It's off day for me today again!
but i'm working tml when he's not.
Hmmm... not fair.
haz... anyway, haven been feeling really well.

my cough have yet gone completely
and i'm plague wif a new prob.
havin runs... to and fro the toilet
throwing up was minor.
my stomach isn't really itself lately.
i've no idea wat is wrong
and obviously i do not like the idea
of visiting the doctor.
it's of minimum pain
but maximum gross after every run.

life's pretty aimless nowadays.
i gave up pursuing my dream of buyin a car
by the age of 21 when i decided to commit.
i stop thinkin for myself for the future
and let life live me for the past many months.
i can't say few. it's been quite long.
it has always been work. home. him.
nothing else.
Bernie recommmeded me a job and i applied for it.
(Thanks a lot girl.)
and even before i get shortlisted for interview
i'm starting to think about many possible stupid stuff
like there's gonna be no chances of going out together
if i start working there.
Urrrrrghz. i hate this feeling.
when will i ever stop thinking of such stuff???
Sighz.

suddenly i feel so slpy.
no idea why.

it's off day today!
am i suppose to go jogging?
my cough and flu subsided but it's still there.
i duno if the body can take it.
i dun wana create a scene (imagine myself fainting)
this is ridiculously STUPID.

nothing much nowadays.
it's always work.
not that busy. i mean how busy can i get
with a part time job?
been thinking lately.
what do i really want?
really i dun have a clue.
i need to settle down to think.
not 'float' ard like this.

my monster finally knows how to think.
he wans to start a joint savings account next mnth.
hopefully 5 yrs down the road
there's better news to come.
but i'm unsure myself.
it's the old lousy line.
"It's not you. But Me."
i duno. i jus feel uncertain nowadays.
i think i got to plan perhaps.
i think i'm resistant to change.
jus like wat i learnt in HR.
sighz.

another week of m.i.a
busy with work.
and some other stuff.
haven been getting enugh slp
and am really sick.

my monster finally got his license!
yAy! and the photocard license jus arrived an hour back.
no more worries.
my day at taka really sux.
complaints from myself are more than anything else
i can spent the whole day complaining non stop.
INCREDIBLY SLOW BUNCH OF PEOPLE.
kill me or watsoever.
i will never go there to work.

i'm goin joggin later
wif my running nose and cough
i duno if it's alrite for the body.
geeez.....

bad day today.
i kept asking myself
wat's wrong wif me.
i'm so afraid. i'm having doubts.
more doubts each day
towards my r/s.
xp calls him the monster.
i think it's a nice name for him.

i received a call today.
and was asked if i could work on sat.
but at... TAKASHIMAYA.
ehz... i accepted the offer.
but i'm really kinda scared.
coz i'm afraid of the crowd.
it's diff from bugis.
and i'm unfamiliar wif everyone there.
i hope i dun get into any trouble.
i hope.

initially, i planned to go jogging on sat.
but then... i got to work.
i think i need to start planning a exercise regime
for myself. anyone interested???
(Bernie??)
most probably jogging in the evenings.
on my off days. i mean off-days
when i'm alone.
but this week i think it's gone.

he's having his tp on thurs early morning
and i'm goin down wif him
and sat i'm working at the dreaded taka.
so no off days left this week.
should start next week if everything goes well.
i better start it asap.
before the fats weigh heavier each day.
to hell with the fats!!!!!!!

July already.
my last post was June.
about my hair colour.

nothing much goes on nowadays
i'm still holdin on to one job.
yeah.
at bugis. and tat reminds me...
of my promised list of facts.
not quite done yet still.
LAZY ok. i admit.

went to devil's bar the first time on 28/6
to celebrate ma fren'z bday.
nothing else interesting.
nice to see my frens. close pals.
esp xp.
and something joseph said made me think about
my bf. hmmmmm...
let's not go into tat.

i've finished reading the two books i bought.
got to get some more i guess. maybe 2 books for a mnth
how's that... cool.
anyway. i'm gettin real bored.
and getting real FAT nowadays.
i dun jus say FAT for nothing
i am really growing FAT
coz i see the change REALLY.
it's jus saddening.
urghz.