling really well.

my cough have yet gone completely
and i'm plague wif a new prob.
havin runs... to and fro the toilet
throwing up was minor.
my stomach isn't really itself lately.
i've no idea wat is wrong
and obviously i do not like the idea
of visiting the doctor.
it's of minimum pain
but maximum gross after every run.

life's pretty aimless nowadays.
i gave up pursuing my dream of buyin a car
by the age of 21 when i decided to commit.
i stop thinkin for myself for the future
and let life live me for the past many months.
i can't say few. it's been quite long.
it has always been work. home. him.
nothing else.
Bernie recommmeded me a job and i applied for it.
(Thanks a lot girl.)
and even before i get shortlisted for interview
i'm starting to think about many possible stupid stuff
like there's gonna be no chances of going out together
if i start working there.
Urrrrrghz. i hate this feeling.
when will i ever stop thinking of such stuff???
Sighz.

suddenly i feel so slpy.
no idea why.

it's off day today!
am i suppose to go jogging?
my cough and flu subsided but it's still there.
i duno if the body can take it.
i dun wana create a scene (imagine myself fainting)
this is ridiculously STUPID.

nothing much nowadays.
it's always work.
not that busy. i mean how busy can i get
with a part time job?
been thinking lately.
what do i really want?
really i dun have a clue.
i need to settle down to think.
not 'float' ard like this.

my monster finally knows how to think.
he wans to start a joint savings account next mnth.
hopefully 5 yrs down the road
there's better news to come.
but i'm unsure myself.
it's the old lousy line.
"It's not you. But Me."
i duno. i jus feel uncertain nowadays.
i think i got to plan perhaps.
i think i'm resistant to change.
jus like wat i learnt in HR.
sighz.

another week of m.i.a
busy with work.
and some other stuff.
haven been getting enugh slp
and am really sick.

my monster finally got his license!
yAy! and the photocard license jus arrived an hour back.
no more worries.
my day at taka really sux.
complaints from myself are more than anything else
i can spent the whole day complaining non stop.
INCREDIBLY SLOW BUNCH OF PEOPLE.
kill me or watsoever.
i will never go there to work.

i'm goin joggin later
wif my running nose and cough
i duno if it's alrite for the body.
geeez.....

bad day today.
i kept asking myself
wat's wrong wif me.
i'm so afraid. i'm having doubts.
more doubts each day
towards my r/s.
xp calls him the monster.
i think it's a nice name for him.

i received a call today.
and was asked if i could work on sat.
but at... TAKASHIMAYA.
ehz... i accepted the offer.
but i'm really kinda scared.
coz i'm afraid of the crowd.
it's diff from bugis.
and i'm unfamiliar wif everyone there.
i hope i dun get into any trouble.
i hope.

initially, i planned to go jogging on sat.
but then... i got to work.
i think i need to start planning a exercise regime
for myself. anyone interested???
(Bernie??)
most probably jogging in the evenings.
on my off days. i mean off-days
when i'm alone.
but this week i think it's gone.

he's having his tp on thurs early morning
and i'm goin down wif him
and sat i'm working at the dreaded taka.
so no off days left this week.
should start next week if everything goes well.
i better start it asap.
before the fats weigh heavier each day.
to hell with the fats!!!!!!!

July already.
my last post was June.
about my hair colour.

nothing much goes on nowadays
i'm still holdin on to one job.
yeah.
at bugis. and tat reminds me...
of my promised list of facts.
not quite done yet still.
LAZY ok. i admit.

went to devil's bar the first time on 28/6
to celebrate ma fren'z bday.
nothing else interesting.
nice to see my frens. close pals.
esp xp.
and something joseph said made me think about
my bf. hmmmmm...
let's not go into tat.

i've finished reading the two books i bought.
got to get some more i guess. maybe 2 books for a mnth
how's that... cool.
anyway. i'm gettin real bored.
and getting real FAT nowadays.
i dun jus say FAT for nothing
i am really growing FAT
coz i see the change REALLY.
it's jus saddening.
urghz.

I tot i'll come and update.
coz i did something to myself today.

a change
in my
HAIR COLOR!!!

and it costs me a bomb indeed.
not a v recommendable place.
but i still love it in the end.
so it's not tat bad either.
supposedly a haircut.
but the hairdresser coax me into this.

'nugh said.
let the pics do the talkin for u...




and for the next pic, i was only tryin to act cute.
i swear i din put any blusher.
i duno y i look pink.
REALLY




and i tot i'll end it with a classic pic!

been really long since i last posted.

the previous post did rake up a bit of prob
causing me to lose my job.
but wat can i say.
it's how i feel.
it's my blog. and it was injust done to me.
and it's the truth. you dun like wat u saw.
and did wat u wanted to already.
so let it be. jus like wat i've said.
i'm fine. i wun starve to death not working in the morning.
and one impt thing. u dun ever mention abt him and my work.
his behaviour has got nothing to do with my work.
u are way too much to say tat.
and ur outburst had really set me thinking.
i shan't elaborate further. coz it's jus makin me boil.

it's been almost a wk since i stopped workin there.
i'm livin a v much relaxed lifestyle now.
and i actually stepped into kino and bought books
for self entertainment purpose. tat's so nooot me.
for a long long time.

i'm giving myself a break in the meantime.
jus workin at tako.
and tat reminds me that i've got a
"Facts abt Tako" to blog about.
let me sort out the list rite first.
coz i've been getting real irritated by those customers
nowadays.
no more 3 jobs. back to square one. 1 job. + cleaner
i'm satisfied at the moment.
gimme a break from those silent pressure
from the 3 jobs. where nobody knows.
and i've made it clear to him
tat he in any case do not interfere wif my choice of jobs.
i hope so.

this post is going to be about work.

i hate to post this. but i'm really upset
wif how things are running.

