I seriously duno wat to say.
this is the second time you're asking for a
'patch-back'.
if i were to agree, it will be the third time.

i guess i'm in a dilemma.
i should really ignore u first.
should i?
maybe i should jus let things take its course.
i dun wan to make any of such bgr decisions
at this point in time.

wat can i say now?

all i have in mind is stillmy beloved grandma.

i have had a very long day today.
i slpt at 4 plus near 5 am
and woke up early morning for hssband's syf.

this is the first time after so long,
my heart goes out to the band once again.

My dear band,
i know u guys aim high.
it's good to aim high for a gold.
but then like wat i've said.
it's not wat u get. it's how much effort that you've put in.
and who says maintaining a sliver is easy?
i am really so proud of u guys.
my batch only did a bronze.
this is the first time i see a band who gets a sliver and cried so hard.
everybody cried... it was... indeed a sad moment.
yes, we'll stand firm
you guys din fail. neither did u fall today.
work hard for the next syf... juniors.
GO THE DISTANCE.
gold does not come overnight.
hssband went back to comp only from my batch. 3 syfs.
you guys did ur best. great job.
love u all... it was great to see the band spirit and teamwork once again.
i miss my band days...

oh.. i went to buy 2 books today!
wow. haha.
haven been reading for long time. and that reminds me...
i must go buy 8 days tml.
i bought 'Asking for Trouble' by Jason hahn, a writer for 8 days.
and this very interesting book entitled..
He's Jus Not Into You...

been quite sometime since i last blogged.
kinda abandon my blog.
it's not that i'm lazy to blog.
jus that i dun feel like.
there's nothing much for me to blog either.

my life's pretty much the same.
it's either work or home, slacking, bumming ard
playing sims 2.
oh yeah, it's hell lot of an addiction.

there's nothing much else to do...
actually there is.
pack up my bookshelf, head to the gym, arrange singing sessions...
blah blah...
did i mention b4 that i've found new interest in workin out in the gym?
well not much of working out.
jus sweating it out... make myself more alive?
oh... and i'm still hooked on to singing.
there's more things i can do.
jus that i can't seem to bring myself to do it.. lazy. ya. i know.
i've got nothing on today.
been ask to j0in movie.. but then, movie is not really my thing.
cept for the nachos. =X
i duno if i shld go or not.
or jus bum at home and
control my sims...

dun bother askin me if i'm feelin better...
coz, i will say ya. i am.
whether am i... this i do not know.
so dun bother askin.
now i feel like watching LOTR again... sheesh...

first and foremost,
thanks to everyone who care...
those who came down...

finally, it's over.
i mean, the 5 days long funeral.
back home from CCK cemetery.
the burial ritual.
it's indeed a very sad thing to come to accept the fact that
the one who took care of you,
watched you grew up,
taught you those things you ought to know,
jus left you. without a word.
i really do miss and love my grandma alot.
but things are not really over yet.
the 7th day ritual, 49th day ritual and 100th day ritual.
i'm dead beat.
four hours of slp for 5 days.
jus hope that i can energize myself by tml.
coz i got to work on thurs. and the 7th thingy as well.

jus as soon after i posted my previous post,
the phone rang.
non stop
i felt uncomfortable.
and there it is.
I LOST MY BELOVED GRANDMA.
I was still missing her on my way home.
Now, i LOST HER TOTALLY.
NEVER EVER will i see her again.
NEVER EVER will she hear me call her anymore.

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

Well, true or false, i dun know
jus for fun.
anyway, i think...
i'm goin to set myself free
yes.
be myself once more.
let go... and be free...

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot But you also stretch the truth on occasion You figure a little lie isn't a big deal As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

had one of the worst paper today
was writing rubbish throughout the whole damn paper
let's jus hope that i dun have to go back
to take supp paper.

after tat went to meet chris and her mr L for KBOX
wah... first time i sang Sooooo much.
i mean... really alot!! first time i open my voice in public!
hahaahha
basically got hooked onto singing!!!!!!!!
i wana go singing again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha
anywayz, it did help me forget lots of things already.
so relaxed now.
tired also....
*yawnz*

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

i have a thousand and one things to say today.
i am so moody now.
i received 2 missed calls this morning.
damn.
why do i always never hear my phone ring?
why do i always not feel the vibration?
why? why? why?
i yearn to know who called me.
one of the numbers actually looked so freaking familiar
seems like your home phone to me.
why did i not leave the room to call back before sitting down???
why?
things often goes this way.
i tried callin back after my paper.
no one picked up.
i used to tell myself not to bother about missed calls
yes, often i don't. but this time round, i really can't help.
was out wif mama, ade, shan, wen and jean having lunch.
walked ard. but then the mind jus seems to stray off.
went in to K pool. saw the billard table.
OMG. it happened again. CNY eve is back.
i'm really lost.
right now, i have no mood for anyting.
not even my paper for tml.
i guess, i have to take a long break first. hopefully, make myself study at nite.
and brace the courage to find out who called me.

oh... it's your birthday today.
Happy birthday.

Its your birthday in about 20 mins time.
jus wana wish you happy birthday.
may your dreams come true.
enjoy yourself.
i'm sure you will...

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group... You're always up for a good time or conversation And you stick with your friends no matter what You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

i dreamt of you last nite again.
you hoping for reunion.

IT WAS JUST A DREAM

*Shruggs*

You Are 50% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

went to work today.
changed shift wif chui yee for this wk.
your sis dropped by for a box of bacon and cheese
first thing she asked me was:
"are you still with my bro?"
me: "no." (trying to react cooly to it)
sis: "he broke up with you?"
me: "no... it was like... no contact and tat kind of stuff..." (trails off)
sis: "..." (aggitated expression)

after she left, i sorta lost my concentration in work for a while.
what does this means?
i guess, nobody else knows better than i do...
i'm not feeling too good about it.
esp when u turn up for cleaning today.
nagging about your coming bday.
i know... in less than a wk's time.
what can i say?
i jus wanna wish u happy birthday. that's all.

yawnz...
jus woke up... haha...
it's like 7pm now...
i woke up at 6 plus though.
had a long long day ytd.

went to work.
after work went down to Singapore Conference Hall
to watch the band's final round of rehersal for SYF
at the concert hall.
went back to sch with them and ended up staying overnite there.
did some silly stuff...
'slpt' along the corridor...
haha... it's cool... you watch the sky changes
and the wind's definitely chilly enough!
went home at 7?

reached home at around 8+
bathe, wash clothes, surf the net for a while...
surprisingly, i WASN'T slpy at all?!?!
till about 9.
made myself slp... and here i am posting this.
if i'm not wrong, mama, you did ask if i wana go back sch wif ya today rite?
erm... there's no call from you...
so i jus slpt tru the day lor....
hehehee......