I was given a choice who i should report to ytd.
I have not made any yet.
and it was being made without me knowing.
What's the point of giving me the choice in the first place?
Can i treat all those that i was told about ytd
as bullshit?
no i can't. but then you made the decision and said
i report to him. what's the choice for then?

I was told to keep my pc password protected.
cos i handle company finance in some way.
those files shall be kept private.
and i keep gettin ppl askin for my password.
i gave so many times. y can't u ppl jus write it down
and keep somewhere?
and someone has been using my desktop.
and had mess up my in-tray.
you ppl are the one who tell me to keep my documents protected.
and yet allow others to use my desktop by givin them access
by asking for my password again and again.
wat's the point of setting it up once again?
it's freaking rude to access a password protected pc
without askin for permission.
it's company information i'm talking about.
wat if some details got leak out.
who's gonna be responsible? me? NO WAY.
i set up a password. it's YOU PEOPLE who gave it out.
and then blame me? dream on.

I was told that i've been makin mistakes at work.
how can one not make mistakes
when somebody keeps making changes in ur completed work
and MESSES up everything?
i stayed on because you asked me to.
i see u as a friend. and i dun ask for too much.
that's y i stayed on to help.
despite much objections.
and now you ppl are making me think twice.
or triple times. perhaps more.

i feel stupid.

first person to say i'm stupid
for being wif him is HIS DAD.

then my mom says so
when we had a big fight long ago.

then now my boss says so too.

i am stupid.
i am really stupid.
i dun deserve to be around.
stupid people are jus a hindrance
to the society.
i mean nothing.
nothing to anyone.
i withdrew myself from my frens.
i'm scared
that my frens will say tat i'm stupid.

i dun wan my frens to know i'm so stupid.
i scared i'll lose them all.
but i'm stupid.
stupid enough to lose everything
jus bcoz of him.

one stupid girl crying to herself.
one stupid girl talking to herself
in the bathroom.
stupid girl tries to comfort herself.
stupid girl only wans jus 1.
1 person who loves her more than anything.
1 person who cares for her.
1 person who will be there when she cries.
and not make her cry.
1 person who can give her a hug when she needs one.
1 person who will lend her a shoulder
to lean on when she's tired.
1 person to be with her
throughout thick and thin.
stupid girl jus wans 1. 1 person.
nothing else.
stupid girl lost hope.
stupid girl lost her dreams.
stupid girl lost her life.
stupid girl lost everything.

i am the world's stupidest girl.

i'm back to blog.
i really can't bear to blog.
the previous post
personally i think i quite love it
with many many pics.

actually i dun have anything to blog
jus tat
i've been having this sushi craving for
almost 2 weeks.
and i jus started to have this
craving for ba zhang.
urghz.

things are work are getting complicated.
can i say it's politics?
between the directors.

oohh.. i caught the da vinci code the other day.
i haven read the book.
and know nothing except that
it's suppose to talk about some paintings
and the sangreal.
din know it was such loooong movie.

and i saw the poster.
i know.
i want to watch Pirates of the Carribean!
Dead's man Chest? issit?
can't remember.
jus call it part 2.
must watch...

and still at the back of my brain
i'm asking myself.
when is my sushi coming...
when can i have ba zhang...

and... i think i might be goin to genting
and kl in july again.
not so sure.
but he wans to go.
we'll see about that then.
i need more $$$

i'm back!
CAUTION: long post wif Pics!
in case u are wondering,
i'm back from malaysia.
the genting - kl - jb trip.
din get a chance to blog before i leave.
wanted to.
but he was hogging on to my lappy (lap top).

we set off for the trip early sat morning.
the bus left left golden mile @ 7am.
had problem slpin in the bus.
even though it was comfy (grassland)
the movie tape played was too distracting!
the show was a gross one.
with many screamings.
how do i get to sleep?! when all i hear
is screaming from the TV.
the second show was Fearless
can't slp. cos i was watching the show.
oh well.
only managed to slp when we reached KL.
which is about only an hour to our destination.

HOTEL FIRST WORLD. Aye. wat's so great about tat...
budget hotel.




oh we reached in the noon. but i took this pic at nite.

and wat happens the minute we checked in?




time is precious! only one day.
so we went around and this is the freaky place
in first world plaza...

check this guy out.





scary. we went outside.
it was cold and super hazy...







and before we go back to rest...




and i really like this pic alot.

down to KL the next day.

a pic which i tot it was a MUST take if u go KL...




we checked into federal hotel.

way better than first world.

bigger spacious room, wif bathtub for jus $8 more.
complimentry breakfast too!







and the nice lift lobby. unlike first world
which has only lifts.




from the view of my room, i see...
PLAZA LOW YAT! KL's 'funan'/'sim lim sq'




and down the streets... yummy food!
i forgot to take pics of the food we ate.
this hongkong restuarant serves great food.
and the outside of it... street hawkers...




and lastly, on our way back to jb in the bus...
we were really bored.

there's him acting cute...




and me acting fierce...




and us together...




tat's all~~~

yawnz.. i'm tired.
and time for ZAP ZAP.

down with flu.
and slightly feverish.
two damn days jus before my trip
less than 2 in fact.
it would be a miracle
if i recover by tml...

no meeting wif dearies for this wk.
why so, mama's busy.
and i was told ytd
i have to work today.
Awww.

Spent and will be spending quite a lot of $$
for this month.
i'm now very broke.
i have yet to pay my bills.
damn. should have stopped him.

we've book tix.
and i'm off to genting, kl and jb for this wkend.
we actually made a decision jus to go jb for one day.
but i have no idea.
how we both as though was being hypnotised,
could jolly well went to golden mile
and booked the damn tickets to genting and kl.
I TOT WE SAID NO GENTING till my Bday jus before over lunch???!!??
i have no idea why we go jus go straight into the agency
and talked... and pay up.
and then realised.
i tot we are jus goin jb and by ourselves???
he din notice too. till i asked him.
we were both in a dazed.
anyway...

as the previous paragraphs mentioned,
i'm goin genting on sat.
setting off on early sat morning.
then down to kl on sun noon.
and back to jb on mon morning.
then back to sg.
sounds like a busy trip.
and it costs me 300 over bucks.
minus the expenses of 150 bucks.
it's on dutch.

oh. i got a UZAP ytd.
he bought it for me.
well... i'll try to ZAP myself everyday
cept for those where i'm out of town.
and i heard my bro's movin back this sun.
no idea is it true or not.
he's always saying.
kor, action speaks louder than words.
dun disturb my peace can already.

and rite now,
i'm sitting in my office.
FREEZING away.
while chui yee, who's usually the one
freezing away... today it's me.
and wat's worse.
she's jus wearing a racer back.
and my nose fallin off from the sniffs.
and the usual. throat inflamation
due to too much heaty food.
diagnosed by ur's truely.
DUN TELL ME I'M SICK.
i still wana go genting.
i dun wan to feel so sick there.
and i have to take care of someone who
has greatly high potential of long distance
CAR-SICK.
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

nothing to blog about yet.

This post is specially for my dearies.
as promised.

I WILL BE FREE ON TUES EVENING!!!!!!

that's all folks.

I AM NOT HAPPY
i saw the kitten died b4 me.
I AM NOT HAPPY.

i saw the dead fist in the sea.
I AM NOT HAPPY.

WE HAD A BIG FIGHT YTD.
I AM NOT HAPPY.

i think about giving up all the time.
I AM NOT HAPPY.

i think of how much i've given
i think of how much i love you
i think of how you treated me.

I AM FUCKING NOT HAPPY.

I could jus die.

i duno how should i start.
i always start wif
tired
sleepy
indeed. i am feeling tired
and sleepy everytime.
coz i'm really v tired.
even the cashier at the petrol pump kiosk
could see.
i was quite touched
by the way that she took note of her customers
jus a few gestures,
she could tell him straight.
i'm in a bad mood.
and i look damn tired.
i feel cared for at that point of time.
i actually smiled back.
although i was havin my full-face on.

started helpin at eelingo ytd.
was quite worried that i could'nt catch up
yes. still quite a bit
due to the many small buttons on the cashier
and i'm too quiet.
i still dun quite like to talk to ppl tat much.
i mean the customers.
hope tml will be better.
He doesn't know that i'm helpin at eelingo

was feelin sad the past 2 days
am still feelin sad today.
the no-end fights we had.
really tire me out.
i'm startin to lose hope.
startin to give up
with his nonchalent attitude.
i'm not sure wat will happen to me.
i realised
i'm changing.
i'm starting to talk less
i dun wan to talk anymore.
i'm afraid i will be Zi Bi one day.
everyday,
i wake up not happy
go to slp
in tears
nobody knows.
and as for his fren.
i really hate him
wat kind of fren is tat of his.
he still consider him as his best fren...
i'm too disappointed.
i hate him.

sure a tiring wkend for me
i was workin since fri
and the crowd at bugis was
WOW!!
been a long time since we see such crowd
esp at tako.

really tired from all the working
next wk is gona be more tiring.
stress is piling coz of my admin work.
i need to do the report.
but i'm not given the info to do.
and i HAVE no EXACT idea
wat i have to do for the report.
really wan to scream help.
or feel so pek cek
tat i wan to throw back the work.
but my boss will kill me.
i dun think he understand la.
when u wan to complete a job.
and u dun hav the resources and info.
and u see the deadline pressin near.
u feel like dying~

anyway, thanks to effendi.
i love u la bro.
for orderin mcdonalds delivery
as a surprise lunch for me.
really. i was v touch.
thanks.

next wk, i'm v busy.
i'm workin at tako on
mon, wed, thur, fri and sun.
and total of 5 days.
and as for i found this (Wat my boss calls his co.)
tues to fri.
arghz........