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

was watchin the 9pm show on channel 8.
something certainly sounds freaking familiar!
the sampan, boat, cruise, passenger thingy.
well... too bad, i din get copyright!
haha...
i originated it ok...
watever.
anyway, i have this discomfort in my right palm.
oh dear. i have no idea why is it so....
hope it doesn't affect my work tml.
*sighz*

i have had an extremely long day today.
slpt at 4 ytd.
was mugging MER. woke up at ard 11?
din have a gd slp from 8am onwards
coz was worrying about my darling sister, evelyn.
the band havin music exchange wif 15 other schs today.
it's like WOW. 15 schs! that's definitely a lot.
anyway, went for it. did nothin much though.
caught up wif my junior and the kids.... Opps.
haha. witnessed sumthing today.

i always tot guys after NS wld be matured enough to think for themselves and the consequences for the actions they take.
as expected, u were extremely K-PO. but you did went overboard
you shouldn't have used vulgarities on that boy.
c'mon. he's still a sec sch kid. practically, a BOY.
you, 21 this year, still wana take on a BOY???
Oh..... grow up pls... u make me feel so embarassed of hssband alumni.
watever it is, u did cause the trouble. hopefully it'll never ever happen again.

caught hitch wif kelvin.
i wld say, it's a funny show.
however, it does makes me wonder...
opportunities come by or were they created?
hahaha... go ahead catch it guys, it's quite nice.
am pretty tired now. but i still have to continue on where i had left off last nite
else, i wldn't be able to finish mugging!
oh, my parents jus left for taiwan today.
blame the exams! i can't go. shit.
i do miss my mum...

to something else now...
sometimes, i really do dread the thought of taking 147.
though it's kinda my fav bus, as i've been takin it for the past... 6 yrs?
it has been by trusted transport.
i take this bus to most places i go.
to sch back in those secondary days,
to town when i go city hall,
to clementi when i meet up wif the guys for pool,
and of course, to work.
why do i dread taking the bus?
coz, it bypasses that road.
BENDEMEER, BOON KENG MRT.
whenever i see that road, the sch, the mrt, the muslim food stalls,
the factory at the other side,
images of you and that new year eve flashes back
almost immediately.
how am i suppose to forget?
i can't not take that bus. what can i do?
everytime, i see those landmarks, i get zapped back into the past.
help..... help......

i... got something to say.
i know i got.
but i dun seem to remember.
how sad is that.
nevermind.

lets jus leave it.
... ... ... ... ...

Errr...
am so slpy.
duno why.
most prob due to the food i ate
and the fan that is constantly blowing at my eyes.

need to get down to study for MER.
vbus got so many shit to look at.
but me ain't got a proper table thanks to mum.
duno what's with the tray.
been left on the table for so long and she jus leave it as it is.
i need a table to write my notes as i copy from vbus!
this is irritating.
making me lose the motivation to study.
Grrr... i hate this.

RETURN ME MY TABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha...

i guess, i've reach the step.
where i've chosen to let go.
at the crossroad.
it's either, or.
and i've chosen.
it does hurt a little now and then.
but, things will never be the same.
so no point holding on.
let's jus see what can time do for us.
or rather, ME.
it still hurts when i bypass bendemeer JTC,
listen to the song you sent, think of my fav song,
work, and many things else which has a connection with you.
i know have to and will be strong.
i know i can do it.
i'm tired of all these avoidance.
sorry to say, i find them childish.
i expect us to behave like adults, to be able to talk
too bad, you chose to avoid, a lose-lose situation.
nevermind, friends or not, it's up to you.
i'll still be the friend of your's who will always lend u a helping hand
in every aspect, when u need one.

i'm so tired btw.
woke up at 5+ today
went for the conference job.
damn tiring.
SIP is irritating. i dun know if i should go look for my own co.
the tot of going through that bloody interview like comm skills
is purely disturbing to me... argh....

nowadays, i enjoy the comfort to the maximum, surfing net at home
on my bed.
finally my wireless lan is done. but i hav to fix up my CPU for my desktop.
am glad i no longer have to stay in the living room late at nite.
had a great time chatting wif desmond last nite.
sure it was entertaining.
his 'live' concert at woodlands. haha.
we were having audio conference via msn.
quite fun though.

i know that holding on is a silly thing to do.
the mind says let go.
but the heart says hold on.
maybe there could jus be another chance.
but, that would also mean another chance for me
to let me get hurt by u again.
can't i jus forget? no. at least not at the moment.
was literally happy that u called the other day to ask me help you
collect your pay. tot you finally sorted things out.
guess, i was wrong.
you're still avoiding. always. as usual.
was shocked when u msn me.
simply jus to say thanks. and u logged off immediately.
not leaving time for me to say a welcome.
ain't that avoidance?
i do not know what more can i say.
lets jus leave time to do the work...
i am in no control.

Am so surprised you called.
simple call from u to ask me help u keep your pay first.
y me? i do not know.
but i do not mind.
can be a form of compliment too.
at least, i know,
you're not avoiding.

urghz.. i'm freaking haunted!

haunted by those memories you left behind.
how it all started.
with your fake marriage proposal thingy.
up till the promise to visit the zoo and 'under-sea' world.
tat's wat u call the underwater world.
till the day it first ended.
the ktv nite, where things were goin back on.
the nite where u pester me to play online pool with you
to how it started the second time.
the way you sound wif the 'juz-woke-up' voice tru the phone
the river angbao trip during CNY eve.
those fireworks. those stuff u told me about.
the long walk from marina to beach road. the stop over at gateway.
the way you played billard. what you call bendemeer road in chinese.
the prata and mutabak we ate. the lift to your house.
the playground near your place, your friends.
the bottle of solution you bought. the way your sisters reacted when they saw me
early CNY morning.
right up till the movie, million dollar baby.
and till this very day.
even monday, when we were busy shifting those stuff out of shop.
those irritating noise u made. 'tuk-nai'

they are still haunting me... for the past few days!
how and when will i get out?
i guess, only time will tell... or when someone else steps in
and pull me out...

i think i've been missing you or rather thinkin bout u too much.
WAY TOO MUCH.
till i even dreamt about u last nite.
about us.
BRrrrrr......... US? HUH-HUH?
it was a pretty nice dream though.
but then, in that dream, i was never happy
until we're together.
does that mean that, i will only be happy
with you?

they say, dreams are often the reverse.
i hope so. i so wana get on with my life.
stop dreaming about u.
but then again, sometimes, my dreams do freaking come true.
what now then???
somebody tell me how! pull me out of this pit i'm in!

what are friends for?
i'm happy that i have my poly mates.
i have xp and gang...
and some others.

Who are your real friends?
i do not know.
thanks mama, for being there at times.
i'm freaking irritated at ppl nowadays.

i really do not know if they are my real friends or not
even after knowing each other for so many years.
perhaps... ppl change.
i've come to realise that you've change to become more selfish.
selfish, the right word? YES.
you only care about your own stuff.
was i being used all these while?
i tot so too.

i dun wan to think about it anymore.
you jus disappoint me ALOT.

Alone in the project room now.
slpy.
bored.

the following post will contain complicating extracts from my precious tots and views.
pls be warned. (^-^v)

i still miss you.

i know things will never be the same again.
history will never repeat itself once more.
coz i dun like to wait.
i hate to wait.

the person who is really worth your tears, will never make u cry...
it applies to waiting as well.
practically everything.
i'm fine. perfectly fine.
i'm ok with it. gotten over the sadness period.
jus that, i do miss you.
esp when i saw those fireworks pictures in my cam last nite.
shld i delete? was badly taken though.
but it's fond memories of CNY eve.
haiz. forget it. jus leave it there.
things are so different now. i jus wish, we could just be friends like b4.
perhaps, it shouldn't have even started in the first place.

i've been spending a bomb
on cab fares recently.
haven been slping enough.
really am very tired.

great thing is that.......
soon, those projects will be over soon!
yeay!
but the comm skills summative test is stressing me out!
the big bomb from Ms Lynette Tay kills!
Tml, is presentation day.
for tourism.
Stressful too! i speed talk alot esp during presentations.
let's hope everything will be over soon...

sometimes, i still think of you.
but am trying hard enough to forget.
will keep those memories wif me.
thanks for those precious moments...