Was in extreme disappointment
for the past 2 days.
ytd, was 27h April.
It marks the date that
we've been together for 1 yr
actually more than tat.
minus the first 2 breakups.

yet, the eve itself was already
an unhappy nite.
a fun day, but at nite,
he was back at his mad man mode.
multiple mentions of breakups.
all tat jus make me dishearten.
nothing else.
i've really tried so hard.
but yet he continues.

i dun understand
why is it that i always remember
our promises even at times of quarrel
but he doesn't give a damn?

On the 27th itself.
first thing in the morning he did
was play game.
can u imagine tat?
i feel so sick of the sight of him
playing the game EVERYDAY.
he did ridiculous stuff and
again mention upteen times of breakup
i almost... really almost let go.
thanks to effendi for his companion over the phone.
sorry to my boss anderson for disturbing u.
sorry to j.k for callin you.
i thought better of u.
but u really disappoint me as a fren of his.
thanks chui yee for encouragement.

i duno.
i was really sad for the whole day
i dun feel like talkin.
even though we sort of made up.
i wasn't happy.
even right now, i feel the pain.
it's no longer that painful
either it's numb.
or i'm already letting go slowly.
i duno.
i know he tried to cheer me up
but once again.
by buying the LOTR map
doesn't help.
i dun need those gifts.
i only wan him to consider
and think through hard.
wat he'd done.
i'm not saying it's totally his fault.
but things could be better
if he stop blabbering those breakups.
really.

i really feel sick and tired.

Gosh.
i'm extremely tired.
slpt late last nite.
can't help feeling extremely slpy.

i've got a task on hand.
irritating.
i squeezed dry my brain juice
last month and thought it's over.
then he comes back and tell me.
i wan a new format.
Urghz.
and still specifications unclear.
sometimes i wish he would do up
past mnths information
coz when he wans a new format,
and i have to refer, i know nuts
about what went on before i joined.

i have 3 incidents which are of 3 different moods
to blog about.
Amusing, Gross and Anger.

all three are true-life account incidents
experinced by myself.

Lets start wif the GROSS one.

I was at bugis junction last fri. evening.
and this lady, tapped on my shoulder
and pointed onto the road.
i looked over, and i saw a round shaped thingy.
i have no idea wat was that.
the first tot was.
"oooh.. some rubber from bypassin car..."
WAIT. WHAT'S SO INTERESTING THEN?
i looked again...
it's actually, a baby crow.
small little furry ball look-a-like
guess it must have fallen onto the road
while learning how to fly.
i looked up the nearest tree.
and i saw 2 adult crows 'crowing' away.
as if they're askin the baby to get up
and GET OUT OF THE WAY.
the traffic was on hold then.
Due to the traffic light. but it din last long
the Green light lits up.
and "Vroom" the first car went by.
close shave.
but the baby was still there.
unable to move.
then the second car went by.
"Piak". It went over the baby.
wat i saw was red substance squirting out.
quite alot.
GROSS.
and the two adult crows 'crowed' continued to 'crow'
jus tat it's louder.
and sounds desperate.
As though they are crying.

Tat's the first incident. Simply GROSS

second incident... perhaps the Anguish one.

I was working yesterday.
at tako. (As usual)
there's wasn't much left on the table for sale.
with one prawn and two bacon n cheese.
I was serving Customer A.
Then i heard customer C shouted out.
REAL LOUD. "Prawn one. I wan prawn one."
he was a big man. a father in fact.
and customer B was hiding behind customer A.
for wat i duno.
so i din see customer B and i nodded at customer C.
when i turn back to keep the cash from customer A,
i tot i saw a boy standing in front of me.
TAT is CUSTOMER B!
any fella wif a brain would say serve customer B first.
so i asked customer B.
he said he wanted the prawn.
1 prawn left. of coz i sell it to customer B.
sounds logical.
anyway, i haven collected any cash from customer C.
all i did was jus smiled and nodded.
then customer B bought the prawn and bye bye.
Customer C: "Prawn One. Prawn One."
so as usual i said: "Sorry sir, the prawn one u've got to wait for 5 mins."
guess wat this customer C says?
"AIYA. I ORDERED FROM YOU ALREADY WAT JUS NOW."
"THEN NOW STILL GOT TO WAIT."
"what u left?" "bacon? DUN WAN. I WAN THE PRAWN ONE."
"WAT 5 MINS? ARGH. FASTER LA."
i define this as a rude and no-brainer speech
especially wif his stuck up face.
i jus felt like shoving the picks for cooking
straight rite up into his ass.
you're a BIG MAN. ADULT. FATHER.
and u tried to jump Q.
FUCK LA. u know wat's a Q stand for?
Customer B is jus a BOY.
dun think u got a bigger and louder voice and body,
u can win.
and i should serve u first.
FUCK OFF. DUN FUCKIN COME AND THROW MONEY.
if you duno how to Q.
please go back to nursery or maybe ask ur daughter
to teach you.
and please learn some manners. i do not owe you anything
you are definitely RUDE.
i wonder how are you goin to teach your daughter.
another of such FAGGOTS?
GET LOST.

finally the amusing one... I find it amusing
but in any case, if you are one such victim
i'm sorry to hear that. but i guess you've learnt a lesson.
look out before u cross...