Am so tired.
work up early today.
went to sch.

after that went town wif mama, ade, shan and jean.
window shop alot.
veri tired.
was in a daze.
saw the chingay parade.
reminds me of CNY eve countdown wif you.
all i can do is *sgHz*
memories... will always be memories.
i know,
the promised zoo trip, even if it's a promise,
i dun need u to fulfill it.
coz i know it'll be hard on both of us.
let's jus forget it.
i do not hate u.
i have the rights to. but i NEVER ever wanted to.

*t0 foRgve, is tO gvE up My RiGhtS t0 hAtE yOu foR hUrtNg Me...*

i feel so slpy.
duno y.
i slpt like a dead log in the bus on my way to work.

i spent a little too much today.
was suppose to go browse for blazor.
but ended up spending 95% of my cash at
SIM LIM SQUARE.
spent 43 bucks there.
Bought this veri cool looking optical mouse.
50pcs CD-R
holder... etc.
now i can finally burn some stuff...
for goodness sake!

so tired now.. better go slp soon

Shiok!
know wat? i'm now typing this entry using my laptop.
the thing is that
my wireless connection is not done up yet...
i'm using some other ppl's!
wahaha
my laptop manage to detect a few.
so... jus use! hahaha....
okie... lame i know.
but it feels cool man.

Xing Hui Yi Leng.
i'm so sad.
think i'm goin to be numb soon.
i know i'm definately upset.
i dun even wan to took at you.
how bad can that be?

Duan Le Si Nian.
that's all i want.
jus hope that we'll go to the zoo on this coming sat
as promised.
and, have a enjoyable day.
nothing else. jus a happy memorable day.
i dun ask for anything else anymore.

tml is v day.
i can still remember, last yr's V. day.
the surprise with light heart-shaped candles.
lovely. but, nvm, it's the past.
time really flies.
i dun wan to think about tml.
all i wan to, is to concentrated on my work.
let the work carry my woes away...

you are always on my mind...
so much so that,
it felt as though it's air...

i'm really extremely bothered.
i do not know what's goin to happen
i do not wan to know.
even if i know, i know i wun know how to face it
how to handle it.
if it happens, it's goin to be the 2nd time
2nd time you're breaking me in less then a month.
you make me and break me...
i'm speechless.
i do not wan to rush things. always.
i take it slow. but it seems like it's getting out of hand.
what can i do?
for twice i read the word serious.
and for twice, my heart hurts.
somebody tell me what should i do?

all i have with me are the memories.
every little thing u said.
that little bottle of solution u bought.
i can't help but feel silly again.
devastated? yeah i am.

i'm so tired.
so slpy.
am at sch.
hmm... this entry sounds freaking familiar
doesn't it?
that's wat i always say whenever i'm in sch.

i still feel insecure.
what can i do?
it's not stablized.
there's nothing much i can do
i can only hope for more weekends.
and next sat to fly by ASAP.
i can't wait to go to the zoo...
anywayz, i'm really happy
when u told me u miss me too last nite...
(='_'=)

insecurity...
is the only word i can say.
i miss you. do you ?

i have one of the most memorable chinese new year eve so far.
yes.... i am in 7th heaven already.
anywayz, happy new year.

chinese new year eve, after sch, went last min shop for clothes.
surprisingly, you called me.
i tot i was goin to be waiting for nothing.
we met up at nite, to river ang bao.
watched fireworks together...
nice nice.... nice fireworks and nice feeling too.

met up wif ur fren and watch u play billard.
after that went to ur area for supper.
talk till 6+ am.
slpt over. went home and went visiting the next day.
which was yesterday.
met up at nite again.

watever, i'm goin to god-ma's hse soon.
after that will be going for company dinner.
too bad u can't go. = (
miss ya...

is whatever that happened last nite true?
i hope so.
i'll be up in the 7th heaven again.
haha...
i waited but too tired. so i went off first.
i duno whether should i persist?
let's see if we go river ang bao tonight
and it'll decide...

i'm so slpy.
haven bought any new year stuff
later goin to do last min shopping.
buying clothes and shit.
haha.. what to do?
i'm really veri veri busy!
been working and schling. takes up all my time away.
let's see, today is chinese new year eve.
tml is new year.
tml, i wana stay home and slp.
i haven been slping enough... real tired.
now i look like a panda liao........

i'm extremely tired.
think am gonna suffer from a breakdown soon.
have been extremely busy!!!
looking back.
fri, was suppose to spend my time doiny my comm skills shit.
but then got to go collect my laptop.
spent the whole evening at TM.

Sat, early morning went sch to do project..
then went to funan to collect the stupid freebie.
wasted hours jus trying to locate that shop.
thanks to best denki AGAIN

after that went to work. all the way till 10.45.
seiyu extended such stupid hours.
after work went ktv wif anderson, him, hl and one other guy.
till 4 am. went for super early breakfast?
couldn't even finish mine.
shared cab home wif him and the guy.
slpt at 6 am

went to work today again till 10.45
am really damn tired.
need to go rush my comm skills shit.
tml got lecture at nine.
i'm sooooo dead.

and, i'm not goin to the zoo on 12 anymore... = (
coz got work!?!
need to wait for another week. haiz.
btw, i have no idea why u said those to me last nite.
but i like the feeling of being doted on... = )

Have i grown stronger?
i have no idea.
i still feel sad.
the pain is still there.
when will it ever go away??

I was being silly.
or rather, i have always been.
Naive, i call myself.
Silly.
Whatever.
I always trust too easily.

Am so glad that i know i will always have a friend with me.
XP. my bestest of all friend i suppose.
after soo many years.
no doubt i din really say my main problem, i still feel fine.
Thanks for your companion.
We'll be friends for live... i can't promise, but this is my wish.
i'll always be there for u like u do for me.

it's been a long time,
eversince i last cried till my eyes turn red.
yeah, i cried alot today.
whatever it is, i do not wish to mention anymore.
let bygones be bygones.
i do treasure those moments. esp that particular talk.
even though it hurts the most.
dun worry, i'll be fine.
and i'm fine.
i know i can get through this. afterall, it's jus another fall.

*perhaps, i've really grown stronger*

i dun think of goin to the zoo and underwater world
ANYMORE.

u dun have to keep to your promise
however, i dun mind going.
but then again, u really dun have to.
since things take a turn this way.

i'm not going to think about it.

i am so so sick!
this cough is terrible
i'll die soon.

i feel as if i'm coughing my lungs out everytime
a few times, till i almost vomited.
YUCKS!

why like tat??
i feel like taking MC. but...
i feel weird if i dun go for lectures......
ARGHZ.
wat to do, my group is so hardworking.

are we really goin to the zoo and underwater world
as u've promised?
i hope so!
someone give me some blessings...
hahaha...

i am so weird.
i smiled and laughed too much.
i'm not like my normal self.
i'm weird.

took the train home.
and took the long long road home.
spent about 30 mins to walk that stretch.
i chose the longer route.
the wind was too good.
i love the breeze.

walking and listening to some songs.
was back in my memory lane for sometime.
that stretch of road...
the many memories, incidents that took place.
the ex-basketball court esp.
i can still remember, about 2 years back,
i was lying at the basketball court having a wonderfully relaxed time
playing with the dogs, chatting, and enjoying the breeze.