it was friday evening. same place. Bugis Junction.
for those who frequent there would know that
there's 2 pedestrian crossing from Bugis Village to Bugis Junction.
The one nearer to village has a wider road.
while the other nearer to parco has a damn small road.
and many times, we see ppl jay walking across the small one.
and we witness that many taxis/cars/motorists have to give way
to these Fucked up pedestrains even when
the taxis are having their right of way.
and there are those who are even more fucked up.
i really think that they are retarded ass-holes.
those whom when the cars horn at them,
they still take their own sweet time
and cross the road and even worse...
STARE AT THE DRIVER!
FUCKTARDS. really.
so on tat day, wat happened was,
i saw 2 traffic police.
standing in the middle pavement
in between the 2 pedestrain crossing (Btwn village and Parco)
and for every single one who jaywalked across towards village
THEY ARE BOOKED! WAHAHAHA
i find this damn amusing.
coz every single min. there's one fella who will jus cross
without looking.
some were really rushing for time
well too bad.
while there's others who tot they are so suave
to cross the road. and TA-DA!
stopped right there by the traffic police.
caught RED-HANDED.
and there u go. IC please.
WAHAHAHAHA.
SERVES THEM RIGHT.
so next time if u are thinking of jay walking.
STOP to look out for TP (Traffic Police) FIRST.
before u even look out for cars.
WAHAHAHAHA

i gotta change the first pic in my blog
real soon.

He lost the ring.
Wat can i say.

i'm keeping mine at home.
no idea will he be getting a new one.
if not.
i'm fine with.
starting to become more 'bo-chap'
coz too tired.

6 more days.
before its 27th April.

Many questions sets me thinking.
i think i need a long break
to help me sort out my thinking.

I was being offered another part time
helping out at ee ling's coffeestall.
it sounds really interesting.
besides, i have not done anything like that before.
i was given a choice.
but seems like i've no choice.

I knew he wouldn't like the idea.
As expected.
i mentioned to him about this offered.
his face changed.
he got frustrated.
and was even mean to me.
i was jus telling him about this offer.
something that i might wan to try out.
jus that i need some support.
but instead, i got his insanity.

he din quite like me working at ifound. too.
i duno why is tat so.
most prob because of the pay.
i know with my qualifications,
i can get more than wat i'm getting.
but right now,
i jus dun wan to get wholly involved and committed
to any jobs yet.
and i'm satisfied working here.
the pay might be peanuts.
but there's a sense of satisfaction.

i need some support to my decisions.
but he's not giving me any.
he keeps asking me to get my ass out
to work somewhere else.
i gave him some explaination which aren't
truely how i felt.
but somehow logical.
saying that i can gain more experience
and stuff like tat.
he seems to understand.
but i duno how much does he.

i jus felt so unfair.
to be given attitude
when all i did was to tell him the offered job.
he doesn't like it at all.
even though i tot i wanted to.
but i guess i duno how to.
i wish i could talk to my boss.
but he's too busy recently.
helping out at the coffeestall.
for the past few days,
his tantrums had been flying ard
anyhow.
as and when he likes.
i can't find anyone to confide to.
and only bernie knows what i'm talking about.

i'm glad that i have such a boss, a friend.
but then, i feel bad calling him all the time.
esp when he's jus so busy.
i really wish that my boss will talk to him,
wake him up from his child-like temper.
he's already 21.
and yet he behaves like a 12 year old kid.
i'm so tired.
like wat i told bernie.
i'm tired of looking after this kid.
he doesn't grow.
and it gets worse each day.
when i think back of the past.
how simple things were.
all i do is sigh.

Feelin a 'lil giddy.
not too well.
duno y. anyway i'm not bothered.
or rather...
not concern wif it.

went to escape theme park ytd
with him and his guy partners
1 & 2.
had some fun.
wasn't the best kind of fun.
was expecting much more than tat.

feeling kinda hungry right now.
no food for the day yet.
his bike broke down again.
super irritating.
this week
i'm not working tat much at takopachi.
any takers?
anybody wana meet me for dinner at ard evening time
pls let me know.
coz i still got my office job in the morning
and the cleaner at nite.
but i still have the evening to spare!
from 5 pm to 9 pm
it's about 4 hours.
Available days: Wednesday and Friday
tryin to make myself available for my disappointed friends.
i'm so sorry.
but i still cherish all of you.

urghz. i jus mention i dun wan to be bothered
my that sicky feeling.
but can't help.
giddiness + headache.
urghz.
tired.

Feelin exactly the same as my blog skin.
Really wana scream out DUNO LA.

After reading the post i feel damn irritated.
I really wish to find out.
dig out everything.
some facts might be distorted.
but considering the consequences that may happen
i jus feel so tired.

I hate those never ending fights.
most of the facts fall into pieces.
jus the time and date.
which is y i'm feeling so confuse.
jus when i tot i can trust...
i see this.
i really duno.

these few days, i've been feelin quite empty.
wat happened on mon... what made me leave blogged
tat short post
perhaps is the main reason.
buying games which i tot i've always wanted
is not goin to keep me happy and forget
how deep u hurt me.

i really duno.
i jus feel tired everyday.
i dare not hope.
seems like everything's been wrecked.
my life's been turn upside down.
and sometimes,
i jus wonder...
why are u still here...

i really duno. i swear i dun.
take me away from all these confusions.
i want to leave and never come back.
i jus dun have the courage to do so yet.
i duno.
i know... i've really tried.
and am very tired of trying.
i wish i could jus slp.
and never wake up.