yesterday, i had a good time chatting with effendi
it's nice to sit down and talk.
talk about life, everything.
i love this.
then dear xp came over.
reason wasn't good, but i enjoyed talking to her.
the catch-ups was lovely.
and yes, friends forever, we'll be...

i have another wisdom tooth growing out
OUCH. YEAH. OUCH.
but before the OUCH part,
it's growth in the first place is making me sick

and it's 'sicker' then sick
compared to the previous wisdom tooth.
it jus brings me down.

i've been sniffing like a dog.
coughing like there's no tml.
well, i can't be bothered to see any doc.
the point here is,
i'm sick of life too.

i'm sick of my own life.
my way of handling things.
watever it is.
i'm washing my hands off.

slpy.
din have a gd nite last nite.
despite the many times u 'stood me up'
letting me wait for ur call after u said u'll call back...
last nite was the worse. it really was.

for the past few months...
i could jus fall aslp even though u said u'll call
but yesterday, no doubt i did slp.
but i wasn't completely slping
half-awake
waiting for my phone to ring.
was tossing and turning.
having stupid dreams.
till 6 am.
yeah. get that rite. 6 am
finally there's a message.
BUT...
it's from ah xiong. DUHZ.

wishing me good nite. well, tat's the time when i needed that the most.
after that, i tot i should go slp.
and yeah, i slpt. and woke up at 11+
still feelin slpy.
i think i'll go slp later.
watever it is, i know, next week, i'll call u again. = )

y everytime u go missing???
chat halfway and u go missing?!?!?!
i dun like tat!!!
i haven been talking to u!
maybe i should call u later.
or will u call me?
hAiz.

i'm now in shit crappy mood.
perhaps coz i studied one round for my mid term
tat's y i'm like tat.
but today, i am happy!
coz i finally see mama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but am so sorry to stood up for early dinner!
SORRY! SORRY!! VERY SORRY!!!
but still, i'm elated to see u
hehehe...

i feel slpy.
most prob due to the amt of junk food i ate.
but i dun wan to slp YET.
i wan to continue to WAIT.
i will WAIT!

haiz.
i've been losing my stuff!
i lost my zip disk last yr in sch.
few weeks back, i lost my notebook
the one with my doggy pic in it.
damn. tat's a very impt pic to me!
and jus recently, i lost my floppy.
FUCK. how can i be so fucking careful huh?

irritated la.
anywayz, i miss one person very much.
she's none other than my mama!
mama: i haven seen u for like ages!!!! how are u? i miss u alot alot. i miss us goin to 'penthouse'!
i miss us goin to TM and walking around, visits to mango, i miss us goin to bookshop! i miss us slacking around! i miss us...... ALOT.
ooh.. yes of coz i miss everyone else....

interview sucks big time
i knew it.
predicted. but wat to do. that's jus me.

anyway, am so tired.
really tired.
physically and mentally.
i'm so troubled...
now i dun even know my stand.
everything is jus blurred.

"In love, you'll be changing your mind about one very special person."
an extract from 8 days issue 744 horoscope.

how true it is.
so true. even when i dun really believe,
it's jus too much of a coincidence.
btw, being a loyal reader of 8 days, i can tell u this...
8 days horoscope is pretty accurate.
at least for my case.
sighz.
what am i suppose to do?
there's nothing much.
WAIT is the only answer i have.
meanwhile, let me get through this extremely busy week first.
i smell a slightly relaxed week ahead jus before mid sem.
the tot of mid sem is jus so much of a relief to me.
with jus one paper and one online quiz.
thank goodness.

WoW.
i din know that i could get attached
without my consent and knowledge!

the rumours @ work are jus getting too far fetched!
me and kelvin?
HALO???
i spell i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e!
HAHAHA.

What's next?
Ah xiong and me izzit?
for gdness sake...
wat the heck. i can't be bothered.
i have enough to brood over now.

insufficient slp.
too much work.
too much probs.
jus only effendi will know what i'm talking about...

i'm veri stressed.
i got selected to be the interviewee
for comm skills.
had to dress up, make up (EEEEE),
go through that session itself...
it's jus hell.
i hate that.
WHY ME?!?

sad.
it's always the case
things u wan, u wun get.
things u never expected of,
always come right to your doorstep.

(warning: the post below contains extracts from author's brain juice. pls do not continue if you do not understand as any futher qns ask will not be entertained.)

White prince charming and black horse.
i always prefer the white.
i never even considered of the black.
but somehow,
the prince charming's destination is all up to fate.
i tot i wouldn't have felt this way,
but i was wrong.
after 2 mnths plus, i jus fell right into it.
and out of no where, a black horse came along.
leaving me all stuck.
i'm stuck.
i haven been talking to white for sometime.
i jus do not wan to think about this anymore for the moment.
i have enough to stress for.
comm skills, HR, tourism. big headache.

Irritated!
the photobucket exceed bandwidth!
wat the hell.
the created of this skin also din create a link for us to d/l the pics of those twinkling stars.
how am i suppose to support the pic on my own bandwidth?
irritated!

esp when i've found such a lovely skin.
i mean, the beautiful girl.
the gothic girl.
i love her.
hahaha...

Am in sch now.
staying for what?
i dun really hav a gd idea
but anywayz, i'm alrite with it

when i reach home, there's tonnes of things waiting for me to do!
Haven heard from you for few days.
wondering how are u doing?
have you found a job yet?

have been chatting with ah xiong recently
that joker...
i have no comments.
always goin ard askin ppl to marry him
oh yeah, i'm one victim.
haha. yeah. "married" to him already.
but i'm fine with it.. jus play along with him only.

watever.
hope the new boy wayne does not want to work anymore
so that i can ask my friend to work.
haha.. that's evil i know
but he's blacklisted by aunty already!
for not turning up for work.

i'm tired. goin home soon.
still having tonnes of stuff on my mind.
but jus can't or duno how or who to relate to.

i guess...
i'm really dying.

First and foremost,
Happy New Year to all.
May 2005 be a better year.

i guess this is the first time,
during new year,
whereby, i dun even feel like celebrating
jus like christmas.
it's JUS ANOTHER DAY to me.

went for a movie in the evening
with effendi and asri.
boy, i miss these two bros.
nice catching up with them after the movie.

so, i ushered in the new year
on my way home
in bus 851.

somehow, i'm satisfied.
am happy.

when u do not expect anything,
things jus happen.
was a pleasant surprise to receive the call
thank you for remembering me.
well, as i've promised before,
i'll always be the friend,
who will be sitting quietly at one corner of your life.

will always be there,
whenever you need me.
this applies to ALL my friends.
G5 dearies, Sem 2 mates, Sec sch mates,
the BM group... mama... bros...
ALL MY FRIENDS.
love you all.

i'm tired.
from the early mornings.

long days
long hours.
too many things.
too little rest.
too little time.

been thinking way too much.
i tot i could jus get over and done wif it
but i failed.
i'm still thinking.
every single min, sec.
even rite b4 i slp.
and the very min i open my eyes.

this is shity.
i'm shit.
i'm dead.
it's brutal.
it's madness
it's jus not me.