He tore her heart up into pieces...
and expect her to smile again...

Very tired sometimes.
Many things
many thoughts racing tru my mind.

in the past, i was more carefree.
on a typical sat like this
most prob i would be singing k-lunch
and out walkin ard...

nowadays, i jus wana spend more time
IN at home.
home alone isn't bad.
every sat... i stay in alone.
tryin to relax.
but there's still work to do.

sighz.
the thought of workin on mon jus makes me sad.
i mean tako.
he's not working. i dun like the idea
then he's got off and i got to work at tako.
coz... i really wish we could jus go out.
after my morning job.
i dun like the idea of the second half of my day spoiled
it's spoiled. coz it's his off day.
and he's got nowhere to go?
i dun like it.

sighz.
i wana slp.
and dun wana wake up.
i've finish partially the laundry.
but the weather's not co-operating.
i have yet to lay the sheets.
the matteress is damn heavy.
i jus dun wan to think.
can i jus not think?
i dun like to have so many 'reminders'
'to-do-lists' in mind.
there's only 1 me.
and u ppl like to giv me things
that are not of my concern to settle for u.
waste money. waste time.
and take away my free time.

i hate this.

a brand new skin which took me 2 days to complete.

phew...

Jus read some accquaintance's blog.
which really makes me wonder.
and in fact fear for such a situtaion.
and this situation is somehow
slowly incurring.
the whole process has been trying to overtake
my mind.
my determination.
that's perhaps why i feel so drained.
so tired.

i was told that
there's no way u can determine the future
so u may not be able to have him wif u
forever, maybe not even tml.
so wat u can do now,
is jus to really treasure every moment u have wif him
this is something very true.
you duno when will he be leavin u
maybe he will. maybe he wun
but u have now.
make the most out of it.
have no regrets.
i understand but what about him?

people can be together for years.
and surprise frens wif a breakup or worse divorce.
wat is goin wrong?
is it really up to such a stage?
or is it purely by social influence?
i always believe in this thing call fate.
out of the hundreds people u bypass or meet a day,
out of the world's population,
u jus get attracted to this one and only one.
there's even better ones out there but u only fall for this.
it's a very miraculous thing to me.
i duno about the rest of u.
but spend some time thinking about this.
this not only applies to bgr. frenship as well!
so many ppl ard u in sch.
and u jus really like this grp u're wif.
i still rem my year 1 sem 1. most memorable out of all.
and the one dearest who is closest to me tru my poly days.
my mama. seems like personal commitments have cause some gaps
here and there. but i still do hope
our frenship still hold as strong as before.
G5 from yr 1... 6 jiemei from yr 2
it all jus form properly. jus like what they always say
Fate brought us together.
I love u all!

since fate has brought a couple together,
we must really learn to cherish everyone ard us.
everyone ard u is here for a reason.
even the one who irritates u.
they could be someone who's fated to irritate u in ur life
for one purpose:
to change and mould u to be a better person.

In a relationship, i think fate is magic.
it jus brings 2 person 2gether.
it's jus so magical.
but when i read the blog,
i felt so sad.
why give up so easily?
maybe i'm an outsider
and may not know. but perserverance
is wat that has kept me till today
where i am.

i admit that there are many times
and many 'chances' where i can jus let go.
but i dun wan to lose someone jus like that.

i still remembered the 'discussion' i had wif dear
the other nite at labardor park.
i hope he understands. and remembers.
if i were to be like him,
break up then fine. ok wif it, be cool jus let go,
we would long ago be apart.
sometimes, it's not jus about taking things easy
letting go.
is it worth? is there such a need?
sometimes, it's due to simple things in life.
and such can be overcomed together.
i really hope that he will hold to what
he had said that nite.
and the song he's been takin a lot of effort into learning
saying it's for me, and hold to the meaning.
relationship is v fragile.
those who are in one. please. treasure it.
although it might be broken before
scratches may be seen,
give urself, ur partner sometime.
things will turn for the better if u believe.
dun let go so easily.
coz it was nv easy getting know each other in the first place.
out of the millions in the whole wide word.
wat's more, coming to such stage.

*tREasUrE y0uR LoVe oNeS*

very slpy.
in office rite now.
boss, dun blame me.
coz there's nothing on hand for me to do.
so if i were to sit there doing nothing
101% i will fall aslp.
so i decided to come here to speak my mind.

am so slpy
coz last nite
went to the cemetery to pay respects
to my late grandma and grandpa.
dear was feelin unwell during the journey.
coz of the bumpy road.
and he ended up car sick. sighz.
left home at 145am or so
and reached home at 5.30am.
SPENT the whole nite at the cemetery.
Goshz. how can i not feel slpy???

and my tasks for today up till now
has been dully completed.
so there's really nothing much on hand for me to do
wanted to generate some new ideas
but the brain is like DEAD.
can't think properly.
jus like a zombie.
sighz.

i know i have things to blog about.
but i jus can't recall.
coz i can't think.

work recently has been v irritating.
i duno wat's wrong with singaporeans.
where's the courtesy lion???