I'm so slpy.
look at the time now...
it's only 11.30 am
and i'm in school already.

i shouldn't be having lessons now
but was ask to come for project.
however, things dun seems to be goin as said
or perhaps there was a mizcommunication
i hope for the latter.

i'm so sad. everyone got promoted
i mean the A staff
edmund, kelvin, jess and angie...
so now, i'm the only...
one and only A staff there.
when on earth will i get promotion???

gotta work later
have been working for 3 days straight
christmas, yesterday and today.
super tired.
and yet no promotion. but got bonus.
in fact, i rather get promotion.
watever.

tonight, reach home, must complete my peer teaching notes
on employment act and maternity leave
as well as trade union act.
pls... if u ever see me online doing nothing at nite,
plz... help me. bug me to go do my work.
i'm so tired recently that i can't seem to stay up too late
i feel giddy, headache, heavy eyelids... etc.

i'm dying.

before i start, let me jus say something
no doubt i dun celebrate it...
Merry Christmas

i was on this funny topic with desmond few days back
why are people so enthu about x'mas?
i mean,
it's a religious celebration.
and we've got everyone celebrating?
you dun see ppl getting excited over deepavali
and suggesting a countdown party for it
do u?
haha...
tat's jus the way the world goes round.

anywayz, i went to sch for a stupid tutorial
and went to visit my grandma after tat.
met my bro there and we went for brunch
at mcdonalds over at united square.
something funny happened.

the way my brother converse somthing.
it was hilarious.
over the neopet toy and the food.
it wun be funny if i type it out.
so maybe i'll got around telling it if u guys wana hear.

got home and... felt slpy.
somehow, din catch any wink yet.
still need to work on peer teaching notes.
and there's work tml... =

bothered.
i'm very bothered.

i'm walking ard at home aimlessly.
i know i have a thousand and one things waiting for me to do
and yet,
i duno where and how to start.
i have a thousand and one things on my mind now
and yet,
i duno what they are.

all i know is that...
i'm bothered.
very bothered.

i feel like a walking dead now.
my brain isn't functioning well
it jus doesn't feel rite.
feels heavy. very heavy.
it's not working.
i think it's going to stop functioning soon.
i'm a goner then.
dead.

i feel weird.
very weird.
very out of place.
and yet,
i'm at home.
what the hell is wrong with me?
somebody tell me please?

Wah Piangz.

in sch again
stupid lab.
saw nisey, na and zhen.
so nice to see the three of them together.

anywayz, i'm veri bored.
there's nothing much to do now.
feelin quite hungry.

coming to think of it,
i've got attachment again tml
and ive got work on thurs, sat and sun!

first time working on sat.
say goodbye to my christmas.
there's only christmas eve to celebrate.

i'm blabbering nonsense now.
anywayz, how's my new blog skin?
i like the gothic look.
actually i like gothic stuff.
juz that it might end up scaring away ppl.
you guys should check out the visual band
Malice Mizer.
too bad it's disbanded. but they are really cool.

tat's all. i'm talking trash now....

I feel like saying something.

but then again,
i duno wat to say.

*slap*

things often don't go the way u wan them to be

rite?

Sian!

in sch now.
super bored.

anywayz, wed was Ade's birthday.
went Music Underground
danced for few hrs i guess.
nothing much i can do there
the experience was much more diff this time round.
the ex-MU was more happening

then... yesterday, went sch for one bloody lecture
then after that went to meet mama for lunch before work
so, nothing much actually.

as for today... so as it is.
haven been slpin much.
always late nites and early mornings.
damn tired.
gd thing there's no work today.
so go home can slack and slp early.
tml can wake up late too!

hahaha.
but tml might be goin to woodlands.
no no. not meet desmond.
go library. the library there is freaking damn bloody BIG
hahahaha.
we'll see how...
damn sian now.
msn mama.. but as usual, she never reply me.

I'm so tired.

Yesterday after i visited my grandma
i went to desmond's place for the first time.
i'm in love with his room.
haha
jus like all his friends.

anywayz, we did some stuff
like look at pics of his frenz,
videos, and he sang KTV
showed me some interesting lightings
showed me his J rock visual bands stuff
which i think is SUPERLY COOL
and watched DVD,
hannibal.

then played X BOX for a while.
challenged Street Fighter and Dead or Alive 3
after which he played this camera game
which is sumthing like shutter the movie.
pretty interesting.

after that, felt damn hungry
and he went to cook some instant noodles
Yummy. when u're hungry, even instant noodles taste good.
then we watched some stupid chinese show on tv
till both dozed off.
woke up at slightly past 3 then went home
after all he's tired from his reservist.

slpt at 4 and bloody woke up at 7.
took a cab to sch and reach at 9
and got bloody pissed off.
my group was supposed to me at 1015
and i wasn't informed.
wat the hell
i was so angry.
till i see Ain
felt lot better after a while.

had a long day today.
damn tired.
tml is Ade's birthday.
and first day of attachment.
another long day.
hope i can rest well today.

i'm so excited.
coz...
i lost control of myself
and bought
7260!!!!!!

i bought... i bought
my beloved 7260!!!
finally.
haha.

effendi, went army today.
haiz.
desmond went for reservist today.
double haiz.
my parents flew off today.
triple haiz.

my parents flew off today, and guess wat?
i only got to know it today.
yes.
today.
then moment i woke up.
without them telling even.
jus saw the suitcases and the mess lying ard.
they like to create a mess outta the house before they fly
and when they come back.

desmond, my phone companion,
the best among all i know,
who could make conversations a hell out of a laughing stock,
went for a bloody 3 wks long reservist.
damn.
tat means, i wun get to hear from him tat much.
but, i've promised to call him.
so... hopefully it's not tat bad.
after all, i still hav sch and work to juggle wif.

last but not least, i'm gona get 7260 on sat i guess.
muahahahaha..
i can't wait any longer.
my 8850, is driving me nuts.
but it'll be kept in my cupboard for display i guess.

been a long time since i blogged.

let me think about last wk...

last posted was on sat, jay's concert.
sun, i went work.
mon, tues, nothing but work either.
but then, tues was mama's birhtday.

wed, went to sentosa wif mama!
wif ade, shan, jean as well.
all the five of us.
suntanned. soaked up in the sun. haha.
had fun.
after tat went to parkway wif ade, shan and jean
for dinner.
while mama went for celebration wif her colleuges i guess.

thurs, was a rest day for me.
but then, i went to visit my grandma and ended up not resting much.

fri, work again and sat, bumming at home.
i love bumming at home. haha.
of coz i did visit my grandma.
then sun, it's work again.

and today. first day of sch.
too many things.
attachment in sch.
it's free labour. not the real attachment or wat they call SIP.
it's jus doin hands on.
and...
went walkin ard tm wif mama.
missed .... the ... past.... 3 ....sems... alot.... alot.

*AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!*

i can still hear screams.
excited screams.
from thousands of ppl,
including myself!

hahaha.... i jus came back from....
Jay's Incomparable concert!!!!!
yes.
he's really incomparable!!!!!
the concert was 100% high till the very end!
even the guest singers were great.
and i watched jay from the 2nd row.
Million thanks to jeslyn from Jay Dimensions.
without her, i wun be able to get the tix.

The concert kick start wif Yi Fu Zi Ming
and jay was on the cross.
he jus look so damn freakin Cool!!!!!!!
i loved it man... and can see him so clearly when he stood at our side.
the stage's a four-faced stage btw.
still so happy and excited.
too bad, no more.
gotta wait.... for another 1 or 2 yrs.

Ah..... i jus love the concert.
and i recorded a small little part of him talking!
and it's quite clear!!!!
hahaha... so happy now...
think i might not be able to slp tonite.
and perhaps, tml i might get a muscle ache from my arm
due to the light stick shaking
and a super hoarse voice from all the screaming.

It was jus fantastic!
unforgettable and incomparable. haha.
the one, and only fantasy.
hahaha....
it's never enough...
ok, i'm starting to crap.
coz, i jus can't freakin explain the feelin i have now!
it's jus superb!

Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!!!!!

hahaha... it's my birthday.
so happy.
coz i celebrated it!

went to rush at sultan wif xp, ke, er, jen, kel (work)
so long no show my 'energizer power'
over charged already.
haahaa...
now my mine is full of shit...
i mean the song,
duno the title.
think it's tuo diao.
it goes something like tis:
tuo diao tuo diao, wai tao tuo diao, mian ju tuo diao.

hahaha... lame.
anywayz, went lau pa sat for 'supper'
hahaha... 10 10 10... damn funny
and.... i received a lovely bday gift.
a MP3 player.
thanks my dear frenz.
really love it.

and thanks to my bro for the wallet.

BIG thanks to my dearest mei, evelyn!
for remembering my bday.
love ya so much!

read chriss blog and came across something...

guy: "i dun wan to lose u"

girl: "but u dun wan to keep me either do u?"

this shit always happens.

and it always end in the same freaking fucking ending:

"we're jus friends"

from my personal experiences..
how true is that?
wat the fuck.
who cares.

...

speechless.
last nite can only be a memory.

last week too.

it's either, there's a change
or i hafta forget.

but still,
i believe u know wat's in my mind.
too bad.
always the wrong time.
u still know me better.

thanks for ur companion.
i still wish u all the best.

i'll not expect anything.
if it's really meant to be, it'll be.
hopefully i can put it off far back
into my mind.

anyway, gd luck for ur exams.

Happy Birthday Xiuping!

happy birthday my dear friend!
hope u enjoy urself today.
though everything was simple,
i tot i was fun.
glad tat you like the presents.
so fast, u're 19
soon, it'll be my turn.

anywayz, today is a stressful day
woke up at 10+
despite the fact tat i slpt late last nite.
mum told me tat grandma is goin for an op.
if it's a success, it's gd.
if it fails, prepare for the worse.
got down to the hospital asap.

reached there, she's alread in the op theatre.
waited for 5 long hrs.
finally news came.
now, she's still in the critical stage.
so, i'm still very worried.
saw her in pain but can't do anything
knew that she wans to say something
but she can't speak
i felt so sad.
my heart sank.
so lost.
really hope that she make it thru this stage.

slp at 5.
no. not d treatment.

went to meet kelvin (toyota) after work.
went 'la-kopi'.
then went to sengkang.
let me drove a short distance.

after a while, went punggol.
punggol marina. (the area)
a place, where there's nice scenary.
deserted place. secluded.
brought back some memories.
stayed there till 1 i guess.

reach home at 1.30.
online till duno wat time.
read magazine till 5+
before goin to slp.

got this disturbing ache on my gums.
tot it was due to 'heat'
but when brushin my teeth this morning,
got a shock.
it was the wisdom tooth...
growing out.
OUCH.

i've decided to get over and done with d treatment.
i dun wan it anymore.
got to overcome it.

needed it when i wasn't myself.
now, i wan to be back to myself.
no more.
no more d treatment.

wonder wat happens when u grow old?
wat will ur children say to u?
recently, i've witness horrifying acts and words from my relatives.
children of my grandma.
those words they say....
really makes me wonder why on earth,
are they still alive?
they shld be they one lying there.

still think that my grandma brought them up so hard...
utterly disappointed.

woke up this noon.

went to the hospital to visit my grandma.
relapse of amnemia again.
almost fainted in front of my grandma.

gd thing didn't.
left after a while
went to catch a movie wif kelvin (collegue)
caught the cellular.
not bad.

after tat had dinner
and got home
not a bad day.
except for the amnemia part of course.

got d treatment last nite.

went to slp at ard 1 i guess?
and d treatment at ard 3+
till 5 before i went back to dreamland.

woke up at 11.
went to the doc for a jab.
took a short nap in the noon b4 goin to visit my grandma.

now still feeling drowsy.
and feeling skin.
temp is slightly higher.
sniffing and coughing away.

i wonder is it the jab or i'm sick
and the drowsiness.
was it due to slp deprive or the jab?

yeah rite,
blame everything on that jab.
my arm does hurt a little.

overdose of d treatment last nite
now addicted to it.

from midnite till morning.
only slpt for like an hr or two.
went to work
felt like living zombie.

did not visit my grandma today.
tml mus do it.

yours truely is extremely upset.
my grandma is rite now in hospital.
critical condition.

i'm now, feelin veri down.
she's the grandma who watch me grew up.
took care of me.
ever since i was a small.
the one who fetch me to sch.
the one who prepared meals for my family.
the one prepares milo for me in the morning and nite
without fail everyday.
the one who would hold a cane and run after my bro and i.
the one and only grandma.

when i heard the news from my tearing mum,
i was dumbfounded.
i jus can't help but end up in tears again and again.
i regret not visiting her yesterday.
i really do.

if there's anything i can do,
even to give up everything,
i will.
jus for my grandma.

*extremely upset*

Douglas O gets the 'daphne treatment'

i need 'D' treatment as well.

ARghz.

i've only got 3 words.

Not Myself Lately.

i need d treatment.

geddit? yeah. d treatment.

today is monday.
yesterday was sunday.

had few hours chat.
received two songs.

I've Been In Love Before by Cutting Crew
Was It Nothing At All by Michael Damiem

think most ppl wun know of such songs.
nice, classic sentimental songs.
veri soothing to be played at nite.

i'll be keeping these songs.
for sometime i guess.
it does mean something.

something i can miss.

wat's about today?
went for a haircut wif mama
where?
PS, kimage.
how was it?
alrite with me.
somehow, mama got a ...
chicken head? sorry mama.
hehe. he really granted ur wish.
tweety bird.

after that went to work.
saw nisey!
so happy. though we din talk
but am happy.

after work,
walked from bugis all the way
to selegie.
in the rain.
u got that right. in the rain.
with kelvin.
ok, there's a total of 4 kelvins.
this kelvin is from my workplace.
took bus with him and got home.
still wet.

there's nothing much to do.
and shit.
i jus remembered.
i forgot to wash my top.
damn it.
and... i miss again.
yes. as usual.
there's no one to talk to
throughout the whole nite.
i guess, i can only...
sleep.

gd nite.

last post was on a sat nite.

sunday. totally not my day.
every other thing i did had faults.
woke up, went cooking.
kept scalding myself.
forgot to iron uniform till last min.
extreme heavy rain on my way to work.
tot i couldn't walk over, drop off and took a cab.
ended up, rain stopped almost like immediately after i board the cab.

reached work place. started work.
2 girls kept callin me aunty.
dropped the mayonnise.
ended work early. but left late.
the guy forgot to key in mon's sales.
never keep key.
so had to wait for him.
on my way home, felt so hungry.

the only good thing i guess, was that my parents were back.

monday. woke up and went to meet ade, shan, jean and mama.
went to eat mcdonalds.
back to sch for the shiseido workshop together wif wen.
after workshop went for dinner and then to ade's place for mahjong.
played for 3 hrs.
won some money. quite exciting.
after mahjong, went 85 eat.
ate hao jian and sting ray.
got home from ade's place with thanks to chun rong's vehicle.

tml, which is actually a few hours later.
gotta work at 5.
still pending whether shld meet nisey for lunchie.
alrite, i'll stop here.
getting busy now.