I dun understand why the heck
do we need a Q for when ppl can't wait
while in the Q.
and where have their EYES gone to?
the is one not small. not ugly.
wif an octopus board saying "PLS ENTER HERE"
eh, as if singaporeans can't read english?
It's freakin irritating when they choose to
ANYHOW Q. and misleadin the Q.
and those KAN CHIONG SPIDER.
Hello? it's like u're NEXT in the Q.
and i'm serving the one b4 u.
PLS BE POLITE.
DUN BE RUDE. why do u need to place ur order
while i'm still serving somebody else b4 u?
where's ur manners? HELLO?!
and u still have to wait.
Oh bother.

wat else? those who like to fake it.
stand at one corner.
ask if u got these and that.
and u tell them to Q up
wat do u get?
A F-uped face. and walked away.
i'm workin as a cashier in a stall.
not a restaurant.
I DO NOT CHARGE service charge.
i DO NOT deserve any of ur F-UP attitudes.
so wat if i'm in a service line.
u wana try being treated like this?

and those damn rude china woman and old aunties
old uncles... watch this:
dun think u got more money,
u can freakin throw ur notes and coins like this
I AM NOT A BEGGER.
u're buying i'm sellin
we're in a business transaction.
GET TAT RITE.
freaks.

i'm very slpy.
wana catch some slp soon.

we finally bought the tv.
not plasma. but lcd.
as long as can hang... it's OK.
initially, he wanted to buy hp
and postpone the tv again.
but in the end we bought both
i signed up a new line for him
so people....
please please take note:

91903981 HAS BEEN TERMINATED.

before that, u could still reach me wif tat no.
even i wasn't using coz he was.
but now, no more.
those lookin for me, pls call 97693881.
for him, u can get from me his new no.
he's got n70 too.
3G is quite fun. really.
seeing each other's expression.
doin funny expression cheering each other up.
it's been of great help at times.

his bike has been givin hiccups these few days.
duno wat's goin on.
first the pipe.
then the jam.
now the heat.
and the latest... the brake.
Urghz. irritating.

after washin clothes i'm gona take a nap.
really tired.

okay, it's past 12.
HAPPY BELATED 21ST BIRTHDAY
to my DEAREST.
the day was quite well spent...
i wish that we can be like this
in the future.

on the eve of his bday
i bought a mini small tiny
cake form 4 leaves for him.
it's YUMMYLICIOUS.
and i went to new world order
to buy that polo t which he saw
and quite like the other time.
and at nite
we went to collect his beloved
motorbike.

bday itself...
we were both awaken by his phone calls.
was playin ard a little.
ticklin' each other.
before we went for brunch.
went to tune up his bike first
then we caught THE SHAGGY DOG
at bishan. nice show. really obedient dog.
had a drink at coffeebean
and went to bugis
wanted to buy new shoes
but no stock
and the uncle dun seem keen enough to do business.
instead he bought 3 pair of boxers.
then he wanted get something for me
from goldheart.
so we went bugis.

unfortunately, i only like the wedding band.
so we decided not to buy.
save more $$$
and got a pair of cheap couple ring from
the shop opp. goldheart.
still i'm contented wif it.
but i wun mind the goldheart one. Hehehe
and bernie, this for u.
I saw DAWN... she's in DRESS.
surprise for me. and her hair's longer.
we bought 2 full face helmet too.
and got some freebies.
spent quite alot today.
coz full faced helmets are costly.
he's gotten a haircut.
and i love it v much.

tml, we're goin to spend MORE MONEY.
he's doin up his bike
and we're goin' to buy
the very long awaited for plasma tv.
and we've given up the tot of buyin
the cute schnuazer
coz even though he's gotten the money,
we both feel that it's not wise keepin the dog
when we're both working from morning till nite.
so we'll be savin up a thousand at least.
and i'm gonna make him keep his ATM card at home.
i'm going to limit his spendin to the max
of 3K. the rest are goin to be safe kept.

hope tml will be jus like today.

i'm stressed up somehow.
every minute when i take a breather
and let my mind wander,
the tot of those reports to be done
the work i'm goin to face
and the meeting... is SCARING ME!
Lao Ban...
Wo Pa Wo Zhou De Bu Gou Hao.

This is something for my boss,

Mr. Anderson Lai:

Sagittarius Employee Profile (november 22 - december 21)

The Sagittarian employee is head strong,
cheerful, and willing to help.

They exude self-confidence
and take on tasks like there's no tomorrow.
They are willing to tackle even the toughest of projects
as long as it is challenging
and gets them out of the routine.

Lucky for them,
their shining personalities and honest enthusiasm
seem like a bright spot in the office
otherwise co-workers might begin to build animosity
towards someone so arrogant and extravagant.

Their tendency to exaggerate
and take on more then they can handle usually results in
missed deadlines and dropping the ball
not because they are lazy of procrastinate,
but because their enthusiasm
just gets the better of them sometimes.

Don't let their nonchalance fool yout
they really do care about what they are doing.
They just have an easy-going attitude
that allows them to keep on smiling
even when they just messed up big time.