it's an extremely boring nite.
being home alone doesn't help a single bit.
and it's on a nite like this,
so quiet and so still,
i realize, i do miss...
miss so much.

missing some ppl.
missing some things.
missing every other thing.

seriously need to put myself to slp.
got to work tml. but can't get to slp.
the music doesn't seems to have anymore effect on me.
perhaps, there's the consequence for being a loner too much.

was so tired yesterday.

went running ard orchard wif nisey, who wans to get her baby a burberry's wallet.
met up wif her at ard 2 at orchard and went to eat at lucky plaza.
start our gift hunt at near 3.

first was to search for boxes. the sales girl wanted to 'con' nisey to buy 3m long of ribbion.
then we walked to and fro, from paragon to taka and to isetan.
almost late for work.
one min difference. lucky to be on time.
felt bad for leaving nisey alone to continue hunting.
good thing, she got the wallet soon enough at dfs.

work was alrite, though a little tired.
crowd wasn't small either.
damn those friven fair ppl. shouting and shouting.
so noisey.

back home, watched tv till 2+ in the morning.
din finish the show. coz too tired.
woke up at 12 today. sorta shock.
coz, i tot it was a sun. damn me.

so bored now. better find something to do.
tried to find new skins. nothing appeal to me though.
shall try again some other day.

Hell yeah, i was M.I.A yesterday. came online at ard 1 and then went missing for the whole of yesterday and am only back online today. cHeez..

actually, i was lying on bed still living in my lala land at 12 +. damn, coz i slpt at 5 am! alrite, i was hell bored on tues nite. that i wen on a chatting spree. was chatting wif this guy for ard 5 hrs straight. talked about everything under the sun. from pets to life and even to bones. huh.... i din know... i've got so much to type. ahaha...

anywayz, wed morning. 13/10. my bro's 24th birthday! happy birthday kor. poor thing. very few ppl actually wished him. jus like me huh. ahaha.. at least tat was for my birthday last year. alrite, i went K box with the takopachi ppl at pavilion. wow. ahaha.. anderson called me at 12 plus.. near one . damn i was so slpy i tot i din really wanted to wake up. but i still went. erm.. very much fun then i expected. forget bout the names i mentioned, coz some mistaken identity. but somehow... the unwelcome feelin did took place but everything was great. even kel's ex was nice and so frenly. i ended up singing more then i expected of myself. so.. who says... i dun sing apart from myself? aHaaha... now i missing ktv sessions. damn. ahaha...

so, i left early at bout 6 to meet my bro and sis in law, to celebrate my bro's b day. gave them both a treat at ponderosa. yummy yum yum! that staff jason there, seems to be veri happy serving us. took away my fork promising to return it to me but din. and kept refillin my ice tea! i tink i was bloated wif tea man. but hell, everything was cool. after that, was walking round TM. and then my bro bought a cake. from Q bread. Tiramisu. went to his house cut cake and stayed there till dawn.

the cake wasn't exactly veri yummy. but i definately thing angel likes it a lot more than we do. and angel loves my pockey! jus like clifford. Damn! everytime i eat pockey i always have to give away... maybe next time if i wana indulge in pockey, i shall do it at home. well, stayed there and chatted with my sis in law about all those creepy stuff about my hse. yes. my hse, the place where i am at now all alone, by myself. ahaha.. till i myself got freaked out... wasn't that bad. chatted till 6 plus, then my bro woke up and went to camp and i stayed for like a little while more before heading home.

i was obviously dead beat. reached home, i put my clothes to wash and went to hit the bed at 9. set alarm at ten to hang my clothes before heading back to bed again. and thanks to kelvin for waking me up at 5+...... i'm still slpy alrite. and.... kelvin, u're an absoulte idiot for making empty promises. damn u. idiot.

hmm..... back from work. today, saw a lot of TP ppl @ bugis. hahaa... and now then i know that the corochan girl is also from TP. engine sch. saw one of my ex psyhco classmate. jap classmate and some other peeps.

anderson ask me go ktv tml. hmmm... duno whether shld go or not. anywayz, i forgot to take down aunty's no. then how am i suppose to contact them huh... maybe... jus see if they call or not lor. ahaha.. i also feel weird to go if kelvin and chui yi were to go... erm... so work stories. shan't say anything here.

feel like goin out to play.. play as in enjoy myself... ahem... hehe... and i miss driving. argh.... damn.... too bad i duno how to ride a bike. if not i can go roundin already. coz my dad's lousy bike is parkin at the car park, untouch for duno how many days already. lousy, but still can ride ma... if i know.. then can ride to work.. ahah... i'm crapping already. coz.... i wana plaY!!!!!!!!!!

ah.... i wan go out and play.. play play play... . .. .. .

Yeah... Exams over!!! ERm... abit slow huh... last paper was on sat and it's already monday now...

Sat, after paper..... went to eat with mama. then after that went home. At nite went to watch movie!! White Chicks. Ahaha... damn Freaking funny. had nachos... Yummy. satisfied now... ahaha.. but i miss cinneleisure's corn! AHahaha...

then sunday.. hmm... work. then after work met up wif mama! went to somerset.... the open carpark... eat... ERm... oyster, sting ray and... clams... 'lala'... not too bad... i like the lime juice there! ahaah.. then after that took cab home with mama to pasir ris then back home. Damn on the way home caught in the traffic junction due to an accident. and that damn traffic police was so idiotic! he kept letting the other junction's car pass.... while i waited for so lonG!!! and the meter was jumpin and jumping. Pissed.

end up reach home. short of 10 cents for the cab fare. so paiseh. all that stupid traffic police fault! today... woke up at 10+ by edwin. sO early msg me.... but i continue to slp la... ahaa.. so in the end, he called me i also never answer..... ahaha.. now, washing clothes. hmm.... tml will be working.... hehehe.....

I'm in the midst of studying HRM and Marketing... Not too sure if anything gets in... coz it's like... i know and yet... like i duno. Well, it's always the case.

Have this bad craving for sushi! damn... been some time since i last had it. And.... i wan nachos too!! i dun even remember when was the last time i had nachos. Mmmmm...... i miss those food. hahaaha. I'm having lotsa cravings. but yet i can't eat most coz i'm getting a bit more on the 'heaty' side now. so ..... i can only eat.... sushi?? ahahaha.....

Oh... my parents are flying again on fri. aH...tat's fast. 11 days. hmm... hopefully i can get to work more shifts then it wun bother me at all... alrite... i shall go do my stuff...... byez.

Am i sick?? i duno. feel alittle as though i'm sick...... but not that bad... maybe.... jus starting to fall sick?