Just because they are flexible and easy-going
doesn't mean they won't tell you exactly how they feel
what is working for them and what isn't.
And they won't just blindly take orders
they need to understand the method and reason behind the process.

If you are trying to motivate your Sagittarian employee,
be sure to feed them plenty of challenging new projects
and hint that some business trips might be on the horizon
once deadlines are met.

And whatever you do,
try not to question their intentions
it is the quickest way to make them upset.
They aren't capable of deceit.

my working profile.
As for wat is FU LI, i will answer u again
when i get the inspiration.

i can't think straight now.
i'm very confused.
very sad.
there's a heartache in me
which i can't describe.
it's so painful.
that i wana cry. but tears jus wun flow.

like the past few times.
we had the kind of incorrigible fight again.
where he would be yellin' at me.
pushin me away.
giving me cold shoulder.
being sacarstic.
claiming that he's goin to move back
and last but not least, break up.
it all started with the dream i had.

it was a nitemare to me.
imagine ur partner tellin u that it's better to be friends.
someone u gave all out to, saying that to u.
i conclude that this dream came abt
simply bcoz of the insecurity i have.
it is something that he can't provide for.
i dun ask for much.
jus some words of assurance.
and this in turn lead to a huge quarrel.

and now, he's ignoring me.
saying that he's goin to moved back on mon.
claiming that he's called his sis.
which he din.
he says he loves me no more.
and hates the sight of me.
he does this everytime we had big fight.
this is not the first.
cny eve was one of those.
pushin me away.
which gf could tolerate such? i really wonder.
except for myself.

i believe u readers out there might say that i'm stupid.
i must be blind to fall for such a guy.
he by the way, really has nothing.
i mean i dun look down on him.
i jus happen to love him in such a way that
I DUN EVEN KNOW WHY DO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
most of the time, i call myself stupid.
and i do think i am.
so much sacrifices
and yet i'm still hurt.
he jus promised me ytd that he would try his best
NOT TO ANGER ME.
but yet...

i duno. i'm really very confused by myself.
one side of me has really reached the limits.
I REALLY WAN TO GIVE UP.
if he really move back on mon,
i wun stop him.
i'm really tired.
very. very. tired.
yet,
the other side of me...
jus one small part of me shouts out...
no. dun.
i jus need to speak to someone.
i really need to talk to someone.
i duno where to go.
i'm LOST.
i need help for directions.
someone PLS TELL ME WHAT TO DO.
as i've always said...
if i give up this time round,
history will never ever repeat itself anymore.
i will completely forget every bit.
no matter how painful it is.
i will perservere through it
and forget this thoroughly.
i know i can do it
that is why i am hesitant about giving up.
coz i know deep down inside.
no matter how tired i am...
no matter how upset
how disappointed, how angry
how watsoever,
there's one part of my heart that belongs to him.
it has already been given to him
and i still love him
blind and stupid me that is.

too many chances i gave silently
in the past.
which is why i believe,
he has taken for granted.
last yr... 2 wks before cny.
cny eve... the drunk phonecall he made.
how it ended for the second time
all that... were still clear and fresh in my mind.
how he had called me when my grandma passed away.
till the day i decided for a third time.
that is 27th April 2005.
how i kept reminding myself to let loose
till how we got closer.
to how we game every nite together.
the maple story craze. which i will nv forget.
the day where he first came to my hse.
the fishing day.
the day he moved over due to the fight wif his father
bcoz of me.
till the day, he got his bike
the many quarrels we had.
till this very day.
99 out of a 100 words he said to me...
i can still remember.
so much given... and so much pain received.
i'm tired. exhausted. drained.
physically. due to my hectic lifestyle.
mentally. due to all these.
emotionally. u know how this comes about.

i swear i really duno how long more
can i last.

Jus read jojo's blog.
Chinese text. Hmmm...
i tot i could read most of the characters.
but I DUN UNDERSTAND what is she saying.
LOL. it's either her chinese is too gd
or, i've lost chinese.
but news on Jay in the chinese papers
definitely CATCHES my attention. *grinz*

was sick on last fri.
another attack.
he said i turned YELLOW. not pale.
anyway, got well at nite after resting.
though i was working.
collegues were kind enough
to let me take all light chores instead of serving.

anyway, dear's bike is now away at the workshop.
there's some problem.
so wun be riding until his birthday
tat's when he's collecting it back.
and it's jus 8 days away.
i duno if i should get him anything.
coz i did told him his n-gage
was a bday + v day present.
feel like gettin a small gift.
anybody got any idea?

my butt bone is aching whenever force is applied.
i duno what to do wif it.
i dun wana see a doc.
my jaws getting loose.
can't open my mouth wide when i yawn.
scary.

today dear was quite sweet to come down to meet me after work
despite the fact that
he has to take a torturous bus ride.
we went to take brunch together
and walked around the pasar malam.
he bought a new hp housing and pouch for me.
coz i lost my grey pouch
and he din wan me to sratch my phone.

we had a deal of junk food today.
pasar malam food + pizza = junk
still bloated.
getting slpy.
sighz.

jus hope more ppl will log online.
hehehe.
thanks a million again to jojo.
who's been really nice
to accopmany me ALL THE WHILE
the other day.