Or maybe... i slpt too long? i duno!!!! argh....

this wk's exam wk... down with biz finance. left with hrm and marketing.

wish me good luck. anywayz, my parents are flying off soon again! they're going bali on the 8th. then from there, they'll go jakarta... ah... i'm goin to be home alone again!! how i wished my marketing paper ended earlier. like maybe on thurs? too bad. the paper's on sat. if not i can go bali..... for some holidaying.

hopefully sat can go out.... watch movie, white chicks... and maybe... pool... so long never play. the guys wanted to chill out.... hmm... pretty.... rare huh..... ahaha... anywayz... i'm stopping here already.... see ya.

back.. back home from Aranda. Oedo Food's bbq. there's a lot of ppl! from takopachi, tori-Q... from all different outlets.... and big boss and his pretty wife and their two sons... all japanese. ahaha.... boss like suzuki sensei.... smiling all the way.

anywayz, din eat much there. also... got to see the true self of certain aunties there. but nevertheless, it's still quite a nice event. Oh... did i mention the cake?

no doubt i din eat. but it's so... cute! even boss himself says kawaii. ahahaha.... it's from angie the choice wif the takopachi octopus on it.... really cute. Too bad i din take any picture of it....

damn. i haven really started studying. tml.... goin to study. must. study finance. and marketing . ah.... duno go where study also. anywayz... i shall end here.......

you know..... i really wished i have a car..... right now. At this veri moment... why?? Then i dun have to waste money on this thing - C-A-B. CAB..... Damn. On the veri contary, i dun wan to pressurize my mum!!!

i tink i've grown up somehow. Now, i value my family more than anything else. The old me only thinks about having fun... how they dun care for me..... but... now i know.... my family means the MOST to me. more than anything else. Esp my mum. That's why, i dun wan to push her too hard. Let her take some time for buying the car...

today, went out to eat... wif ade, shan, wen and jean. met at bedok interchange. supposed to go jln kayu for prata. but then the late queens.... wen and jean..... came so late so tot we change to simpang bedok for prata. not too bad. the prata quite nice... and the milo dinosaur as well! ahaha...

after that went to 85 for dessert... with compliments to jean's darling for sending us there. after that, we went to wen's place for mahjong. Ah.... no luck. Lost 4.90! damn..... guess wat... the big winner is JEAN!!!!! ahhaha... she's really lucky tonite. it's jus so not my nite.....

played till 1.15... then shared a cab home.... ah..... tat's all for today. tml shall make myself start studying alread.... nitez.

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been a wk plus since i last update... my parents are back in SG. safe and sound. GREAT.

was pretty busy the past wk. every other day is project rushing. HRM and jap. finally cleared on wed. Was very upset over the HRM project. Felt so damn unfair. i dun wana talk about details here.

Finally sch term's over. next week, study week... then exams. well... i dun really wan to tink about it too yet..... ahaha.

Tml got NE talk. this week very poor. so tml after NE talk go home eat in.. try to save as much as possible....

wOke up dAmn earLy today to send my parents off.....

reaLly miss my mum... Mummy.... i love u............

AWww...... ahaha... anywayz...... how i wished i had gone to rent a car ytd.. so tis morning we wouldn't hafta waste so much $$$ on cab fare.

sEems like no one notice wat was striked out in my human desires column..... but nvm... i believe soon it will be noticed.... hEHe...

Check out what i strike out in my *human desire* column... hehe....

Thanks to all those who wished me luck...

New headlines: Bombing in Jakarta...

Extremely disturbing to me. Saw the pic of the little girl who was injured badly by the bomb. Very sad... Very worried as well. My mum's goin there in less than a week's time. How i wish... yeah. wish. that she doesn't have to go.

I really don't understand why on earth are there terrorists?? what on earth do they want? what's the point of bombing around and harming people, taking away innocent lives? Don't they have a family as well?Look at the small girl... she's so young... but she's wounded... really very sad...

When will all these bombings and terrorism acts ever stop?? i really can't put it off my mind... My mum's going Jakarta soon... next month too... Bali as well....

*uPsEt*

wEll.... almost a week passed by...

Very busy week indeed. LAst sunday i went to my uncle's house then after that went window shop for laptop at courts. saw this laptop tat i really like... hope i can have it soon.... aHaha... then pillion on my brO's hexagon..... so nice..... always prefer his bike to my dad's... after tat went to work...

Monday... well, skipped Jap tutorial to do marketing wif mama.... do until 7.... waH sEi... do until so tired. then tues, finalized the psycho report then do marketing wif the whole grp.... until duno wat time again. ahaha... wed, early morning wake up... do psycho presentation.... skipped b fin. again.... went makan then after tat go home, rush HRM.....

thurs... yesterday, met earlier in sch and do hrm peer teaching then after tat faster go home coz got drivin... then after driving go pack dinner home... almost got gastric... then relax a little....

Today, woke up, finalized marketing report, print alread, go sch submit then go bugis meet mama for lunchie then go work...... work work work..... today, customer flow daMn.... bloody.... higH!!!! Q first time i see so long..... until the end of cold storage almost goin to the escalator....

work like mad..... ah.. so tired..... now..... still must type out the Hrm.... relations aCt.... haiz..... tml still mus wake up early coz got jap and psycho test........ Darn.....

i brought my mum to glass house fish & co today for early b day celebration.... bought the t shirt and the hp pouch. aHaha..

after tat went to work. today work sucks. the customers sucks. everyting jus sucks.

i'm so tired. slpy. tml... gotta do hrm.. industrial relations. after tat got driving. come back, do again. then at nite go out.... first time goin zouk.... like sua ku like tat. haiz. zhen shi de...

sunday morning gotta go uncle house. then after tat go work. monday, sch... after sch still got project. tues, no sch but got project... then i got work. wed, long day. no need say. thurs, sch. after tat got driving. fri, work. sat, test. sun work.... damn busy.

jus watched tv... am still watching. saw the part where andrew seow told joanne peh that it'll rain in less then 5 mins. reminded me of someone.... haiz.....

i left my bloody zip disk in sch. damn it.

Jus decide to come in and blog some things that are definately worth mentioning... why? coz they are happy events... though i seem a little non chalent on the outsied.. somehow, duno how, a little hard to express it physically right now.

Well, yesterday, i got a msg from jay's fan club member, informing me about jay's upcoming concert in nov. She's got front seat tix. so i ordered a pair from her. I'm so happy about it... coz the concert is on 27/11. make it a post birthday celebration and my own birthday gift from myself! Ahaha... though tix at 155.. and i've got Jojo!!! joanne!!!! to join me to sing-a-long in the concert..... ah.. so excited... memories of Jay's previous concert are flashing back.... ahaha... now i sound like those fanatic fan club peeps....

Next piece of gd news, i've got a new... brand new.... digi cam. it's not a perfect digi cam considering it's functions... but.... i mean... owning a digi cam was only a thought that flashed through my mind... wasn't even in my wishlist! it's Olympus.. Papa says the lens are great. from German.... but... doesn't really matter... ahaha... i'm jus overwhelmed.....

Finally, on my mid term results.... despite the fact that i din do well for HRM paper... only a C grade, i was DAMN surprise to get an A! A! A! for BIZ FINANCE!!!!! ahahaha.... pretty big news to me... coz i'm not a very maths person...... and i got an A!??!? wAh... great man... and i got a B for marketing... seems like.... not too bad huh... this sem.... ? hopefully!

Seems like things are not too bad after all...... if i continue to work hard. ahaha.... but somehow, something's still missing... nvm that now... coz i'm slpy and tired... wana slp soon... but after i finish charging the cam's batt.... hehe.....

Today... is a long day... as usual. but... it became.... shorter...... when...... mama and i skipped finance lecture again!~!

Ahahahaha.... went to eat... walk around TM. mama bought a belt... i bought nothing. Hmm... actually, i dun feel like blogging.... but jus blog... duno why too... ahaha...

i'm so sianz...! bOth this and next week, i'll be like super busy! everyday is either project, work or driving. actually, work and driving are standard... twice and once a week respectively... all the rest belong to project...... AH......... after that still got another two more projects! sob... aHAha... TP is very fast..... wat to do...

later gotta type out my jap draft.. and tml goin to earlier to makan in the morning and.... then.... do psycho project.... haiz......